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dont read this, its boring

by SadSteve
written by SadSteve

I’m bored so….The first time, I was 14, I was scared to death my dad had a meeting at the school and he was going to find out I was flunking out.  I went into the cabinet and poured a bunch of Aspirin into my hand and swallowed them.  I laid in bed and closed my eyes.  This was my most sincere attempt because at the time thats what I knew, I had heard on TV (lots of times) about overdosing on pills. My teenaged brain didn’t have the defense mechanisms it has today.  All that happened was I ended up sleeping for 14 hours […]

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im not ok (i promise)

by fix or repair
written by fix or repair

And time an time again here i am .

About to take a massive over dose of venlafaxine and tramadol.

Mixed with codine just to see if its going to take my mind off my piss poor life

Ive lost every thing,  my home my family my kids my amazing girlfriend,  all because im fooked in the head.

Being homeless an living out the boot of your car sucks .

I was better than this

But now im just scum , whats the point ?

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losing the want to live(again)

by lilymylove
written by lilymylove

well this is my story…

i am 18. i am no longer in school bc i feel victim to a sexual predator when i was 16/17….my “best friend” gave him $100 for my number.. he sent me so much shit that i just couldnt deal w/ it….i have been depressed before and attempted to kill myself before, but this was different. i took 45 benadryl and hoped to never wake up….sad fact is, my life is still worse

before this i had a girfriend. we had sex and well she became pregnant. i was nervous as all heck but i was almost overjoyed to be a father […]

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I’m sorry I’m sad again.

by Lucid Oblivion
written by Lucid Oblivion

I thought I was okay. I did I promise you you have to believe me this time i thought i was back to… well not ‘okay’ but stable. definitely stable. Exams and yet another unrequited love and everything and I saw an old man walking in the street and he was walking but he seemed so tired and old and he was stumbling and I started screaming in my head and I had to dig my nails into my arms to stop the throbbing in my mind it won’t stop make it stop make it stop please I can’t I don’t want to end up […]

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To simply die would not be enough.

by Shreddable
written by Shreddable

I’ve been arguing with myself over the topic of suicide for a while now. I randomly came across this site from a Google search about suicide and felt inclined to sign up and post something. I’ll be surprised if anyone even reads this. Or comments. Or offers help.

I’m deeply, horribly depressed, and I don’t get why. I’ve never been abused. I’ve never lost a loved one. I don’t come from a broken family. I grew up in a comfortable lifestyle. I have no reason to be depressed. Alas, I am. I’m empty inside.

Although I grew up in a comfortable home, I never had […]

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a private message made public

by afakenickdrake
written by afakenickdrake

i am in pretty bad shape too man….i can feel you and see how many you and me there really are, imagine the total grief and helplessness and hopelessness in this world man, it is enough to be a world in itself, maybe that is what hell is. maybe hell is the collective weight of all peoples’ failed aspirations, expectations and dreams, maybe hell is the all weighty almighty DREAM that was never chased. it just lies there, emptying slowly, its mass and thickness invading all that comes in its way, it comes inside you and me thijs, through the nose, close your eyes all […]

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Scared to a point where i dont know what to do…..

by killmenow14
written by killmenow14

I’m afraid to go to school because all I get is called names over and over again. I get physically bullied too by both guys and girls, and that is not ok! No one ever believes me when I tell them that this is happening. I come home everyday with bruises on me and I usually bleed some times too. I go home to my parents where all they say is get over it. I feel lost and scared.

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Why live, when all you want to do is be dead?

by killmenow14
written by killmenow14

I get bullied, abused, raped, I have hardly any friends, my family is turning on me. I feel so alone, useless, unworthy. I don’t know what to do anymore. I have started cutting my self badly! Tried to commit suicide but because of where I live now I never succeed 🙁 Why do I have to go through this? What have I done to get this great life? All I do is hide and sure enough no one comes and looks for me.

