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How do I deal with depression, without meds?

by richard.sc4 4/2/2013

written by richard.sc4

I’ve been feeling depressed for a while now, basically for the last 10 years or so. Really the one person who has kept me from thinking about suicide, and who got me to stop cutting has been my girlfriend for the last four years. A couple days ago she tried to tell me that things weren’t really working out, and basically she thought it would be best if we took a break from being in a relationship. At the time she made a convincing argument, basically saying neither of us has time, effort, or financial stability to deal with a relationship. I’m under the impression […]

4/2/2013 6 comments

by hopefuldreamer 4/2/2013

written by hopefuldreamer

It really surprises me how my mood can go from being OK (I wasn’t entirely happy) to Â me feeling like utter scum. I started talking more in lunch and fifth period and I usually don’t talk so whenever I do I feel like people just look at me like “why do you even open?” because of the looks they give me, but that doesn’t bother me that much compared to talking to the people you like because it feels like “am I annoying to you?” Â I don’t know maybe school’s just another trigger for me but I feel like “look at all these people probably […]

4/2/2013 0 comment

by Sam 4/1/2013

written by Sam

Why try to live if it’s harder to live than die why would it be better to suffer. I think the only reason I’m still here is because I’m living for others who rely on me as I rely on them.

4/1/2013 4 comments

So Confused

by kissnm10 4/1/2013

written by kissnm10

I hate how inevitable it feels. Like, I can pretend all that I want to be happy or that I have purpose or whatever, but it doesn’t change my fate. Like I’m destined for suicide. It’s what I always come back to, and it’s getting harder and harder to say no to it anymore. I don’t want to say no. I just want to be done with all this pain, and this world only dishes out pain. ItÂ isn’t going to end in this lifetime, so it’s like my only shot is in the next. But shit, I’m a Christian, and suicide is a sin. Will […]

4/1/2013 1 comment

by maxxie 4/1/2013

written by maxxie

I’m drunk
I took too many pills
I’ve been cutting myslef.
tonight seems like the night i shiould kill myself
goodbye,

4/1/2013 4 comments

Why do I bother trying?

by Soroxen 4/1/2013

written by Soroxen

I’m such a hypocrite.

I talk big about staying positive and happy, yet I can’t find my own reasons for this. I’m literally so stressed out right now that I feel like I should just end my own life to end all this pain and torture.

Anything I ever do isn’t good enough. Whether it’s getting good grades, getting accepted to a good university, or to winning a sports tournament, nothing is good enough for my parents.

I’m a lazy person. That’s just who I am. A 17 year old girl that’s at the end of her senior year, who’s lazy and likes to lay in bed or […]

4/1/2013 3 comments

Claustrophobia sets in

by lesley 4/1/2013

written by lesley

I really think I am a loser.

I’m almost 25, living in a tiny room in my parents’ place. I know they think I’m a drag and a burden. I should have worked harder in college and not gotten kicked out. I just didn’t give a damn about my classes and I should’ve just argued it out and changed majors, but I didn’t and I flunked a third time. Three strikes right?

XXX

Working part-time at a pretty thankless job, but they’re all thankless. The only full-time employees are managers, of which there are 5 as oppossed to 7 employees. That seems pretty out of whack to me.

I’m […]

4/1/2013 2 comments

I’m just tired.

by TisxIxKasa 4/1/2013

written by TisxIxKasa

I’m desperate.

For excuses.

For reasons.

For encouragement.

Every night I have to convince myself not to do something drastic.

I have to look at myself in the mirror, and I have to lecture myself for so long just to tell myself not to cut, not to think terrible thoughts, not to attempt suicide, not to cry, not to do anything that harms myself.

I think I’m losing myself.

I’m not feeling as how I used to.

I can’t stay happy. I fake a smile when I’m in school.

But I don’t talk. People talk to me, and I nod as a sign that I’m listening. I’m done with talking.

I don’t know if I’m […]

4/1/2013 3 comments

I keep failing my attempts.

by finalMixx 4/1/2013

written by finalMixx

Ive been mixing alcohol with heroin and tying a bag around my head. at first my bag was too small so id fall asleep with it off. i got a bigger bag (30 gal) and managed to fall asleep with it on. I apparently took it off while unconscious. Idk if i should tie it tighter or abandon this method for something preferable. id jump but i live in a very flat city. maybe i should just do a ton of heroin. its pretty nice. hard for me to keep down a proper amount of alcohol tho so im quite discouraged

4/1/2013 4 comments

Taking A Break From Life

by TrumpetChick99 4/1/2013

written by TrumpetChick99

I’m tired of trying to be like I was before; happy, etc. I just want to take a break for a little while. I’m not going to cut, or at least I’ll try not to, but I’m not going to really be happy either. I think that Trevor doesn’t like me. I’m not using any buts this time. No hope for it. I’m done with him. For real. No crawling back. Thinking back on it, he’s probably at least 25% of why I was so unhappy before. I just don’t care about him. I mean, I don’t even want to think about him. Or any […]

4/1/2013 2 comments

Can you believe it?

by TisxIxKasa 4/1/2013

written by TisxIxKasa

Last night, someone pointed out all my flaws. She told me about how I’m a burden to others. She gave reasons as to why it would be better if I was gone. She opposed all my life decisions. I know she has no right to tell me I’m living my life incorrectly, but I was taught to respect and listen to the thoughts of my elders.

