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I Will Survive

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My Story

by BeautifullyTormented 2/25/2014

written by BeautifullyTormented

Well this is my story.

I’ve always had depression since I can remember. I never thought I had a chance at a regular life… I’ve had a pretty rough childhood and teenage life. It all started when I was 5. Something terrible happened to me and it changed me in so many ways. I’ve never been the same ever since.. I’ve been rapped multiple times and I’ve was beat growing up by my step father and when I was 14 I found out I was pregnant and my sons father always hit on me, choked me, and controlled me in every way possible. We stayed together […]

2/25/2014 3 comments

First crash

by Bloodboil 2/25/2014

written by Bloodboil

Hello everyone, I’m back again. This time I couldn’t make it to the imagenary two week line, rather I crashed down hard yesterday after I came home from the University and needless to say the thoughts were back once more stronger than ever. I’m not willing to give up but I feel like a vent is in order and who knows maybe it’ll give you people a small crumb in getting forward.

So how did it start this time? I suppose the first surfacing of the emotion of not wanting to be on this planet, in these shoes or life came the last Saturday. I felt […]

2/25/2014 2 comments

The Pain Of Battle

by DarkWeasley 2/23/2014

written by DarkWeasley

Life is a battle that we all must eventually lose. Each and every one of us is constantly at war. Fighting for survival. Some have a more difficult battle to fight and some lose before they’re ready…

I guess what I’m saying is that life is difficult. There are so many risks. People die everyday… A lot of people. Death is a part of life.Â Itâ€™s inevitable, but sometimes it comes too soon. The lives of peoples children, peoples mothers or fathers are taken every day without a choice. And here I am… Wanting to throw it away… and for what? What would I benefit from killing […]

2/23/2014 1 comment

You mean the world to me.

by SelfAM 2/23/2014

written by SelfAM

I stumbled upon this site, and felt a sudden pang go through me.
These new posts are from today.
I realized there are people posting right now, feeling incredibly suicidal with no one to talk to.
That scares me. It makes me sad.

Guys, a year ago I was in your place.
I promise you, it gets better. You must have heard it a thousand times. You must think it’s bullshit. I did. I never thought it — I — could get better.
But it did. I did.
I promise it can be like that for you, too.
I promise.
You just have to hold on.

2/23/2014 5 comments

My Neverending Story

by Adam-Grizzly-95 2/22/2014

written by Adam-Grizzly-95

I could lie and say that everything gets better and life is amazing but that wouldn’t help. 3 Days ago I made a decision to take my own life, I bought a bunch of painkillers and vodka and thought I wanted to die… it didn’t work and I spent 2 days in the hospitals poison ward attached to a drip with a needle sticking outta my hand, I had to listen to my families reaction over a phone call and it killed me having to hear what I did to them, I will never forget the sounds of my mum crying, not knowing what happened. […]

2/22/2014 0 comment

push

by Madison 2/22/2014

written by Madison

our life is together
our life has been forever
our time is never
never ending

places to go, things to do
words to speak
songs to sing

tears to cry

i tried so hard to make you proud of me
all i want is your love

im so alone
and so sad without you

am i dying?

i need you
i need my family

i just want to be happy

2/22/2014 2 comments

What if I was not around anymore?

by ShinyAu 2/22/2014

written by ShinyAu

The thought of suicide has crossed my mind for years and have often thought how my families life would be affected by my own death? How would they cope, survive ? I know that life is a blink or heart beat away and we should not take life for granted however when your up against a brick wall why live!!! In the past month I have watched more gore movies , binged death, suicide , cemetery, coffins, life after death and so on. Yes I know I’m depressed and on medication but when you have 4 ways going at you at all angles from […]

2/22/2014 2 comments

I think I need help

by xitsdeadmex 2/19/2014

written by xitsdeadmex

I’m a human . No other specifications needed . But I’m a bit different , then again I’m not. I’m classified as well, bipolar, suicidal and I tend to have hallucinated like things which im not sure if it’s the isolation. Any who , I just wanna know how you guys do it . How you “power through” for so long . It’s really amazing , I know a lot of my friends with similar issues but . Is it really just switching off the sadness because I never quite understood that . And I don’t tell people my problems right now my best […]

2/19/2014 0 comment

Baby steps are still steps

by karakkaas 2/19/2014

written by karakkaas

Getting better is a long journey. I woke up and the first thing I told myself is that I wouldn’t die today. I decided to set daily goals. Small things, baby steps.

I’m scared, I feel like if anyone got close they could actually smell the sadness emanating from my pores. I’m anxious and insecure. But I will fight this. I will not let my emotions take control over me.

