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I can’t seem to help myself. I’m drawn to this site. It’s how I start my days. And I frequented the general section today. Off and on, wondering what to say. I don’t really have a story…not a short one. I’m not suicidal or even depressed, but I feel for you who come here and I can relate on certain levels because I have been suicidal in the past. I attempted suicide when I was a young teenager with pills. No one could even tell because it was the wrong kind of pills and probably not enough. I can go back in my mind and […]
So my family and I put up all the christmass decorations and all the trees up.. Its really depressing. I really love christmas to the point where i want to cry but i just cant do it. It hurts to be teased with all this joy and then dec. 26th its all gone. back to being depressed. i hate this but i love it! F*ck Life.
Suicide tonight….
Email: idiotsoftheworld2@gmail.com
Password:idiotsoftheworld2
Adieu and see you all in the next world.
does anyone know of any cases where someone didn’t die but just paralyzed part of their body.
At Thanksgiving dinner my uncle paused all the conversions and asked the table what their passion was. Everyone was taking their turn and saying things like golf, brewing, home care, horses. (family was excluded) When it came my turn I realized… I didn’t have a passion. I don’t love to do anything. A passion is something that your always relating other things to, something that is always on your mind. The only thing that fits those requirements for me is the thought of dying, or more specifically killing myself. Its all I ever think about, it’s on my mind 24/7. Its all I want right now, […]
I think in darkness we are able to snap out of the “routine world”. See life more than jobs, cars, shopping centers… We see humans. We see them going to work, going home, making plans, seeing friends, making mistakes, and moving on. We see their problems, and their worries. We see their goals and desires.
I have always though of life as a story you watch on TV. Even at times, I see myself like I was on the screen. I sit there, and I contemplate. Life is confusing, and the future is always uncertain. When is it going to end? What am I suppose to […]
This is my first time posting on this site though I have read it a bit before.
I’m 18 and have had a pretty shitty past 3 years. For the first two I was depressed and suicidal before it apparently turned to anxiety last year (or so I’m told be my doctors). I’ve been pushed around to 10 different therapists and doctors within this time. I miss those for to years more than anything. When I was depressed I was able to function – although like a zombie – and though resolute on wanting to die did not feel much of anything else. It was […]
Ok let’s be honest who wants to be depressed for years that sucks. This is my solution use what u have if u have some weed use it, got some benzos
use it. All im saying why be depressed feel good, and when u don’t need the drugs wean yourself off just by me reading these posts no one should feel like killing yourself get high not to high just to feel good u can save a addict but u can’t save someone who already taken there life think about it
It took me over an hour to get out of bed this morning. Â It wasn’t because I was tired. Â I had slept for 12 hours. Â But I didn’t want to get up. Â I didn’t want to be awake.
I don’t know how I am going to get through this semester. Â Papers to write, assignments to do, tests to take and hopefully not fail.
I am so tired.
The depression immobilizes me. Â I can never seem to get everything done.
I wish I could stop time.
When we part ways at the end of each day, we smile and wave goodbye, occasionally spewing some witty statements as our final words until the next day. I always end up finding myself resisting the urge to wrap my arms around you, but I’m aware that this would be crossing some sort of line. Our relationship is simply too formal for that.
People tell me that it’s strange that nothing has happened between us given how much time we spend together. I spend all my time with you, every day of the week but Saturday, and even though we base our meetings around academics, I […]
Hello everyone,
I thought I would post about myself, though whether anyone reads these I dont know, and I’m sure my story is nothing special. I am young, I just graduated, I spent three years at university trying to hide my depression. I made friends, but I dont keep in touch with any of them, I dont want to talk to anyone I know any more. I have come away to a foreign country with my savings, I lied to everyone, making up different reasons for coming – some think I am volunteering, others working. Truth is I do nothing but lie in bed all day […]
I’ve been wondering just how long I could make it before the benefits of ‘giving up’ outweighed the cons. A few years feeling the way I do seems to have done the trick. I have so much going for me; a good education, a roof over my head, a wonderful group of friends and a brother and sister who love me. Unfortuantely for every good thing there was a bad thing; a hateful, cotemptuous father, an emotionally absent mother, an abusive ex-girlfriend, a run of incapacitating bad health. I’m an academic. So it pleases me to see this as a problem, just an equation that […]
Each day I tell myself to get through one more day…… Â what I consider to be real opportunity and logical timing are right on the horizon….the very things that guide my want and need to end this misery are the right here with me….day after day…but I feel so caught in this quagmire of inaction…I keep adding “extensions”… the next chance will be here soon…. and I worry I will just add another extension and keep self-perpetuating my own misery just to spare people I love sadness and hurt…..
….. I am already nauseated by all the “its the holidays…love and cheer” happy crap I could […]
I hate love.
It ruins all harmony in life.
It makes suffering.
It makes to feel unbelievable pain inside. Like 10000 knifes cutting a heart.
It ruins sleeping.
Broken heart is 1000 worst than pneumonia.
I decided to be single forever, for avoinding these shits. Bang!
Love hurts.
And its not like pain in body – one pill and its gone. Only time can heal it. And waiting sucks.
I want to go to work now so much that tomorow i will wake up 3 hours earlier. Solve people’s problems helps to forget ours.
Fucking Love ruins the world. Sometimes creating. But the creating moments comes from chemistry i guess.. Chemistry and hormones to continue […]
i’m considering going to amsterdam (netherlands), staying at a hotel, and dehydrating to death. euthansia is legal there, so if i don’t die at the hotel, the hospital can help.
Im like cat here. A no-name slob. We belong to nobody, and nobody belongs to us. We dont even belong to each other. – Audrey Hepburn-Breakfast at Tiffanys
I have a weird tail to tell you. Cause you seem to be into this. Ok i was on facebook fake account. I added this woman called (jenna davis) I think she was into astrolgy. Anyway she said do you want a reading. I said ok. Then i was getting Email’s from her. One of them said some one is watch in over you for the last ~~ year’s. With out my me knowing it. Who is this.? It’s your guardian angel. Then she went on about guardian angel’s that they could see in to my soul.(my essence) and thay want to contact me. This is […]
is he dead?
i ain’t been on sp for a while and i’m trying to find some posts, can’t find anything though, so can someone tell me biscuit is dead or not?
Does anyone else here feel like your life is just an alien experiment and everyone else is in on it? so you’re the only real human here.
Or that you created this world with your mind, and it’s all in your head.
Thinking of things like that makes me feel alone, and i never really feel alone even thought i spend most of my time by myself.
Maybe life really is an alien experiment, maybe i’ll find out when i’m dead. It’s kinda scary thinking about it, well not scary, idk, but yeah, does anyone else feel this way?