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My skin. So fragile and easy to cut up.It covers the nakeness that i feel behind my bones. Suddenly these days. I just dont want it. I just want to tear up every skin cell i got. Every strange noise i here or if something happens i just scratch deep in my back. Just last week i found a black scar behind my shoulder blade. I didn’t know it cause something like that but guess what? i dont care i really dont care. Skin is skin it will repair its own self. Just some of these days i just dont want it. I want it […]

I’m sorry I couldn’t satisfy any of you with my death.
I scared of my future, my present, and my past. They are all stained with fear. I knew this person who said “One person can make a good chage”; half truth, half lie. That person forgot to tell me or tried to make it better at the moment, but made it worse at the end. One person can make a good change… But, one person can make a bad one; the worst part that both can be taken by the same person. I’m trying, I really am, I try to cope, but I don’t […]

I’m sick of this. I can’t take it anymore. I’m lonely. I’m so damn lonely it’s going to kill me. I HATE BEING ALONE. I’m tired of crying my eyes out every minute of every day. I’m gonna take a bunch of sleeping pills before I go to bed. that obviously works for other people, it should work for me too.

some times she want her to tears to catch people eye

maybe then just maybe thell ask whats wrong

maybe then shell find someone to trust

someone who want say suck it up cry baby

someone to tell all her troubles to

maybe then shell have a best friend

maybe then her life will get better

just maybe she can calm her tears and be happy

I feel sick and weak and tired. No one wants to talk to me. And if they do, it isn’t because they want to listen to me. I don’t even know why they are doing so. I wish everyone can just leave me alone and let me die or locked me up somewhere and leave me to die. I’m going out of control. I’m going crazy. Real crazy.

Pls don’t tell me to seek help, cause where is help?

Pls don’t tell me I will get better, cause better is what?

Pls don’t tell me I’m a coward, cause I may really surprise you.

Pls don’t tell me to talk, cause all I want […]

Should I write down names on my suicide note?will 13 benodryl kill you?should I do it in the school bathroom or where?

I hate being with my family for extended period of time. My brother’s constantly been flicking me & smacking me & talking about hurting me in different ways. He’s just been a complete ass, which doesn’t make sense. Maybe the fact that dad picks on him makes him feel like he can say that to me? I don’t know. But it’s not like dad only makes fun of him. He makes fun of me too. I just know how to laugh about it & not show how deep it hits. All I know is, everyone’s been mean instead of being relaxed this entire week.

& they […]

Ive currently been deployed for more than 6 months now and everything was going great. Back in the states, in garrison i used to be a shitty soldier. I made idiotic mistakes and got in trouble. Eventually i recieved an article 15 ( UCMJ). After that everything became better. I gained rank, became better at physical training and eventually got married. Shorty after that , my unit was deployed in the middle east. Our one year anniversary is in a few weeks.However, recently a lot of things have been going wrong, and due to my mistakes that keep repeating themselves, the punishments keep adding on, […]

Im sorry of what i said to you! How i judged you! God contacted me and made me understand, that “this isn’t a race to the bottom” God understands your pain perfectly! He knows how you have been bullied without a real cause or a reason. If you were straight, you’de be having none of the issues you have now. You have been wrongly judged and it was also wrong for me to wronly judge you and your suffering. Please forgive me! You see, i have never had a biological family of my own, so i dont understand, how cruel they can be. I thought […]

I want to cut.

I want to cry.

I just want to commit suicide.

not today, but sometime I will.

I could take several bottles of pills.

Then slash my wrists, and tie up my neck.

I don’t care if no one checks.

No one cares, they never have.

curled up, clutching my legs, crying a river, cause that’s all I can do.

no more cutting, all because of freakin you.

I’m almost numb, thank goodness for that. don’t know how much more pain I can take.

this loneliness and lack of love will kill me someday, if no one comes to my rescue soon.

But I don’t mind, I am but a young girl in distress, […]

I hve been reading this site for a while now and I wish you all the best. My story is incomparable to any of your problems but as far as everything is concerned I’m fed up with all the shits life brings as you know how every said sooner or later something good is bound to happen? Well its the opposite for me, every time things seems like it couldn’t get any worse it somehow does and ive finall reached my limit. For me life have become something painful and I wish it could end soon. Good luck to you all

Ugh is suicide driving me to the edge. Did it just tied me up and push me off the cliff. Do i hate myself that bad that suicide is overpowering me. I crave the feeling of death. I crave the feeling that i wouldnt have to be here anymore. I know God wouldnt want this, but God doesnt know what i want. God doesnt understand how i feel. If Gid was so mightly he would had been there to help me conqure this. But where is her? Nowhere he is not here. They say he is everywhere. If he is everywhere he could help me […]

I remember the day everyone found out how pathetic I was. It was 6th grade and I was so mad at my best friend. Why I was doesn’t quite matter right now.Back then (and still) I was a poetry freak. So I wrote a hate poem about her and gave it to her.And I did the most stupidest thing any human being could do. I put my number in the end. Later that week I was called into the counselors office. They found it, the note. Apparently it fell out and one of the math teachers found it,  called the number and eventually found out […]

But not quite.

This week has been really long. A lot of things happened to me in just a matter of days. Today, I had a huge breakdown and ran to the top of my stairs to stare down. I was contemplating suicide until my mother came to pull me away.

I was pissed off so I took a walk.

I was still contemplating suicide and I spotted a pedestrian walkway that did not have a stop light. “Perfect”, I thought. I continued to take the walkway, stopped in the middle of the road, and watched a car approach. I think everyone around me thought […]

I’m so confused by people’s actions. One day they love me, the next day they’re furious at me. I don’t think anyone will ever want me for this depression. I’m afraid that I will always be alone. I DON’T like being alone. this is what will drive me to suicide someday.

My life is falling apart a little more every day, though I try to ignore it.

But I have realized that it’s just building up inside me more and more.

Eventually I will explode and end it by suicide.

that’s just a fact.

I want to be loved and held, I WANT to be happier, but I know I […]

I’m having a really hard time living with my family. It’s one of those families that always think that they’re right and you’re wrong, always, with no exceptions. They’re feeding off my misery for god knows what reason. Maybe they get a kick out of it. Maybe it’s because their lives are so boring, dull, and bad, that they have to destroy mine to boost their egos and make them feel better. I’ll give you some insight into how my three sad excuses for family members are:

Mom: An irritable, impatient woman who is a coward. I used to trust her to stick up for me […]