I did this, you can too.
I wonder what happened to the people who used to write on this site back on 2015..
are they still alive? are they doing better worst? are they still stuck as I am?
I used to write here about how lost and stuck I am, since 2013 till 2015 when I quite writing about my feeling and started to ignore them!
yeah the worst thing you could ever do..
and now i’m here again 2019 and YET nothing has changed for the better it’s even worst by every mean!
I still am the same depressed lost soul !
seeking help by anyone who could and yet no one seems to.
ever since 2013 i was hoping i could change, i could do better
you know i’ve done better on some sides like i got a job!
but yet i am still that neglected girl who has no friends and heart broken as ever due to being so stupid !
i always wanted to run away and start a new but never been or will be able to,
so i guess i have to deal with what i have and this time i will deal !
this site used to be my safe space where i come to lay everything that’s weighting me down and here i am going back to writing about my depression and about my stupid depressed little story !!
will it ever change? i mean could i ever have a happy ending! now that i am 25 years old, and been suffering since i was 19.
maybe it will be different this time.
let’s get to the bottom of this, i am willing to be a new person, i want to change and focus
i want to be happy and i have a hope for it.
the last day i was working and out of nowhere a short video pops up talking about hope! guess it was some kind of a hidden message for me, that even after all of these years there is still a hope somewhere and i’m going to find it.