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I found this blog only recently, but have been contemplating suicide for a while already.

The reason why I’m still alive is because I am afraid of going to hell eternally. While I can’t say for sure that hell exists, I also can’t say for sure that it does not. What if hell exists? If it does, it’s definitely going to be more painful than anything I’m ever experiencing.

For now, staying alive is the lesser of two evils. It is tiring to keep my head above water, but it is still the lesser of two evils. Its hard that I have to choose to live.

I have already left a post here. I want to keep leaving it until people take a chance and just have a look.

http://www.facebook.com/?sk=lf#!/group.php?gid=7383862180

This is my ‘Families dealing with suicide’ group. x

I am not suicidal, nor have I been directly affected by suicide itself, but i do know some that have been and seen the effects it has had on their lives.
I came across this site and as my nametag suggests, i was curious!
I am shocked by some of the things I have read on here, people offering ideas on how best to commit suicide for instance.
I’m not sure I agree that the act of suicide is necessarily always the ‘easy way out’, its impossible to know the reasoning in someone else’s mind. But having seen its effects on those left […]

I have a much better way that won’t require me to wait… I’ve stopped taking my insulin.  Should be dead in a couple of days 🙂

“Tell us your habits, your facts, your fears
Give us your address, your shoe size, your years
Your digits, your plans, your number, your eyes
Your schedule, your desktop, your details, your life.

Show us your children, your photos, your home.
Here, take credit, take insurance, take a loan.
Get a job, get a pension, get a haircut, get a suit.
Play the lottery, play football, play the field, sports on toot”

~ A. Freeland

Will the madness ever cease?

Hi guys, I just wanted to say that I think Glamgirl went through with it (for those of you who saw any of her posts) Her ‘brother’ has commented and stuff and I thought I’d just post and say that I hope she’s in a better place and not so sad. It really sucks she did, I was kind of shocked when I noticed.

R.I.P. Glamgirl.

Here’s some links btw –

http://suicideproject.org/2011/01/doing-it-tonight/

http://suicideproject.org/2011/01/partner-in-us/

http://suicideproject.org/2011/02/theres-got-to-be-a-way/#comment-58102

Also remember, we can never really be sure that she did, since it’s based solely on her apparent brother’s comments, so she may very well still be out there, but, honestly, I doubt it.

I walk across that bridge atleast once a day. Every time i wonder if  i’ll do it. Never seem to probably because im always walking with people and dont want to put them through that. Guess im not ready yet.

We climbed to the top of these trees saw a beautiful sunset got some great pictures, i lost my grip on one hand and let go with the other. just got banged up. My best friend saw and came running after “are you okay?”  “Dont ever do that agin, or ill kill you myself”(all that good stuff). I was ready that time, but i realize now […]

I REALLY need a gun… help me please.  I posted this last time and no one had any good answers.  I know some one on here knows how to get one, especially if you don’t have any relatives that have one to steal.  Please don’t give me advice on why I shouldn’t do it… I don’t want to be talked out of it.

I need help. I’m fifteen (turning sixteen in a week) and i have nothing to look forward to. i feel so lost and alone.

my sixteenth birthday is in a few days. I have no party planned, no friends to invite, and my brother won’t bother to reschedule an SAT test to come home from boarding school with me.

I feel like such a failure all the time compared to him. I didn’t have a birthday party last year either (yet again, no one to invite) and his friend threw him this outrageous surprise party. i’m spending my birthday with my parents who i can’t stand and i […]

The title explains the question I am asking here. My other option I allowed myself is hanging; what kind of pain will I expect their? I’ve given myself a few more days at most to live. I preferably want stories of those who survived these two methods (pills, hanging) to describe me what pain I will face. Please; any help of any sort will be sufficient.

P.S. What kind of drugs is suggested to kill myself? I know asking such questions are rather taboo, but I’ve simply grown tired; I rather don’t care anymore. I will swallow whatever pills I’ve gathered currently by midnight tonight […]

The first time I felt totally hollow, I was 14 and I’ve been chased by that feeling for 25 years.  I now wake up every morning in mental agony.  I’ve tried therapy, medications, prayer, meditation, 12-step groups, healthy diets, supplements.

It feels like I’m drowning in quicksand as my failures (career, personal) have mounted while I’ve spent time lost to this (so many days I couldn’t get out of bed, or could get out of bed but didn’t leave the house, or left the house but it didn’t matter).

Whatever promise I had is gone.  There’s no friends, no family, it’s been 7 years since I had […]

If i didn’t know any better i’d probably think you didn’t care. If I didn’t know any better i’d probably cry myself to sleep every night. But i do. I know better than to start my day off with emotion that will only cause me to hurt, but i do it anyways. whts wrong with me.? am i alone.? do i need as much help as led on.? Someone tell me how to be better.!

I met someone on this site. I don’t know their username, I don’t know their real name, only their email. And today, they emailed me: “This is the last email you will be getting from me.”

…Anyone… help…?

please god show us light show us a sign , something to hold on ,please end this agony and paid ,give me happiness , why i have to suffer when everybody around me having fun,i know i have committed sins i failed to abide by the rule you set for engaging in sex , i know i watch porn , don’t give time to my parents , sometimes drinks too,but haven’t i kneel down and bow down and burst into tears when nothing seems meaningful, i ask for your forgiveness and mercy oh mercy full lord bless me bless me please

Ive been thinking alot lately.We’re all gonna die eventually by some say either sickness or accident or even old age.Personally i would like to die by my own hands.My teacher says before when she use to wish she could die she regeted it because now she has the best job and she loves her life now.I don’t want to wait for the future because you don’t know what might happen i mean you mught end up in the streets for all you know.

My name is Holly. I am 26 years old and at 16 lost my father to suicide. I found him hanging in my room and that image will be one that will stay with me forever.

I created a group on face book about a year and a half ago called ‘Families Dealing with Suicide’. To date I have around 530 members. I am on this group everyday an do my very best to reply to everyone that comments or posts to the wall.

I know what it is like to lose someone to suicide, the feelings associated with that type of loss, the confusion and I […]