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Before Dr. Eben Alexander, noted neurosurgeon and scientist, fell into a coma in 2008, he would have scoffed at the poor delusional souls that claimed to have had near-death-experiences. It isn’t that he didn’t believe that they thought the experiences they relayed were real. It’s just that he was raised as a man of science and accepted the scientific view that such experiences were the result of oxygen deprivation and a malfunctioning brain.

According to his article published in Newsweek Magazine that appears on The Daily Beast, on Oct.8, that all changed when he had an out-of-body experience while in a coma.

“As Alexander explains, “I […]

I am sorry for being so selfish, but it selfish to ask me to stay. I have battled depression and forms of self harm for over ten years. I am tired, so tired! No one can say I didn’t try. I wish I was gone already and am angry that I was saved from my few death experiences. Not this time. I love my family. To them I am sorry that’s they should be so heart broken, but the death that I am speaking, I am living unspoken. I have all that I need, I am alone in this hotel room. No one knows […]

It’s amazing how little a single life matters.

The more people you encounter on a daily basis, the less value a single life will have. It’s desensitization. It happens to everyone from time to time. Such is also true with emotions; the more you feel a single emotion, the less significant it becomes. Depression is like that, too. It becomes normal, and you can take it for granted. You can achieve all your hopes and dreams, and find no joy in having done it because all you know is a sinking despair.

It’s easy to give in to that, to assume your emotions are you. […]

ive been trying to keep a happy face on for the last week because i dont want to hurt anyone anymore. its kind alike at first they were worried about me and now its old news and i make them sick to their stomach or something, i dont want to be a burden and i dont want people to feel obligated to listen to my whining. it hurts though, knowing that none i know has the power to help me. it hurts that i cant find a way out of my own misery and it hurts that i’ve reached out to everyone and nothing has […]

i’m young and stupid and niave and melodramatic,

i realize

but i need to be told so.

in my heart, i can’t see how i can be anything but alone.

i’m utterly devoted to someone who wants to forget me.

i have every reason to hate him, but my soft heart aches for him and no one else.

these thoughts aren’t like me, but tonight, it’s just him on my mind.

him i wanted to forget when i took a handful of painkillers,

awh, this drowsy numbness is better than missing him.

big scary black figure stand right b4 my eyes…and its telling me to get lost and die already….i started ignoring it…the figure increased in size and tone…it wont shut up so i started talking to it….its harrassing me…so i began holding convo with whatever this thing is….and were arguing…and my ability to breathe is low….i feel like im controlled, a black figure circling me..controlling my every move….HELP ME?

I really don’t know why I’m even writing this, maybe because I just can’t keep this to me anymore. It’s Friday and almost 5 AM, and here I am, on the computer while tears go down my face. I’m 15, and I just feel that I don’t belong in this world. I really never felt like fitting in. I look up at my friends and they’re either dumbasses or fucktards. This summer I tought I found a friend with who I could talk about everything, but less than a week than telling him that I had a crush on a girl we both knew, he […]

I’m just in outcast living in the shadows. I get bullied and teased everyday. I have no one there for me. My family has given up on me and moved on. Because of my past and my mistakes I have no friends. I try and make things right but its impossible. Everyone says to never look back but its hard NOT to look back on the things you regret. Ive already tried to commiit suicide in April and nobody knows. I’m planning on doing it again because I have nothing to lose.. If I killed myself tonight everything would still be the same. There still […]

no. I shouldnt be here anymore. Im so fucking anxious right now. I swear if i see more flaws on myself or flaws that worsened i want to gain the guts to fucking kill myself like i had the balls to before. I wasnt born right, lets just leave it that way. Even with AB+ grades school is a disaster. People dont call me by the person im meant to be. I live a lie at school. My identification there is a lie. No one in real life will ever fucking understand. In terrified of my mild eating disorder and the scale. I cant bare […]

The feeling i had, the loneliness i had, i wasn’t comfortable talking to any one cause i didn’t know how they would respond to it. i didn’t want anything going around. it’s bad how i absolutely didn’t trust anyone…
i made a mistake, it went from an argument between two people to and argument including half the school and i didn’t know what to do at the point.. i tried to make new friends, didn’t work. i had to lie to my parents so they didn’t find out that there daughter was a loser, their daughter had no friends, their daughter has issues i Didn’t […]

Hey I’m ariel
I’m 19yrs old
I am a female
I am black and native american
I have had suicidal thoughts many times
I have tried to commit suicide many times
I’m over that now
Ive come to realize life is to short and I wanna have fun
I live on the east coast
Do you?
Want to vent and become friends hopefully losing the suicidal thoughts?
Email me: arielgrn@gmail.com
I will answer maybe sometimes we can text or talk on the phone
Love all of you 🙂
Smile 🙂

Hi I’m new. I don’t really know what I should be saying. I don’t even know what led me here. A lot is going on. Usually I sit hard as stone, an expressionless look on my face and deal w/ everything. I have done it for years. I have no family left. I’m just another teenager in a foster home. I know people have worse situations than me. But I never knew I could hurt this much. Every night I just cry myself to sleep. I’m afraid of being put in another bad home. I’m afraid of what might be coming next. I’m breaking inside. […]

i’m 15 years old. my name is Jessica. im a sophomore. Ever since high school started i’ve lost completley EVERYTHING and EVERYONE i ever had. i’m not skinny, and i’m not rich. no where near either of those. i have glasses. im not a nerd. so overall, im basically a useless, pointless piece of lard ! >.> or at least thats what i feel like. ive been depressed for a few years. nobody really gets me. no one understands me. i got a little better for some time, and then last year, my freshman year, i just went through way to much shit for myself. […]

As its said is as it is, I feel I am another addict, not substance not drink, only but another feel, because as it is now, im addicted to how i feel, the sadness.

I want nothing more that it begone, but twice in head is that its one, what brings me peace is wgat hurts the most, but i fear not for me but for the girl I love, that it might just be to late! One girl, she brings my all the joy I could ever need and yet she feels much worse than me.. she doesn’t know, yet I’ve said before, its her […]

That feeling that everyone hates you? That you’ve got absolutely nothing to live for? That your life is horrid and you have nothing to look forward to?That feeling that no one cares and they wouldn’t notice if you were gone? The world would be better if I were dead.

Why won’t my head shut up? Why is it all I think is “what’s wrong with me, why doesn’t anybody like me?” Nothing seems to distract me, nothing makes it better! I’ve been single for 3 years, have lost god knows how many friends because I’m always miserable, the only ones I’ve kept are long distance so they can out up with me on the brief moments of contact we have! No one wants me, no one likes me, and here I am, on a Friday night, sat alone wingding like normal! And I wonder why I’m alone! 🙁 I wish I could break this […]