She persuaded me to believe her. And I did.
I asked her to buy me pills so I could end my selfish activities. Instead, she called me stupid, selfish, and so many other words just because I insisted.
She then […]

4/1/2013 9 comments

It’s just to much

by Sam 4/1/2013

written by Sam

The world goes on without you here. adjust or justÂ collapse. I never been been good at adjusting. Hell I don’t feel comfortable besides when I’m alone. I know what it would do to my family if I killed myself. I wish things were easier. I wish it was not so hard. I fail at school, friends, family,Â boyfriends, eating, and self control. I’m not gonnaÂ graduate high school I don’t have the energy. I think I’m gonna go. I won’t be back most likely wish me luck. Peace.

4/1/2013 6 comments

Broken

by Lossofair 4/1/2013

written by Lossofair

I have a good life friends that care about me my dad has money and we are doing fine but my mom died when i was six from breast cancer she got it from pregnancy i’m always missing her even though i don’t remember her i sometimes feel its my fault she died, and on top of that i get okay grades but never good enough for my dad i stopped trying which made it worse but im no longer motivated i just don’t care anymore. He yells at me all the time saying words don’t matter but today was the worst i feel broken […]

4/1/2013 5 comments

Too long without a job

by MomoTelle 4/1/2013

written by MomoTelle

I’ve worked to support myself for over thirty years. I’ve always taken care of myself without complaint and without asking for handouts. Now, because I’m older, no one will hire me.

I have so much experience and I am very good at what I do. No one cares. All they see is an old, overweight woman. I speak with agencies and potential employers on the phone and they are so excited to meet me but when I go in for an interview they say there is nothing for me at the moment. The moment has lasted two years now.

I will lose my apartment in a month […]

4/1/2013 4 comments

What’s the point?

by kissnm10 4/1/2013

written by kissnm10

Is there really a point to any of the shit we do? It all seems so meaningless and empty. I don’t want the stupid American dream. I just want to enjoy my life, but that won’t happen. Not in this world. It really does suck.

4/1/2013 2 comments

A Little Poem I like to call “Get Over Yourself”

by ImNothing_ 4/1/2013

written by ImNothing_

I am not a wall
I am not a door,
Why is it okay for me to always be ignored?
Lack of importance, lack of self-respect
Suicide conquers alot of people,
please let me be the next.
Day by day,Night by niight
No more battling
I can’t win this fight.
Scars are there to remind me, how I used to feel,
but I take a step back to look,
nothing seems to be real.
I go through the motions,
every fucking day,
but when you ask me what’s wrong,
I don’t know what to say.
Darkness is around me,
everywhere I turn,
Happiness is what […]

4/1/2013 1 comment

Coward in life, and in death?

by Just_that_guy 4/1/2013

written by Just_that_guy

I stumbled upon the Project while looking for ways to make the End look like it wasn’t planned. Â It’s only made me more sad to see that there are so many people that feel similar to me. Â It’s beautiful though, to see so many likeminded folks listening, and offering support to those that can’t find it in the real world. Â I’m thankful the trolls haven’t embedded themselves yet.

I’m 30 in June, which makes me old in my mind. Â My 20’s have come and gone, leaving only confusion, amazement, and disappointment. Â I’m more successful now than I once thought I would be, but nowhere near where […]

4/1/2013 3 comments

how do i get barbiturates ???????????????????????????????????????? I WANT THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

by theguy12 4/1/2013

written by theguy12

4/1/2013 1 comment

barbiturates and Ryunosuke Akutagawa

by theguy12 4/1/2013

written by theguy12

this is Ryunosuke Akutagawa a Japanese writer i like him he killed himself in 1927 i am planning to free myself of this world in 2014 two year before the global oil peak in 2016 like Ryunosukei feel uneasy about the future HOW DO I GET BARBITURATES Ryunosuke killed himself with an overdose of barbitalÂ in the afterlife if i cant be with god i wish to go to the same place as Ryunosuke

4/1/2013 0 comment

The circle is closing in.

by jayss2k07 4/1/2013

written by jayss2k07

Every day there is something new–some new problem, some new slight real or imagined.Â Â I don’t want to deal with them anymore.

IÂ need to make a decision soon on the best way to die.Â Â Any spare moment I have is spent thinking about the best way to kill myself.Â Part of me wants to get a gun and shoot myself in the head in the middle of the woods.Â That way even if I don’t die right away, I’ll bleed out.Â Â A gunshot to the head is lethal, about 100 percent effective especially if I do it in a secluded area and no one finds me […]

4/1/2013 1 comment

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