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Ate for the first time in a week.
Half a greasy pizza. 😐

He hasnt been online for 10 days and i suppose he’s gone.

Safe Journey, see you somewhere better, brother! You’ve had it worse for sure.
You deserve the peace.

I’m not far behind in the line…

To me, the world is simple, very simple, only that everyone is plotting schemes to complicate it.
god ? the scapegoat for problems.
ghost ? only the insane sees it.
health ? the winner gets it.
happiness ? to parasite and suck.
pain and hate ? while you can’t parasite and suck.
love ? is to possess.
life ? material weighed as success.

truth ? ignorance is bliss.
If you agree to all the above, it can be just summed up as greed.
Greed upon others, trying to subjugate something, somebody to be under your service.
And you just failed to gain a vantage on greed, […]

Heres my gun, heres my soul..Both rdy to leave the chamber they inhabit, and I know that it means nothing in the end of the day..No one will care, and I honestly dont want them to, why would I want them to? This is going to happen..there is no escaping it..IM tired of being like this, and I know it wont get better it never has after all these yrs..Hold you friend in his lap when he bleds to death..Look ur mother in the eye when she says she never wanted you and that if a doctor would of done the surgery you wouldnt be […]

Unlike those who are going through a rough patch in high school or college stress, I’m 26yrs old and out in the real world. When I was in elementary school I would go home and cry because I had no friends. My mom told me it was ok, middle school would be better. The same happened in middle school, highschool, and of course college. Each was suppose to be the “best years” of my life. I’m now in the largest city in the country without a single close friend, a girlfriend, or a rewarding job, and I have $60k in student loans with a […]

ok so i just keep cutting in an attempt to die hope it goes through ima teen but nobody seems to care im tired of my friends acting like they know wats wrong i just want it to stop so im ending tonite goodbye lifes pain

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MKfDwChOoHI

No matter how much I try, there is no sunny side to life or anything to do with it. things in this economy are looking so bleak, I just cant imagine how i’ll manage to survive it. This country is headed to oblivion, wtf!!!! I flippin hate looking at the stupid sheeple who live everyday as though nothing is on the horizon, its sick…

To those that know me you know who I am, I am not a video game character but a person as lost in life as everyone else here, a person who fears the future, who fears how his life will turn out.  Who knew that life would lead me to this?  Who knew that one day I would kill myself, my point is I am no longer happy here, my coping skills have been decimated, I don’t think I can stand living any longer, even longer than a year.  I know my family will see me again,  I have everything panned out all I need […]

people keep…noticing. they keep asking me if I’m okay. They keep saying ‘oh, you just sound down’ or ‘you look depressed’. even teachers. there’s this one teacher, Everytime I pass by him. ‘you alright? you look upset…y’sure?’ I know what you’re thinking, I should feel grateful right? Then how come I don’t. Well, I do. I’m just scared shitless. Have I really become that obvious? I thought I could hide it well; My mask is slipping, and it’s the only thing I have.

I told myself I’d never let anyone know, without me telling them…I can’t even keep my promise to myself, what the fuck is […]

i started smoking again bad idea.. but it did calm me down you have no idea what i’ve been through the last three days… oh and thanks to those who gave me there emails that’s real sweet. Makes me feel good. something i havnt felt in awhile…i think im gonna try some hard core drugs, im nervous but i’ve seen people do it and it helps them cope right? well, anyone try anything really illegal? crystal meth? heroin? crack? coke? i just want to know before i ruin my life… but for the last three days i’ve been putting on a show for these people!! […]

MAKING THINGS RIGHT
I’m sorry that I hurt you
Is there anything I can do
To make things right
Holding on so tight
I’m sorry for making us fight
I see the light
With all my might
I say that I’m sorry I never meant to do this
It wasn’t a trick
I was just mad
And made you sad
I guess ur glad
That were friends
BFFs till the end

I’d like to begin this post saying I don’t mean to offend anyone.

I have joined this site to talk to those who need someone to talk to whether you have actual depression or your parents broke up, or your gf/bf left you.  I don’t mean to say that your problems aren’t as important just that people on here have many different reasons for feeling the way they do and I am most definitely use to talking about and helping with a wide range of subjects.  Nobody should feel like they’re alone in this world or go as far as to think […]

i need someone to talk tooo

HELP ME
Do you know what it feels like to be alone
Forgetting every person you have ever known
Have a cruel joke played on you
And have someone say I’m here
Don’t be scared
Then say just get out of my hair
Do people really care
Is it fair
That I have a sceret pain
I’m so ashamed
Your so lame
Where’s the fame
My hearts to hard to tame
Help me with my life
See this knife
See this blood
I won’t do it
But I’ve been hit
With these angry thoughts
It like a shot
Of venom
Goodbye cruel world
And […]

              i found this site out of curiosity and to be honest… i think its really pathetic that everyone has to post  ” their thoughts on suicide” on the web. if you were anything of a civilized human being. ( wich most of you script to be well educated) you would not have found sanction in  an internet site. you seem to forget in the nesxt 30, 40 maybe 50+ years most of us will seize  to exist.WE ARE  NOT MAKING IT OFF THIS PLANET ALIVE. you are so egotistical to beleive that taking your life will gain some form of release that will solve your […]

going out more, usually it’d either be ‘No Ema!’ or ‘Nah, wanna catch up on sleep, see ya’ guys’. But I’ve been mentally pushing myself out that door. (:

It works…while I’m out, I feel great, happy, I have fun. No suicidal thoughts, no cutting, no crying, no lyeing on the floor wishing I was dead. But when I come back in? when I walk back through that door, it, just, hits. like a fucking train. urgh

Well, I got hit by a car for second time in 3 years, why the fuck I just don’t die? Just can’t take it anymore, and the guy who hit me thinks it’s his fault, I don’t want anyone to kno it was on purpose but how stupid are you, when someone just steps out in front of your car out of no where and you blame yourself? I fail at life, and I fail at dying, I only want one thing and I can’t have it, it’s not fair, someone who wants to live but is not able to shoul be able to have […]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uhD0CQRbliI&feature=fvst

I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that’s real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt

I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
upon my liar’s chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappear
you are someone else
I am still right […]