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I read Stories here all the time, because it reminds me that I’m not alone. Some people stories are way worse than man. I feel stupid complaining about how i want to die because i have low-self esteem. But i just do. It’s something i can’t help. Last night i had my first attempt. i took so many aspirins, and fell asleep so quickly, but woke up late this morning. And felt like shit this whole entire day. But i didn’t tell anyone of course, my eyes were so red and baggy, my stomach was killing me, and i had headaches, i felt dizzy. But […]

i called a suicide hotline to talk to someone about wantig to kill my self and my pain, i bearly started talking and she told me to hold on a minute, and i was on the phone waiting for atleast a minute till i got pissed, i realized it must have not been that important,wtf,

No one can change my mind.

What do I put in a note?

I keep thinking of suicide but have never planned exactly how im going to do it… I hate planning anything, I can hardly plan what time im going to wake up at, never mind what time im going to die at.. why cant death be easy? why cant I just fall asleep and never wake up without any effort?

I suppose if I had a gun, it would require very little effort, but unlucky for me.. I live in Ireland, so getting hold of one isn’t easy. The next best thing is probably just to jump off something very high… bar the whole ”falling” part, […]

i sit here alone in my apartment, i want to just leave this town but i cant deal with being in a group home again,im sick a being thrown every where,when im done with being protectivly placed i will jump a train if i have to,im alone,i always been,i called my support staff and she was being a ***** so i broke down,people that are there to sapport you  dont, some people may think if i want to end it so bad why dont i just do it, because the pain of knowing noone would give a damb rips my heart open,but the pain of […]

Just signed up. had googled “I want to die today” and found this site. I know I won’t get the permission I ‘d like… permission to end my life. Suicide is actually only my 2nd option. If I could I’d erase all trace of my life and existence… from all records including peoples memories. I wish I didn’t exist and hadn’t been born. Wish I could just click on “delete” and be gone today. I see no way out.

So as I am sitting here thinking about all the crap I have in storage, I realize it is a lot of my childhood memories. Stuff I always dreamed I would someday have a kid of my own to give it all to. As I realize that this will never actually happen, I start to decide to give away my past, good or bad. So then I start thinking about the other stuff I own, and since I have been bouncing around between friends’s houses with no place really to call home, and no job in sight, I know I can’t get much by selling […]

Sorry, I’ve been away. I am alive. I won’t be around much, I’ve got a lot of fixing myself to do, I lost the one thing that kept me sane.