General

Funny enough it’s the title of a teen book I read in high school, that was over a decade ago. Today I decided to really just make it happen, drop everything move to somewhere else and just disappear. It’s the only alternative I can think of other than to either kill myself and become an alcoholic. I’m so sick of being tracked, everyone knowing where I am what I’m doing, social networking etc. I’ve set a date and will gradually ease out of my physical and digital existence. I don’t want to be found. Maybe it’s the recent news, but all these articles about how […]

The pain, feels good.
The blood, has been the best sight ive had.
I dont know why, I do.
But to me, It’s what i know best at.

I’m addicted to it, now. when i start i cant stop, It’s.
just so… soo…. un natural.

i wish i was one of them. as horrible as that sounds… FML

The pill, it makes you ill cuz i’ve lost the will cuz life aint so brill, so i’ll write my note with an olden quill as i sit on this hill, and maybe i’ll chill before deaths in for the kill

Failing to die

I have been married for 15 years, for the last 3 years i have had an affair and fallen in love with this woman. I have been unhappy in my marriage for many years and when i was having my affair i was the happiest that i have ever been in my entire life. The other woman has gotten divorced and asked me to do the same, i cannot, the guilt of leaving my children and wife wont let me do it. so now this woman has moved on and i dont know what to do. i feel so helpless, my […]

Why can’t suicide be an option? When ever you bring it up people always act like no matter the circumstance it’s not ok. What if someone is so chronicly depressed that treatment doesn’t help? I say only you in the end know what is best for you. What’s wrong with a termanly ill person saving themselves form a slow death? What’s so wrong with an elderly widow ending thier life when they lost thier love of fifty years? There is a million different senarios but answer to suicide can’t always be no. But at the sametime the answer to suicide can not always be yes.

I’m killing myself in a few minutes. This life is too much to handle. I can’t keep going like this, alone. And I am alone. Sure, I have friends and family, but I’m isolated. So much that I can barely remember what it’s like to have those, to have the support of my friends, to have that actual friendship. The feeling someone cares. I can’t… I don’t want to keep living. My life… is nothing. Nothing more than heartbreak after heartbreak. I’m surprised the pieces can still feel enough to keep getting hurt.

I am hurting, more than I ever thought I could. I can’t take […]

i guess i’ve wondered what people who succeeded on here posted last. did they just stop posting? or say goodbye. I’d rather the latter, I only want to say if i succeed tonight, or over the weekend, that i apreciate everything people have said on here. and i wish everyone on here the best, in whatever you choose, and i hope you do think and make the right decisions.

This is going to be quite a large vent, maybe it’ll help sort things out.

Issue 1.

Pissed off. One of our friends, Lets call her Zoan, has litterally fucked us all over. She’s talked about all of us behind our backs, she’s been a hypocrite, and she’s tried to break a couple up within out circle of friends. Everyone despises her. Thing is, she’s having family issues, and she supposedly cut herself. What the fuck am I supposed to do, if it’s fake, and I go back to her, she’ll do everything all over again. But if it’s not fake. I’ll have another friend who self […]

I’m not a hateful person.  I was abused when I was a kid, went through an abusive relationship with an ex boyfriend but I don’t hate any of those people.  I don’t hate anyone.  I actually like people.  I think most people are beautiful, actually, just like I think that the world can be a beautiful place.  People think I’m kind and intelligent and I don’t doubt that I am.  I’m nice to everyone.  I’ve gotten good grades in school.  I’m just not happy.  I’m a classic example of that type of person who’s always smiling but is actually hurting on some serious level.

People think […]

Feel like shit.

Fucked up again. Now a friend hates me. My friend keeps showing me her latest cuts like it’s something to brag about. I’ve been feeling the ”urges” again. Going out didn’t help.

Little problems that just smash me down.

Hope you are fine,
Just wanted to tell you, that I have not forgotten you or Sage
Hope you guys are good, the thought you 3(include little creature that I love)
were typeing away with your little fingers, when I was down, just give me
this energy to live, wish I could take you guys all away to a happier place
with me, but if you hold on long enough who know I might.
I love you guys hope you are all okay
If you see the moon send a kiss to it, she will kiss me on your behalf.

T

What happens when you love life so much? When you love the little things about life, about the people you love, about the beautiful things that happen everyday… but you don’t want to live it anymore? How does that happen? How is that fair? How can a person forget all of the good things in this world, and only see how terrible it can be? How can someone that was nice and peaceful turn into someone so hateful? And how can the person she hates the most be herself? How can she look in the mirror and resent […]