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No One to Blame

by mmmm 12/3/2021

written by mmmm

Maybe, it is me who is my own culprit, it is my fault that I did not act the way I was supposed to in order to survive in this cruel world. Maybe, everything that is bothering me is just an illusion, it is a noise coming from my mind that is making me feel worthless, reminding me constantly of all my flaws and insecurities. Maybe, I wronged myself by having expectations on others, hoping they would understand me, hoping that they will turn out the way I want , hoping they will bring happiness and well-being in my life. Maybe, I should have learned […]

12/3/2021 2 comments

love sucks

by wasabi_peas 11/29/2021

written by wasabi_peas

I had been wanting to die for about 6 years now. It still feels so normal. The intrusive thoughts of self harm, the gut wrenching pain of existing, the struggle to be productive, and my self hatred all feel like they have always been there, I forget what life was like without them. It took me a very long time to realize I needed help, to realize that I was allowed to feel this way and to begin to alter my mindset. However, now that I have, I am scared that it might have been too late. My boyfriend has helped a lot. I feel […]

11/29/2021 1 comment

Is there a way to live when you don’t want to?

by idontbelonghereanymore 11/29/2021

written by idontbelonghereanymore

I don’t want to live, but I can’t die. I don’t want to live but I have to. How long can someone live in this state until you decide it’s the end? Do people who kill themselves do it impulsively? Can it be planned? I don’t want to plan my death, but sometimes I get intrusive thoughts (come on, jump under that bus! Or why not take all the pills you can find!), and I’m wondering if one day I’ll act on it impulsively, or if deep down, I have been planning my death since the day I was born.

11/29/2021 6 comments

Fuck It.

by Melon_Lord 11/28/2021

written by Melon_Lord

I’m so angry.
I’m SO ANGRY ALL THE TIME.
I feel like the whole world is against me, but you know what?
At this point, I’ve had the biggest epiphany. I don’t care anymore.

Imagine that.
Do, whatever the fuck you want.
Be a slut, dress how you want. Be an asshole, be kind, go out at night. get drunk, fall in love, make huge mistakes, lose and gain friends, burn bridges.
I don’t care what your parents say.
Do it.
Fucking do it, cause you know what, you only live once and no one is going to hear about us in those […]

11/28/2021 1 comment

I haven’t posted here in awhile

by fukedupagain341 11/15/2021

written by fukedupagain341

Was going through my email and found an old email from this website. Holy hell it’s been years. Things got better and things got worse. The sad thing is the feeling of wanting to kill myself never left. But I have decided to live for those around me. Those who enjoy seeing me and my time. But i know when I get home I always make my peace with leaving them. I always know they’ll be okay when I’m gone. I’m not that important to anyone. I stopped being important long ago. I used to be sad my ex girlfriend left me and cheated on […]

11/15/2021 1 comment

Current Reasons not to kill myself

by Makenzie_1644 11/9/2021

written by Makenzie_1644

I don’t want to leave my favorite coworker. She’s slowly become my best friend over the last two months, and I don’t want to leave her.
My cousin. He’s an only child and I’ve taken on the role of older sibling to him so that he has some form of positive influence in his life.
My brother. I want to rebuild my relationship with my older brother. We haven’t spoken in over five years, but I want to reconnect with him and I know I can’t do that if I’m gone.
I want to spend as much time as I can with my family’s dog before he’s gone.
As […]

11/9/2021 0 comment

none of it “really” matters

by hhrrccaa 11/4/2021

written by hhrrccaa

I read this essay called “On Stress” by Gwern, which basically talked about how little it takes to actually survive and be okay. I’m not sure how accurate he is. But I think we overestimate how much we “need”. Right now, I feel really stressed with school, and I keep thinking, is this really necessary? I don’t want to be stressed, and I don’t need to be stressed. I’m not sure, because I still “feel” like I should continue to stay in school. I guess, it’s more like realizing, I have the choice of whether I want to stress out about school or not. And […]

11/4/2021 0 comment

Disappointment.

by Melon_Lord 10/25/2021

written by Melon_Lord

I don’t want to disappoint them.
It’s to the point where I don’t even care about my own health and well being anymore.
Although….when will it be enough for you?

When will I be enough?

