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So I guess you had to leave, You were born with wings, But you were never happy, ‘Til the angels sing….

by Nat....
written by Nat....

Okay, So urm… I’ve decided that the only place, really that I should complain about my life is on here. I just don’t wanna hurt the people around me anymore….

On Saturday- A new friend showed me the song Hollywood Undead- Coming back down. I had it in my head for ages, Just over-analyzing it. I had this horrible feeling (partly to do with “voices”?) that we’re all going to die…. I literally went crazy over this.

Monday Night- Nick’s cousin is in a car crash, And unfortunately Dies. R.I.P

Today- I have came to a sort of conclusion that people are going to keep dying until i’m […]

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the outsider

by abt1212
written by abt1212

 

I can’t stand this. No one talks to me except to say “sorry” after they push me. People surround me in their own world—they don’t even see the girl next to them on a suicide website. All they see is a block sitting in the spot they want to stand in. I really hate these people. Always being a last-resort. Listening to them whine about nothing. On top of that I got an email from my dad this morning proclaiming that my life is at an all time low and that I should call him. I really hate everything right now. I feel so bad […]

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Alone

by abt1212
written by abt1212

My bdd has reached an all time high

I stand in front of the mirror and watch as my body grows

I feel gross

I used to be the skinny, gorgeous one

Now I always feel fat and ugly

Add that to my crappy personality and you have a real winner right?

I have no real friends, no one to talk to

I have a new addiction: sexting to random strangers online

i used to be the good girl

The attention makes me feel good, hot, strong

it’s also good for my social anxiety.

I wish I could be so confident with the people I know

No one around me knows my dirty little secret

What I am […]

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Ok, I have gotten to the point where I know I need help.

by Disire
written by Disire

I truly don’t know where to start; what I feel right now is from years adding up. It is from everything I have delt with and truly feels like nothing is ever enough. Please bare with my bad grammer and sentence structure I am typing as it comes to me and I’m a little shoken up at the molment.

Ok background I have two brothers who are older than me the eldest we will call Nick the middle Kevin. I am a gay male and I know the fact but have never accepted it. If you ask me I will tell you truthfully I am. If […]

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by butterflyfly
written by butterflyfly

I’m back to not sleeping. Completely consumed with thoughts of suicide all day long. I’ve purchased the materials needed for my exit. But I continue to carry on. Maybe I’m never going to do it. Im so close though. I don’t want to feel like this anymore. Its been one bad thing after another. And things are reaching a peak. Something is going to happen. And when I finally hit the wall Im ready this time.

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Coming up, falling down….

by the most boring person ever
written by the most boring person ever

Its been a bit over a month since I made my first (and only) post here. Since then, I rebounded, was on a high, doing alright actually.

Today Ive rebounded back down. Funny how suddenly it hits. And I can tell you when it hit. Some jerk at work with no courtesy ringing and carrying on that I send him a weekly report, which he doesnt want (I guess delete and ignore like everyone else does isnt in his brain). Just being put back in my place is all it takes. Now here I am wishing it was all over again.

Of course its much more complex […]

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The Amazing Spoderman

by cus
written by cus

So, you know the constant failings of out favorite superheros in their private life, like peter parker? I’m finding that the more time progresses, the more my life turns into a generic superhero movie without the superhero part. Maybe I need to get bitten by a mutated spider. Maybe I should introduce my brains to the wall. Idk. Tonight will tell.

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I’m coming back down..

by Kailee3
written by Kailee3

Here we go again.. All those painful thoughts of you.. The way you used me for sex, the way your kissed me, the way you lied, all of it..
You took my innocence away when I was 13.. I don’t understand how you could? I just wanted to cuddle.. But every time we madeout you would get hard & want me, slowly undress me & pull me on top.. When I tried to get off you pulled me back down.. It hurt so bad! It felt like fire inside of me.. How could you?

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I promised I’d follow him into the dark… Rabbit Hole

by StuckInThisBody
written by StuckInThisBody

for the first time in 18 months I saw the love of my life in action-via video. It was filmed just months before I met him. he was so happy, smiling and laughing. i recalled that smile, remembered that laugh. felt that feeling he gave me. we just lied in bed all day holding each other. but underneath we felt the same thing. we walked in on me once as I was vomiting up a large amount of pills. my liver will never be the same. I watched his eyes fade over the months as he sunk deeper into PF. I followed him down the […]

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It’s come to this.

by eyemnag
written by eyemnag

Hi, everybody.

