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It will end

by Roaming_Soul 1/22/2012

written by Roaming_Soul

I’ve had it for a long time. I’m tired of feeling this way everyday, Im tired of being the fuck up that I am and Im tired of wondering when all of this will end. I won’t and I can’t do this any longer! This will be my last week and then it’s time for me to go. I have no idea what the other side holds for me but the thought of staying here is unbearable. My 16th birthday is less than a month away, but I can’t go that long…I just can’t! Im going to spend my last couple of days creating good […]

1/22/2012 3 comments

Repetition

by solace 1/22/2012

written by solace

I hate repeating myself but i am very stuck and didn’tÂ receiveÂ any help the last time i posted about this topic.

I am asking for some advice. I don’t need to be told “Yup. It sucks. Welcome to reality.”
I need help!

Are there any effective treatments out there for Borderline Personality Disorder? I’m worried about my mental health and would prefer to ask someone with personal experience before going to a doctor.

If anyone can help me and give me some advice. It would be really appreciated.
Thanks.

1/22/2012 8 comments

FAIL!!!

by SKREEM 1/22/2012

written by SKREEM

You’re probably not interested in what I have to say but I’ve been reading these forums for about a week after stumbling across them. I just want somewhere to leave my thoughts so I figured this would do.

As the subject line says…. I failed. Pretty badly. I look back at what could have been and compare it to what I am now and think ‘oops, I kinda screwed that up’. I won’t bore you all with the details but if you are reading this then you are reading the writings of a once talented sportsman, who moved to America to pursue his dream, had a […]

1/22/2012 1 comment

Maybe

by batdern 1/22/2012

written by batdern

I think about suicide quite often these days. I am waiting that irresistible wave that finally will sweep me to this inevitable moment of madness. A moment that past and future will disappear. Only the body between other side and now ,to be destroyed. Moment of crystal clear intentions of living in permanence instead of constant agony of trying to catch it. Such a delusion! No wonder most of us choose to live when we turn that corner of no return.

Why would anybody creates such a tempting site so I can actually sit and contemplate my demise? And more importantly who takes her/his time to […]

1/22/2012 3 comments

Numb

by Blue245 1/22/2012

written by Blue245

I feel depress, I cannot sleep and the new semester starts in a day. I am thinking of dropping my classes and getting the refund. Every time, I feel slightly depress or angry, my nerves get so intense to the point where I start sharking, which is uncontrollable.Â I’ve been feeling frozen and empty for about three hours. I’ve done some bad things last year and I feel like I am repeating myself now that I am in communication one of my ex’s. The reason why I can not sleep because I feel like hurting myself. Whatever I say to him, he gets so angry and […]

1/22/2012 1 comment

What do I do?

by Lost45 1/22/2012

written by Lost45

I was molested when I was younger by a friend of my family. This was when I was about five. I have another memory of being molested around age nine or ten. Â I began having terrifying and recurring nightmares soon after these experiences. I told my mom what happened to me on my sixteenth birthday because the dreams were intensifying. She never believed my story…. I was close to my mom. Her doubt hurt me even more than the pain of the molestation. The rest of my family does not know about what I have experienced.

1/22/2012 2 comments

just a nightmare..i guess!

by chrissie 1/21/2012

written by chrissie

I had a dream of shooting some bad guy wearing a black bandana, he was attacking a bunch of people including my family..it was very vivid..very real..lots of screaming. I didn’t stay up late or eat late..if I ever have a dream it usually happens or something real close happens..I’m a little scared, what could that dream mean?

1/21/2012 1 comment

… it is in pardoning that we are pardoned

by cj 1/21/2012

written by cj

1/21/2012 2 comments

Not afraid

by alautox 1/21/2012

written by alautox

Im not afraid of death because I know exactly whats going to happen. It will be just like before I was born.. i will no longer exist, i will no longer have to wake up only to struggle to get out of bed and face another day just like the last. The only think that seems to keep me going is music.. it gives me some drive, but it wont be enough in the long haul. In school, college and in life in general I have always did my best to do ”as little as possible”… anything that has ever mattered in my life I […]

1/21/2012 5 comments

Well Here I am Again.

by SadisticYellowBird 1/21/2012

written by SadisticYellowBird

Before, I tried suicide. Got locked up in a loony bin for a while. It’s never left my mind. I want it—even now. As we speak. I need it. But more than anything right now, I just want to talk to somebody. I don’t know. Here’s something I thought was the last thing I would ever write; guess I was wrong.

Throughout all the noise,
Withstanding all distraction.
The first form of a laugh,
Starting in your throat.
The calm overwhelms,
Takes Control;
Pats your hand, Strokes your hair.
Fatal Reassurance .
What you once feared most ,
Now your closest friend.
A smile on your […]

1/21/2012 2 comments

It hurts so much!

by rawrimaturtle.. 1/21/2012

written by rawrimaturtle..

please.. Make the pain go away.. I’ll do anything!!

