General

I can’t trust anybody.

me and my friend were trying to get weed, some guy called Ollie says he could get us it. pfft, he told my brother (:

guess I’ll have to go back to paracetamol over doses to sleep. thanks Ollie, for fucking the one good thing I had up.

I understand that compared to other pople my story doesn’t compare to how bad some people have it, but people find different things harder than other people mayfind it. I’m not as strong as some of you. You’re all so brave compared to me, i’m weak and i know that, if i wasn’t i wouldn’t want to kill myself its just there’s one thing stopping me my mum. he’d be destroyed if i did it but i should do what makes me happy right?

I mess up everything
I can’t even get my own death right

everything is going under, faster and deeper with no way to stop it

even my parents don’t love me, what kind of person’s parents don’t love them

mine

my fault, my life, my choice

except I have no choices left, no decisions to make

I love you all so much

You are like a family to me

One day we will all die

No matter if we take ours or if life takes us

One day, I hope we will all unite as a family…on the other side!

i just had a fight with my family.. they didnt care much to me now.. so i guess its my time now.. goodbye everyone. thanks for some people here who helped me..

Rattling within my mind

the inescapable passion of a distant life

Lightly brushed upon

sweetly tears away the unforgotten layers.

Fresh scent of clever insight

ignored by conscious action.

Welcomed heavy taboos

distill the purpose of surviving efforts.

No. I want to say no to Death but it’s not possible. I want to bleed, forever. I want to… I will…

I’ve always failed my “friends” and they always say I haven’t and then they walk away.

everyone is too scared to understand even if it costs the life of their “dear friend” I Love them but they aren’t enough. everyone here is dying. the only ones who could ever Love me back will soon be dead…Just like me.

 Justathought I can’t watch you slowly die. My arm burns every time you say that yours does. I don’t know why it’s just you and nobody else, but […]

Setting sun

hollowed blithe reign!

Distant horizon

exploding cavernous ache!

Lively motions

mildewed with despair!

Enlightening exhibition

yet, the world is minuscule.

I want to servive something.I feel like if i try to and servive i would have won something for once in my life

here’s to all of those who hurt, to those who suffer, to those who have no one, who are lost in despair, to those who cry out for help to deaf ears, to the lost, the forsaken, to the hopeless, may you find someone to listen, to help, to guide, may you find peace and happiness in this life, and, if that’s not the case, may death take you on gentle wings and bring you the peace and happiness you deserve.
I love you all

just got in from a night out, fucking feel so alone. Drinking and drugs are my only escape from reality. i dont know how how much longer I can go on like this.

my ex means so much too me, i fucked up BIG time letting her go, ruined my own life… wish she would forgive me for being a **** to her.

Respect to her for sticking up for herself.

i’m sorry. I love you.

It surprised me. The quickness of black thoughts flooding in. What would it take for that pitch black to so overwhelm that no thought was given but only action taken?

This song simply describes how i’ve been feeling lately.
I woke up it was 7
I waited till 11
Just to figure out that no one would call
I think I’ve got a lot of friends but I don’t hear from them
What’s another night all alone?
When your spending everyday on your own
And here it goes

I’m just a kid and life is a nightmare
I’m just a kid, I know that it’s not fair
Nobody cares, cause I’m alone and the world is
Having more fun than me
Tonight…

And maybe when the night is dead, I’ll crawl into my bed
Staring at these […]

Everytime I try to play piano again and loose myself in the music i hear this voice (male I think. Sounds kind of like y dad) scream my name. 🙁
It makes me stop every time. Like now.

i just need help- no one ca help me where i am…can anyone help me here?

I was close. So close.

You stopped me mangomango.

Why? Why bother stopping

the damned? Why bother helping

me?! I’m no one to you! I’m a stranger.

Less than that! I’m. A. Dying. Whisp!

You are a fool to save me.

Yet here you are, I reread your

comments, damn you. You stopped me.

Damn you. You made me think.

You made me realize people love me.

You made me realize..damn you! I was

so close! So ready! Now I’m not sure,

my cuts burn, they hurt. I hate them.

I love them. I hate them! I hate myself!

I love you. I love everyone. What will

I do with my life? How will I live?

I’m broken. I’m damned. But

I’m stuck […]

I thought I’d share a song I came across. 🙂 http://www.myspace.com/andrewpetersonmusic/music/songs/i-ve-got-news-62139263

“So you think I’m something special, like I know a thing or two; like my eyes don’t ever wander, like my aim is always true. So you think I’m not a dirty rotten scoundrel through and through? Lady, I’ve got news for you.

So you think that you’re the only one to cry yourself to sleep? That you’re the only one who’s scared they’ll all forget you when you leave? So you think that you’re the only one whose heart is black and blue? Listen, I’ve got news for you, for you. I might as well […]

I’ve tried so hard to stay here,

to be alive, but no more. I’m

through with fake smiles,

through with staying alive!

I’m tired of it! Don’t you realize

that? Don’t you realize how

useless it is to hold onto the

damned? Here’s a thought,

let go. Tell yourself it’s not

your fault. Realize that it was

going to happen sooner or later.

I was going to disapear, die, and

never see you again. I would rather

die then be hurt again. I would

rather stay silent, never to write,

never to love again. I’m sorry,

this is my last attempt…

And it will succeed. Never again

will I see the sun rise,

or will I see your sad expression.

Never again will I know […]

beauty, sadness, despair