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Let me Know who you are on SP.

I’ve had it! By the end of the day I’ll be in a place that is much better than this hell hole. I’ve tried to hold on but people keep kicking me when I’m down. Today was the final blow. So now I can finally say “goodbye cruel world”.

First off, I’m not suicidal.  Have I thought about it?  Yes, but I just can’t do it for way too many reasons.  But man oh man am I ready to be done with living.  It’s just too hard.  I’m used up.  Empty.  The pain, worry, fear and struggle have taken over.  I feel nothing positive.  I think I’ve even lost my ability to really care about others.  I’m shutting them out.  I’m locking myself down because I can NOT absorb any more.  Since it seems for now my body must continue to function, then I would just as soon withdraw from the world.  A deserted […]

I just want to comfortably, lie down and go to sleep, its coming the day is coming, it almost feels like its stopping I’m fighting this, these feelings every day, time to stop fighting, there is nothing to live for, nothing to look forward to, I will never get over the things that hurt me because they will always be there, they won’t go away, it will be the first and last thing I think of everyday… I can’t go on like this is doesn’t get better now, how can it…. I don’t want anybody to think this is the cowards way out, how can […]

Just a minute ago had a mental break down. As I was holding a Knife crying and rambling random stuff out, out of nowhere my Australian Shepherd started whimpering nuzzling my hand that had the knife in it. she crawled under my arm and looked up at me. as my tears were hitting her head she lifted up in my lap and pressed her body against my chest moving the knife and put her head on my shoulder. as she licked the tears off my cheek I started to cry harder she then started to lick my eyes and her warm tong on my aching […]

Today i found myself gazing off into the sky wondering why am i here? my team was practicing and i was on the sidelines due to an injured foot and i thought to myself its the same bull shit everyday. i put on a smile, tell everyone that i am happy, that im fine. but its all a lie. really im thinking to myself, can today be my last day? i want this pain to end. i hate repeating this stupid cycle over and over again. i’ll be happy for a few days then be back where i am at now. everyday is the same […]

My sister pokes her head in my room and asks me. I lie and say no. A few days earlier she asked me, also out of nowhere, “What do you believe the meaning of life is?” I didn’t really think about it, I instantly replied “No meaning. Does the grass or trees or animals have meaning? Do whatever you want”

Sometimes I feel good; I’ll eat properly, work out at the gym, and hang out with my friends. Other times not so great, I stop eating, have no energy to work out and spend all my time alone.

I heard a story once. This girl is outside, […]

My friend recently told me he wanted to kill himself and after a long logical conversation where I did not encourage him to kill himself or not kill himself he claims that I saved his life. So I began thinking of my own suicidal thoughts and how proud I was of myself for not thinking of killing myself for an entire year a thought struck me. I think about it everyday, it’s just become such a casual thought that I don’t notice it anymore. When I’m driving I think about speeding up and crashing into something, I think about how that would be a great […]

I’m in that room again. It’s so colorless. Every time I find myself here I feel like I’m going to fall, because I can’t see anything—it’s all white. No shadows, no indication of walls. But they’re there. I know where they are… I just can’t see them. They’re like glass. Glass that I can’t see the shine on, because there’s no light. At the same time, I can still see. It’s confusing, and it hurts my head to think about. Sometimes I wonder why they put me here, but then the not-memories come aga—

“Chickie!”

I look up from my book, my pen vanishing into a scarf […]

i thought it is supposed to make you feel good. Alive and a escape that can no longer be bareable/ Why am i listening to music. Why does it make me feel any more shitty. I thought it will be a good day. Got and early birthday present and everything and what do i get? A smack down of depression. I dont wanna live another day. I want music to be my escape. But it seems it left and off to somewhere that it wont go near me. One of these days. I will break. I will break that what is the point in writing […]

In reading your posts, and looking back on the people I have lost to intentional death ….

Why are they some of the most smart, intellectual, hilarious, WITTY people I have ever met?

So witty! Funny … I live for laughter and I would PAY to talk to my friend that just recently passed away to have a great laugh and intellegent conversation, its what the world is lacking.

Have a good day everyone and find the smallest thing to appreciate today.

xo

Hey guys. Im here as a support system. Suicide is NOT THE ANSWER. Encouraging someone to end their life is WRONG.

I am here for encouragment to find what makes you happy, to give you ideas, to help you through anxiety …

Ive had many friends commit suicide, you WILL have to deal with your problems on the other side. It MAY take longer than your human life to accept your demons and move on to a peaceful afterlife. You will here your friends and families thoughts and some can feel very sorry for putting people through suicide.

We all feel helpless, stressed, like sleeping forever is the […]

Hello everyone.

Should I even explain why I’m here 🙂 ?

I’ve never really been very happy, just short stretches of joy, (much longer) stretches of pain and shame sewn together in a numb haze of acquiescence to being dragged by circumstance hoping it would take me somewhere nice enough at some point.

It hasn’t, and now I’m completely alone with nothing to look forward to. For a long while now the only thing that seems to bring me comfort is the thought of ending it all. It haunts me lately, not a day goes by that I don’t think about it.A “good” night now just means going […]

Starting to wonder if this black cloud will ever end and if the only way it will is by ending it myself? Starting to wonder what the point in fighting is anymore? It doesnt get me anywhere and its not like anyone will notice let alone miss me if i was gone. Im not sure i can keep on just existing…..

people think that your crazy at the way you feel, then others don’t, does that mean that the ones that think your normal is the ones that think like you? that’s a question that I always ask my self. When you are standing in a crowd and you think every ones laughing at you when really its just in your head that maybe you are the one that’s laughing at your own self. when people say that it’s ok to feel that way it’s not your fault your like that. but deep down you wonder how could it not be. why was I born that […]

So i’m falling back into a depressed state again.

I’m thinking of maybe finding another method, idk yet

Is anyone here gonna do ligature asphyxiation? ’cause that’s what i’m planning, but i wanna talk to someone who’s gonna do it too, so yeah, hit me up

MrSebastior @ gmail . com

i really dnt understand im happy but emotionally drained. sometimes i dread goin home because i know i have  a 3 yr old screaming in my ear and so much to get dne. its so hare to wake up and get motivated and readyu yfor school. i didnt think beeing a 17 year old was this hard. i wish i had could just get an engery boost and get it al done but ti dnt see tht happinig any time soon:/ oh well be glad whens it dne with