I didn’t use to think of myself as suicidal in any sense.

I’m seventeen years old, and I have felt so overwhelmed lately I don’t know what to do or how to cope.

My dad was diagnosed with hypertensive heart disease this year, and he’s been in and out of the hospital. He doesn’t live with me, but I go to his house nearly everyday after school to be with him, because I’m never sure when he won’t be around any longer.

I’ve also been struggling with financial issues with my family, and to top it all off, school has been absolutely exhausting.

I’ve begun to skip classes […]

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expectations vs reality

by hurt
written by hurt

If I could rub the genie lamp I’d wish for a view of how everything turns out after I exit or before. Life is tolerable. It’s true I don’t have the white picket fence that little girls dream of…when I was little I was trying to survive my reality and that left no time for dreaming of white picket stuff.

If I knew for certain this is all my life would ever be, then it would be oh so simple to say good bye. Maybe some people don’t find their soul-mates and they’re alone for ever. Or maybe I’m too fucked up to have a soul […]

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I have decided.

by demonloser
written by demonloser

I do not care what anyone else thinks of me, or feels for me, or wants out of me.  I will wait for the one person who has loved me unconditionally to die, and then I will take my own life.  I do not want anything else for myself from this life or anyone else.  It is not worth trying to change or improve just to attract or pacify others.  I don’t want anyone else’s love.  I don’t want respect, or fame, or comfort.

I only want death.

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The Unknown Normal

by Miss.Mayhem
written by Miss.Mayhem

Someone I’ve loved since the moment I’ve ever talked to them is slipping away. The sad part is I’m letting him. I can’t do anything about him not loving me anymore. I’ve fought for him for 9 months, if not more. I’m done. I can’t keep waiting on him to realize if I’m what he wants or not. I haven’t talked to him since Thursday. He says he cares and would do anything for me but I just don’t know anymore. I don’t know if it was love or lust. Maybe neither  Maybe all of it was just a big joke, but I just can’t take it anymore. The […]

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broken heart by Morgan Fowler

by rawrimaturtle..
written by rawrimaturtle..

There’s this monster, who looks like us. walks like us. And speaks like us.
tho they’re only out there for one reason.
to break your heart.

That’s what we’re told anyways.
and well. i guess you could say I’ve seen this monster.
and yes, he broke my heart, though he did it without knowing he would.

See, he fell for me. and i fell for him. but that’s when the pain starts. its just so small you cant feel it.
He told me things, like how happy he’d be to grow old with me. Which made me fall for him even more.
But one day, his feelings […]

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If only I knew..

by fucktheworld.hard
written by fucktheworld.hard

Oh how I’d love to die. I really would. To just escape this reality, and “get out of this labyrinth of suffering”, for anyone who has ever read that book. But I wonder, what happens when you die? If there is a hell, I surely don’t want to end up there. I’d rather be on this earth, than be eternally scorched in flames. But if it’s not real, I’d love to die. I wish I knew for sure…

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my story

by HeLpMe1233
written by HeLpMe1233

just needed to share my story
first of all as a kid i was molested every weekend by my own uncle and grew up believing it was normal, although i knew i didnt like it
so i began to tell my mom what was happening and she reacted by not calling the cops but for her and my dad to confront him and threaten him,
this only worked for a little while and it started to happen again which later turned into a form of rape.
On top of all this i have a life threatening kidney problem which i have been dealing with since […]

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me

by scar
written by scar

I don’t really know why I cut, I just love looking down and seeing the cuts and feeling the sharp pain and the blood. Its like something thats mine, my own secret and no one else knows and I feel special and its good. I just hate how I have to try so hard to hide it, long sleeves, bracelets, because if it got out, I would never be seen the same again. I dont think people know how to react with it, I don’t either really. I’m just rambling now

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It’s like you’re stuck,

by whyme1718
written by whyme1718

It’s like you’re stuck.

You can’t see what’s behind you,

beside you,

in front of you.

Why me?

What did I do?

Do I have to apologize again?

It’s like you’re screaming.

No one wants to answer.

What happens if they do ask?

Can I handle that?

What will I say?

Do?

Please don’t ask me…

I don’t know what to say.

I think I’ll be okay.

I make no promises.

 

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