10/25/2021 0 comment

fucked head

by cyberchallenge2 10/13/2021

written by cyberchallenge2

when i used to self harm i used to hit my head a lot, i didnt think of it that much back then but now i see the result. probably any type of self harm is better than hitting ur head, i suffer from memory loss, but no one would probably believe me, i dont even remember basic stuff such as what happened the day before, what somebody told me or things that i did, i may sound dramatic but its worse than it sounds. i dont remember how i started it but i did it everytime my mom was bitching about smth that ive […]

10/13/2021 0 comment

Venting about school

by cyberchallenge2 10/13/2021

written by cyberchallenge2

theres nothing to do anymore, nothing is fun, im stressing over the exams that we will have and lots of shit that we will have to do and who knows maybe i wont get accepted to that highschool that i wanted to go to and ill have to ruin my high school experience and most likely life because of it. u dont know how much i suffer from anxiety everyday, no one understands me, it hurts, i cover my ears and try not to cry and freak out from loud people, im slowly losing myself. i keep snapping and having break downs, i was happy […]

10/13/2021 0 comment

my thoughts

by not_socks 9/26/2021

written by not_socks

currently i wish to die, not because I want to actively die, i just want relief. i have had 5 attempts before in the last year and a half and i still want to do it. but i know if i do it people might miss me, something that i don’t believe is true, but my friends say it’s true, but can i really call them my friends. i have a lot of trust issues so i can never tell.

this is my first post so i don’t really know what i’m doing. i just hope anyone i know finds me on here, not that they […]

9/26/2021 1 comment

I wish I wasn’t so goddamm soft and weak!

by lonewolf23 9/25/2021

written by lonewolf23

I’m 24 years old and I still struggle with having some decent self esteem. I’m a fucking joke of a man! It hurts so bad. I swear when I get my own place and leave this place……my mom and dad need to learn that I don’t want their protection. Overprotective parents ruin a child’s life especially if that child is a boy! I’m leaving one of these days and when I do I won’t be telling em. I’ll just be gone some morning. I know exactly what I need to do. It’s only a matter of time now. Im actually thirsty for some hardship in […]

9/25/2021 3 comments

Remote Viewing…

by conor.williams 9/21/2021

written by conor.williams

Is there someone in white on the second floor of an apartment with some “non – taxed green trees (grass or weed, nice ones…) and she is in the next room running out of food and just lying there a little scared face down on here matress (and there is a key ring she must bring with her — but you my friend must find that after lifting her from the room (a female saver around about 70kilos approximately 130 pounds — nice boobies… and then goes up to the bathrrom on the left and get the keyring with her left hand and keeps it […]

9/21/2021 4 comments

Open your heart so we dont have to speak and it shall spark

by cheezynipps 9/14/2021

written by cheezynipps

9/14/2021 0 comment

Well…

by Makenzie_1644 9/7/2021

written by Makenzie_1644

I’m going home. I’m withdrawing from school and moving back in with my mom. So I guess this is the end. I think I’m gonna be ok. Thanks for listening.

9/7/2021 1 comment

Hello

by AloneInAForgottenWorld 8/28/2021

written by AloneInAForgottenWorld

I tried again. After 15 years. Only this time, I messed up and gave myself horrible brain damage. Feels like everything is happening in slow motion and my hands shake so I miss everything I’m reaching for. I’m starting to think death isn’t even real anymore. I can’t manage to kill myself no matter how hard I try. What if instead of dying we just end up somewhere else like Hamlet said? I’m hopeless though so I’ve given up on living at the same time I’m not dead. I guess I’m just living in the past. Living in the pretend when that girl still loved […]

8/28/2021 1 comment

Surfing Away From My Problems

by Melon_Lord 8/25/2021

written by Melon_Lord

Previously, I went to visit family in California for the summer. I was in a pretty bad place mentally, so I used the money I had saved up to go surfing all summer long.

And for the first time, in a long time, I was happy.
Not just happy on the waves, but at home too. It’s like the board was an extension of my body, and I was free to be me when I went out.
No homework, no stress, no group chats, no toxic friends, no mom, no dad, no yelling, no crying, just me, and the board.
Just me, surfing. […]

8/25/2021 5 comments

by The riddler 8/8/2021

written by The riddler

If you need a friend and have nobody, follow me on IG and we can be each others friend. I’m lonely and been in a dark place. I’m losing so many friends.

*I accept all follow requests, just DM me after so I know this website is the reason for the add*

riley_with_a_d

8/8/2021 1 comment

Hello strangers

by ambientmilk 8/4/2021

written by ambientmilk

I was convinced i dreamt this website
Some sick depressed fever dream
An ill lonely teen looking to relate to people
I sunk so low
I still do
My scars scabbed through shame
But you heal
Still fragile, broken, cracked, but still healing
Which sounds like some cringe-y crap
Fuck, Ill be so-called ‘healing’ till the day i die
But
I have to make peace with that

8/4/2021 3 comments

by BrittNicole 7/24/2021

written by BrittNicole

7/24/2021 1 comment

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