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Just some thoughts as the end draws near

by drummer
written by drummer

When you listen to the old philosophers they all agree that the human mind is a thing of beauty and interest. For some people on the earth that still rings true, but for people like me and im guessing people like you this is bullshit. The human mind is terrifying. Yeah sure it can let some people work out a complex maths equation but show it a hint of weakness and it will exploit it and tear you to shreds, leaving you sitting in pitch blackness in the corner of a room dripping blood onto the floor.
That is what happens to me.

“Suicide is not […]

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Boy & Girl

by Erisa
written by Erisa

Why did he ask me for a kiss? Why did he have to tell me he loved me? How come my heart told me over and over again he meant it? I felt like I was floating even though he was wrapping his arms around me, telling me to never go. His laugh made me smile. His touch was felt everywhere and the way he kissed me tugged on my heart. Why did he have to fill my head with all these lies? Why couldn’t he just tell me he wanted one thing? It would have been easier. Why did he make me feel higher […]

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by why i dont no
written by why i dont no

it seems that my life revolvs rownd cuting drinking and wining im sick of it

two shots of wiskey in the morning folowd by wining bout my own pettey self pittey then carving a a name in to my skin over and over wining some more then oblitrating my self when im sober im like this haling my self not life my self and whant iv don  to my self the why iv liyd in an atempt to make frends then drinking to forget keeping my self alive is a dayly strugun that reqires three pills and 26 drinks and all i think of this is […]

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advice wanted on animals.

by ragweed
written by ragweed

Hi,

I have two pets and am thinking of how to deal with them in the scenario.  The pets already have a place to go to.   But the people they’ll be going to,  don’t know about my plans of course.  Now,  how do I do this best.  I cannot part from my animals right now yet, because they’re dear to me.  I’ve been thinking of  sending a delayed email to someone,  asking them if they want to take care of bringing the animals to their new home.   Pls. don’t call me selfish, I’m not hurting anyone this way, since no one gives a crap about me […]

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DONE.

by Kailee3
written by Kailee3

Here is my rant.. Best night of my life.. not.. you want to sit there and lie to me about who your with and what your doing? And you think i should of had respect for her? Uhmm no, what girl goes around with a guy who she KNOWS has a fucking girlfriend?.. I should of beat her ass. I don’t give a fuck anymore. Then we figure it all out and you turn back around and go to her house. HELL NO! I’m not playing anymore. I’m done.. I don’t want to be here.. I’m tired of the lieing of tonight..

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Too far gone…

by r3a9an
written by r3a9an

I really don’t know what I’m doing. I’m extremely suicidal, I have no fear of death and I welcome it’s emptiness. However, I have this insane little happy part of myself that won’t shut up about all of my hopes and dreams and how they could still happen. I really feel like two people at once sometimes. I don’t know whether to feel good or bad that they both agree I’m ugly and look nothing like they do in my head. (I have a lot of self-hate.)

I think it might be worse because I don’t feel like I have the right to feel this way. […]

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Gone Mad

by orangish
written by orangish

I would like to make myself as unattractive to the opposite (or same) sex as possible. Because it annoys me so goddamn much when people use appearance as a basis for liking someone. I want to gouge one eye out, file my teeth down into stubs, and grow a dreadlock-beard while allowing my hair to get all matted and nasty. #$%!#$%^!^

I’m going more crazy than normal and trying to avoid shoving my head in the oven or something.

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by Charlotte
written by Charlotte

i dont want to do this anymore. i want to call someone so maybe they could convince me not to do it, but i have no one. thinking about the future makes me feel so sick and i just dont want to be here for it.

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insane

by pain numb
written by pain numb

My head is pounding i cant take the screams..i turned 18 today why aint i happy? Why does she keep banging on the door?? Cant she leave me already?? I dont even know why im writing here right now but i just need to talk without being yelled at or judged..why wont she understand im nlt crazy!! All i want is quiet..i want to rest..im in my bathroom sitting on the floor..my wrists are bleeding and it wont stop..im scared..i want to sleep..just sleep and stay like that..my hands are getting numb its getting hard to type..theres blood on my shirt and the […]

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