I like a total of three guys…
1. Aaron- lives far away and is always busy so we can’t really talk
2. John- lives far away
3. Garrett- lives close… But it seems like he only wants me sexually,

Love and life is so hard!!

I hurt to much! I don’t know if I can go on… I’m expecting a breakdown anyway now… I know I’ll have one… Just I don’t know when….

Please, help me!

1/21/2012 75 comments

I just want to survive

by jaboha14 1/21/2012

written by jaboha14

I had an absolutely amazing life for the longest time. I’m not attractive and I’m shy, but I had amazing and wonderful friends, very good grades, and I was happy. Over the summer I had to move across the country with my family. I am miserable here. Nobody talks to me, and they all look at me strangely at school because I’m punk and I have piercings and I’m not the most attractive person. I have no friends and no one to talk to. I tell my parents I’m upset and I can’t do this anymore, but they tell me it will pass and I […]

1/21/2012 2 comments

Fat.Ugly.Loser

by Kathy17 1/21/2012

written by Kathy17

Fat.Ugly.Loser.That’s all I hear from people when they think I can’t hear themÂ and some people will say it right to my face.I want to say something but I’m only the fat girl in the corner while her own friends laugh at her.Everyone is surprised how I’m friends with the popEven at home it’sÂ badÂ everyone always compliments my family and everyone’sÂ alwaysÂ surprised I’m related to them.The family of beautiful swans and I’m the ugly duckling everyone seems to liek whispering about how fat and ugly I am as if I don’t already know that.Is life really worth it when your a Â screw up?

1/21/2012 0 comment

My story

by kady_love 1/21/2012

written by kady_love

hello I’m katelin. I’ve been wanting to commit suicide for 2 years now and my mom doesn’t care. I went to the school counselor and she didn’t do anything and we never talk about it. my ex boyfriend of 9 months raped me when we were together. I don’t even know what to do anymore please help

1/21/2012 5 comments

Sorry for the duplicate post.

by deadright 1/21/2012

written by deadright

I do not know how I got two duplicate posts, I only clicked once. DorryÂ DR

1/21/2012 0 comment

This is MY Life

by itsmytimetogo 1/21/2012

written by itsmytimetogo

a combination of happiness and suffering

and smiling and crying

it is a journey God picked

for us to travel and see

who made it to heaven or hell.

I dont think thats fair though.

how do we know where we end up?

Does it even really matter??

We all die eventually.

We are eternally asleep when

we die.

So, no, it doesnt really matter.

Our souls will go across the universe.

Nothing will be destroyed when i

Die.

I dont even believe many people will remember me at all.

So why does all this matter so much?

There have been things on my mind that i just cannot

stop thinking of.

And i dont think those things have answers or

explanations.

1/21/2012 2 comments

First Post

by WiltedRose 1/21/2012

written by WiltedRose

Hi this is my first time posting here so I guess I’ll just tell you why I’m here. I’m depressed, I self harm, and I’m suicidal, but I can’t go through with it since I’m scared that I might go to Hell. So now I’m just living here… ugh

1/21/2012 7 comments

Questions with no answers….. :(

by rawrimaturtle.. 1/21/2012

written by rawrimaturtle..

all i do is, cry eat and sleep…. nothing more nothing less… I’m so empty..lifeless.. i feel this way constantly… i don’t know what to do… i find it helps when i can talk to people.. like john or aaron… I’ve been talking to john.. but aarons been busy and i miss him so much! aarons my ex boyfriend.. we had to weak up.. but I’m hopping we’ll get back together soon…
i need someone to talk to who won’t judge me.. I’m a depressed 14 year old girl…. i use to cut but stopped… i tried to kill myself twice.. well kinda.. i […]

1/21/2012 6 comments

I’ve had it with this damn double vision, My hand’s swollen, I can’t keep holding on, My heart’s sinking and stuck in deadly rhythm, I can’t fake it, I can’t, can’t brush it off….

by Nat.... 1/21/2012

written by Nat....

ok,Â So that guy started talking to me again last night, he wanted to do it again. But i made up excuses like i wanted to do but had other things to do and i had to go….

And then today on facebook, One of his friends who he told about our past actions asked me this….’answer this question honestly ok? â™¥Â if i offered to shag you 😉 what would you say? ;)â™¥’. I couldnt believe it…. I feel so dirty and used.

And all of that just added to yesterday, my dad didnt even say […]

1/21/2012 76 comments

No Emotion

by Ashley444 1/21/2012

written by Ashley444

I don’t really feel my emotions any more. I know that they’re there, but my mind just doesn’t seem to process them the way that it should. For example, when I watch the news, and there’s a story about somebody that was murdered, I realise that I should feel something. I should feel anger toward the person that commited the murder. I should feel pity for the victim and his/her loved ones. But I don’t feel anything. On the opposite end of the spectrum, if I’m hanging out with friends, if something happens that makes everyone laugh, I am always the last to join in, […]

1/21/2012 3 comments

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