I went for my weekly doctor’s yesterday as I mentioned in my previous postÂ Â http://suicideproject.org/2014/02/anywhere-but-not-there/. She was very weary of letting me stay home as I had put myself in a […]

2/19/2014 1 comment

hi! i’m new =3

by katiemeowcat 2/18/2014

written by katiemeowcat

Hi there everyone! my name is Katie and i recently just stumbled upon this place and i decide to make an account and tell you guys my story and maybe help someone who is in need of something like this ;P I’ve never done this before so give me some slack ^.^ Alright well the first part of my story starts when i was in 3rd grade. I was a bit chubby back then (still a bit now) and was pretty much the only chubby kid in my school my school was very small and was a traditional baptist church/school everyone new everyone. And you […]

2/18/2014 0 comment

Into the wild

by anonym23 2/17/2014

written by anonym23

has anyone thought to do like in that movie? i rlly thinking to that but need a serious plan

2/17/2014 9 comments

Trying to be in the moment

by TryingZen 2/17/2014

written by TryingZen

Trying to summarize what has brought me to this place is pretty difficult. When your life is fine (good job, wife, kids) and you still think about killing yourself every day, what do you do? I just have a hard time dealing with the pointlessness and the daily sameness. And the fear. I’m sick and tired of the constant fear that something bad is going to happen to someone I love, especially one of my kids or my wife. So I try to practice my zen breathing and try to live in the moment, and try to appreciate the moment I’m experiencing right now, and […]

2/17/2014 4 comments

How can I …

by Naudia 2/16/2014

written by Naudia

Lately things have been going good , and yet I still find myself , waiting…

for something bad to happen to remind me that this happiness that has been given to me to Â borrow.. To remind me that life has been playing a joke on me and I’m just waiting for the punch line , .. Â Why can’t life be easier ?

I suffered so much already I’ve endured what a person could only believe to be nightmares. I’ve only tried to make myself believe that things are okay and they will be different … Â I don’t have to live by my past and let it define […]

2/16/2014 4 comments

just give it a look?

by _jfxo 2/15/2014

written by _jfxo

So I’m trying to find another way to do this whole ‘not killing myself’ thing. I’m starting to put my poetry out there too, so if anyone wants to read it or comment in it, the link is http://hellopoetry.com/lookingforeuphoria/

er, thanks and don’t be scared to hate it.

2/15/2014 1 comment

reflecting

by Madison 2/15/2014

written by Madison

i feel like I’m walking into a sacred temple of sorts and I’m defiling the marble staircases just by stepping onto them. If I walk past the oak doors and into the cathedral, the stained glass windows will shatter and the pillars will crack and crumble at my undeserved and unwanted entry; i have no place here, I’m barely lost. I am a wandering destruction.
I wrote something a few days ago, and i’m sharing it here, now.

“To the Readers”

Slip.

You slip and nothing is as it should be; the world around you is but an endless dream, a mere coffee stain on your notebook […]

2/15/2014 8 comments

Do you feel suicide is selfish?

by ArtNHeaven 2/14/2014

written by ArtNHeaven

Do you believe suicide is selfish? Do you have a right to kill yourself when there are others living off worse than you?

After all, when one kills his or herself they leave a lot of people in pain, anger and grief. Sometimes there’s even a [gruesome] mess to clean up. Is that fair?

I go back and forth between whether it’s fair or not everyday. EVERY single human being has or is experiencing some great deal of pain. in their life. But what about people who truly feel they’re better off dead than alive?

How do you feel when people try to compare your life to those […]

2/14/2014 12 comments

very lonely San Francisco man

by ersc6541 2/14/2014

written by ersc6541

Any depressed girls here in the city who want to just talk? Â Im not trying to hook up but I have unsuccessfully on dating sites. Â Just being honest. Â Ive attempted suicide several times. Â I even shot up motor oil once. Â My latest plan is to…. Â well I dont want to give it away. Â Everything thinG I do turns to shit. Â Btw …. guys… Â quit hitting on me. Â (Males) Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â […]

2/14/2014 6 comments

Another Untitled

by endingtheagony 2/13/2014

written by endingtheagony

I couldn’t say that things are alright.

Because I can’t remember the last time they were.

And the truth is that I have been battling each day,

just trying to hold my head above water.

I don’t want to live like that anymore.

I don’t want to live in state of constant battle with myself.

While I will never expect to see myself happy;

I refuse to continue to be my own worst enemy.

When everyone wants to see me fail,

I have to be the one who is rooting for me.

I have to be the one who proves everyone wrong.

2/13/2014 2 comments

New Faces, Same Beautiful Message.

by The Distress 2/12/2014

written by The Distress

If you have been on the Suicide Project for awhile, you definitely notice that people are constantly coming and going. Some people are natives and always around. Some people join for a few months then depart from us, whether to live or to die. Some people lurk and may have their account active occasionally to post. And many, many people are just visitors, reading and looking for that certain comment that is just what they needed to read.

I recongniz3 (yeah 3 for e, like a boss) that there are quite a bit of comments and posts that lots of people […]

2/12/2014 15 comments

If I die, would anyone miss me?

by Suicidal Unicorn 2/11/2014

written by Suicidal Unicorn

This is my first ‘story’ on here, and quite frankly I don’t really get how to navigate this whole thing.

But that’s not what I’m on here to talk about.

Nobody in my family that is close to me has died. I mean, my great aunt and my mom’s cousin’s dad died, but nothing effecting me too much. I’m not poor, my parent’s aren’t divorced, and I have a relatively happy and functional family.

If your still reading this, and you haven’t clicked out because it looks like im trying to brag about what i have, thanks. Because I’m not bragging.

I want to die. See now, that’s the […]

2/11/2014 4 comments

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