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I hate it here on this planet I want to die. I’m just scared to do it.
I swear, I have lead bones. they weigh me down. I promise you, I have water in my lungs. I drown all the time. I don’t know why I feel this way. I’ve never known why and that is the worst part. I live in a happy family and i’m the dark cloud. i’m the rain on their parade. I guess you could say I have a great life and looking at it from another point of view, I can see how that would be true. but I feel like I am dead on the inside. and I wish I was on the outside. I’m […]
They say happinnes is contagious.
Really? I keep being around people who are happy – and I feel freaking miserable.
This pic just kinda spoke out to me, don’t really know why..
Maybe some of you will be able to laugh a bit (and I guess that’s already a win).
But for me, I resign myself to being just like garfield.
when I go to ask for help I get too scared of being sent away and everyone’s judgement. what if they all think i’m crazy or insane or something,
My brother tries to talk to me when I’m crying and it just makes it worse and i just want to punch him in the face.
the man i looked up too, my grand father, passed. mt dad lost his job so now we have no money. my grades keep dropping, I’m cutting more and more.
I’m scared and helpless, I want help and a friend. I have tons of “friends” but none that are actually there for me. My […]
I like contributing to this site. I don’t think I help anyone. I feel like I only share. I relate. I feel normal here.
That being said, I am tired of being so sad. I don’t think I can be any other way. Not for the long haul. The thought of being like “this” another 30 some odd years makes me feel nauseous. The thought of doing that alone or around people I despise… I just shudder to think about being stuck in that way.
Over the years I have heard so many mantras, tips, and tricks that make my head spin. They don’t work for me. […]
So does anyone feel like me and want to commit suicide in a lame way – not quickly, but just by not taking care of myself and not worrying about consequences?
I’m afraid to actually kill myself quickly and noticeably because I don’t want people to think poorly of me. I know, it’s stupid, I’d be dead.  I just have been through a lot and I don’t see life worth living.  So why not just have fun, not care about what situations I put myself in, and then whatever happens happens?
Or is that too slow a process? There’s a lot of pain while waiting. Â What else can I […]
Why is it that children are not educated on mental illness? As a 4th grader I remember promising myself I would never do drugs. It was nailed into our head that we would be pressured into things like drugs, alcohol, and sex. We were taught we were at risk of giving into peer pressure, we were always taught to say no, but why weren’t we also taught that the chances of having a mental illness is extremely high before we even get out of high school? Why didn’t someone explain that when everything seems so out of control, it’s not okay to starve, it’s not […]
I’m going to keep reading and commenting on the stories on this site, but…so many of the people posting here are in so much pain, and…not knowing how to help just hurts so much. Â 🙁
Does anyone have any suggestions on how to cope with this?
The stories on here make me want to curl up into a little ball and cry and cry… Â 🙁
We stay alive because we know the pain we would cause those we love is much worse than the pain we are feeling inside.
On the search for finding truth, how can you recognize the truth as truth, if you are searching for something that you don’t know?
I wonder if I am talking to myself.
I cannot remember a day when I have not thought about suicide. Someone wise stated that thoughts of this kind are solace, they get one through many a bad night.
Extraordinarily lonely. Have been unable to call out for help. Helium or pills? Both perhaps? Add some cutting and alcohol.
Oddly, I think I am amazing at concealing how I feel. I am exhausted. I would so, so, so love a hug.
Pathetic really.
Scared of a failing. Scared of panic. Can’t be bothered with the suicide note thing. Guess I am maturing. Dead silence.
I am ugly. I am fat. I am everything you say I am.
I am a btch. I am a slut. I am nothing compared to you.
I am stupid. I am horrible. I am worthless and a fat cow.
I am a horrible person. I hate myself and want to die.
All because you told me I was these things.
All because you bullied me. I can barely speak.
I have lost everyone. I believe it’s because
I am small.
No one would want a stupid btch like me.
No one would care if I died.
No one would mourn if I died.
No one would see me if I cried.
Everyone caused me to not […]
Well bye my SP friends, I am jumping and flying off of a tower by my home. this time I will succeed and if I don`t I will once again return. I’ll be alive for until tomorrow. but until then I will draw butterflies on my body and hope to fly like them.
{Caterpillar~Cocoon~Butterfly}
I want to do it, but like some people I have my reservations do to the simple fear: What if I fail. What if my suicide doesnt go smoothly, what if I mess up or half way through chicken out and its an unsuccessful suicide and I like.
I could live with the family knowing that I wasnt as happy as I appeared, and the disapointment of me not going to them. But would I get fired from work? I work in mental health, I deal with depressed and suicidal people all the time. We talk about what is worth living for and so on. I […]
Well this is basically an update of how i’ve been and where i’m at in life. I have turned 15 and my depression is eh more or less better, it isn’t as constant as before and now it’s more of a few days a week or so. My mother has found out i self-harmed and has told my doctor which created a huge shit storm that included me talking to a social worker and seeing a psychologist. Well i saw this psychologist and it was not what i thought it would be. She was very nice and fairly young and i went once a week for […]
Today I really tended and had the urge to cut myself and to plan my suicide. I felt really terrible today. It started this morning, the thoughts of don’t want to live anymore. I had to find out what the methods are to kill yourself. I had to, just to feel calmer. I searched on the internet and found a list with success rates. It made me happy and calm. It gaves me safety. I was thinking about what method I will do first. Lots of the methods were really painful or really hard to do. Like using a gun. How would I ever get […]
My best friend stayed with me for 20 days, We were high the entire time laughing and listening to the radio, and watching cartoons, when he left it smashed my heart in half I was just coming down and the whole thing felt like I time warped through it all. My plan was to kill myself after my friend left, I made the most of the time but now the moment is on me, it warped so fast I cant believe it. Even seeing the names of any shows I watched with him makes my heart clench up, He doesnt expect it, I didnt realize […]
I just watched The Suicide Room.
The Suicide Project is so similar to The Suicide Room.
I recommend you all go watch it. It’s on Youtube.
I just want to scream. I hate myself. I’m clumsy, so I get hurt often, I’m not social, so I have no friends, I’m the shadow of someone I used to know, and honestly who could care about that. I feel so pathetic. You know someday it he’s so bad when I wake up I start rapidly shaking and tears are streaming out of my eyes for no reason until I almost puke even though I can’t feel the pain. I already plan on killing myself just waiting for when and how.