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If you are here on SP you shouldn’t be acting like a judge mental asshole prick. You shouldn’t be  judging what People here are doing wether it be cutting burning or what ever they do to NOT do those self harming things
so if your going to be a judge mental asshole them you can just leave SP or not comment on anyone’s posts.
either way, keep your asshole words and thoughts to yourself and stop upsetting those who are already upset enough.
My mind is so foggy I can’t even write about what I’m thinking about. Even though I am on anti-depressants, my depression has gotten a lot worse over the years. Although I think a lot of it is situational. I never get out of the house and I don’t have much interaction with friends. Sometimes I’m so tired of digging myself deeper and deeper into this hole that I am trapped in. As soon as I see light, I crawl back in, probably due to fear. I had a job a few months ago and I was doing a lot better but I quit. Every […]
Time, wish you were here, and great gig in the sky by Pink Floyd
i often feel suicidal and have tried but failed, always been heavily depressed with job/social/college which often takes me to the edge.
its amazing how quickly something can come along and take some of those feelings away, maybe because it gives a reason to live. i got a new car, a Datsun 260z which im starting to restore. Cars are something i have a passion for.
Because I am not safe to love.
He doesn’t love me. He doesn’t love me. He doesn’t love me.
I can’t. Who am I if he doesn’t love me?
Who am I?
Why, why wont he love me anymore? I cannot just die feeling like this. And I cannot not die feeling like this.
Why. Why doesn’t he love me?
I went to school today extremely tired because I stayed up trying to get a project done and this after staying up really late and sleeping until noon. I haven’t started my homework yet because I can’t keep focused enough to do it  so I’ve decided to write and get some things off my chest.
I’ve been feeling suicidal lately and I guess I could say the worst I’ve ever felt and I haven’t really been doing much about it but these days because things are getting bad I secretly long to talk to someone but I guess I’m afraid to because I Â don’t really talk to […]
Why do i feel so .. merr slutty ? Heres how it goes.. I’ve been talking to L as friends since April.. Now hes saying he loved me.. Yet in October he totally fucked me over.. Ignored me started seeing a new girl.. Now L is telling me he likes me alot & shit.. but i kinda like G .. G & L go to school together.. Same grade I do so believe.. FML :((((
L is a sweet guy.. but doesn’t say much..
G is a charming guy.. says alot.. understands me more.. Makes me smile a bunch…
I just feel horrible! I was talking […]
I don’t think I am that messed up of a person. But right now all I want is to go to sleep and never wake up. The root of the problem is that I am lonely. You see, all I ever wanted was a wife and children. I know, it sounds lame, but it is true. But that won’t happen. I came close, once, years ago. But two months before our wedding, she broke it off, because “God told her to”. since then, I have tried again, but I’ve never felt a connection to anyone. And I know that as far as problems go, that […]
I cant stop thinking about her. what could I have done different? I loved her and I let her down. The other day was the anniversary of her suicide. People tell me I couldn’t have known, but I knew something was wrong. Now i have a new girlfriend but i feel terrible. I never went to her funeral. I thought everyone would blame me. I was wrong, I am the only person who blames myself . But how can’t I. I was her boyfriend and she killed herself. I only wish it had been me instead. She was the most amazing person i knew. She […]
More and more I think that “If I die young” has a lot of truth behind it.
Why doesn’t anyone listen when we’re still here to voice our opinions? Because it’s “all in your head”, “you just need to cheer up” and “focus on the happy things in life” OH why didn’t I think of that -_-. On the other hand, if I were to go back to those same people with a physical disgnosis like cancer or even a broken bone…. I’d get a lot more sympathy and a lot more support. How is this alright? The millions of people with mental illness have […]
I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut.
I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not cut.
I will not cut. I will not cut. I will not […]
Sleep, please put me to rest tonight.
Sweet Dreams, carry my mind away.
Pillows, help me relax my thoughts.
Blankets, keep me warm and safe.
Sleep, don’t make me wish I was awake.
Sweet Dreams, please don’t terroriz me.
Pillows, don’t suffocate me in my sleep.
Blankets, please don’t strangle me tonight.
Sleep please be the escape I need… Don’t be a constant reminder of my everyday pain.
Please be the comfort and security I need.
I’m unhappy, more than unhappy actually. I don’t know whats wrong with me I have nothing left to live for and if I could I would drop dead right now. I know there are people that love me but the one person I want to love me doesn’t. The women who knew me before I knew myself, the women who carried me for nine months hates me, and I cant do a damn thing about it. Today I realized that I have become just like her. i am mean and I say things to people just to hurt them. I can’t stop myself and it […]
Hey, here’s an idea. How about you just fucking kill me already? Wouldn’t that be easier for everyone? Fuck you. It’s finally my turn to be selfish.
i wish to die. Simple. My only one wish is to die.
Please. Honor my christmas wish.
im getting my fail report and i know my life is a fail. can i die?
this is something i wrote by myself:
Shadowy Silence of Death
I know I’m slipping away from life as I write this last entry of my dairy, from my desk room on a lonely, dark and desolate night like this. The wind howled like dogs at a pound, begging to be released, but caged by bars that seem more than a way to keep stray dogs of the street. In the cold, gloomy forest stood an ominous […]
I am ready
I am ready
I am ready to accept
I am white chocolate
I am a delicate doll
I am a ninja
I am the sum of my being
I am a shining star
I am a shard of glass
I am the echo in your ear
I am not who you say I am
I am sad on cloudy days
I am the one who loves you
I am a believer in hope
I am a follower of Christ
I am a person
I am a person
Not that much different than you
I am present in this moment
I am
I am
He was beautiful in every single way, the way he looked at me with his big brown eyes, and how I knew everything he was going to say before he said it. Everything was nonsense it was like life was no longer real and I was living a fairy tale. It wasn’t until I met him that I knew, your life changes in every way when you meet the right person. He was the right person because when I was with him nothing else in this world mattered, the weight of the world was lifted off my shoulders and I couldn’t help but to fall […]
…and I don’t want to. I’d rather fall asleep and never wake up. scince I can’t do even the smallest of chores, I try, but then I’m so tired, I say to myself these chores will be here tomorrow. then tomorrow comes and I repeat the cycle all over again. I avoid family functions because I don’t want to talk to anybody. it’s nit fair to my son or my husband. I feel like such a disappointment to them and how can they understand my feelings when I am fully functional…my legss work, my arms work. I can walk talk and sometimes laugh. so why […]
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