Screw timing, doing it tonight. In about 2 hours and 13mins. Gonna die like a druggie, under a bridge. Oh well, that’s what I get for not planning shit. Sorry for all my annoying posts. I basically used this site to *****. Bye bye everyone. Hope things turn out the way you want
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My Suicide Note
It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything, so I doubt anyone remembers me, but whatever. I’m just really fed up with my existence, everything about me is just horrible. All I do is upset or annoy people, I somehow manage to peeve everyone I meet and I don’t remember the last time I made someone happy. I really can’t think of a single good thing about myself, I’m annoying, not very good looking, not very nice, completely talentless and I’m the most stupid person I know. I’m so stupid I’m actually failing most of my classes in high school right now, and I only […]
So I will start off by saying that this might seem like I am looking for attention but I am not. This is what I deal with and I don’t know where else to express myself. Please don’t judge me. I’ve had enough of that.
Depression is hard. Its like being strapped to a table and left there in the dark with a chronic pain that just gets worse and someone constantly whispering in your ear:
“If you give up, I can make the pain stop”
I sit there wondering “Is it right? It hurts just to breathe, Why is it happening? I hate myself, I […]
I tried last night and I am so frustrated I failed. I’ve been failing since I was 8. I plan to try again today, sometime in the near future, because I’m just tired. I’ve managed to fully alienate myself from anyone I care about, and I’m incapable of forming new attachments or making friends. The world doesn’t need someone like me on it and already I’ve noticed any of my “friends” have already moved on or are tired of dealing with me. I can understand. I shouldn’t be bitter about it.
But I literally have no one so…I can’t keep doing this. I have PTSD for […]
no real point in shouting this out here, but I’ve got no one to listen to my ramblings in real life so venting it out on the internet feels nice.
I’m planning to kill myself. I probably would have done so long ago if I weren’t afraid for the sake of my little sister, but she’ll get over it in time.
I can’t handle the near daily nightmares, I can’t handle waking up every other night in a panic and sweat and dreading the sight of my bed because it means nothing more than fear to me
I can’t handle living in a family that hates me for […]
So I went to my prom as a lot people recommend but no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t enjoy it my social anxiety kicked in and I became self conscious. All the songs reminded me of my bestfriend and person I loved that I lost. I missed him and really wished he could have been there. I saw everyone else was happy so what the fuck did I do to deserve so much pain, to lose everything. Why am I being punished since the day I was born.
I cant do this anymore
I just wanna go to sleep and never wake up
Im bout to jus do the deed , I jus need to hurry up nd get it done
For thoughs of who knew me, thanks but this world is yours now
And as for you…. this is your fault and karma is a *****
I feel like I don’t really exist. I feel like an asshole everytime I do anything, whether it is right or wrong. I can’t do anything. I don’t want to do anything. I want to do something. I have to do something. Is living that something? No, it couldn’t be. I don’t deserve to live. I don’t deserve to die. I don’t deserve anything. Everyone always gives advice, but it’s shitty and never works. I can’t believe that I actually trusted them. I can’t believe that I trust myself. I can’t […]
I’ve realized something of late, something that fucks me over every time I even think about it. I never realized how much of a bloody nihilist I am. It’s disgusting. Some people have a real reason to become a nihilist (though it’s never a good thing), but there is no reason for me to be this much a a bloody misanthrope and cynic. I disgust myself by simply living, I disgust myself by thinking of suicide. I can’t win against myself, and I am not sure I want to.
Of late, I findmyself wanting to read, wanting to write, […]
Hey everyone, just me- Im 19 right now and I really hate my life . I see people complaining back and forth about trivial things and the truth is I always believed they didn’t know what true pain was. But I know it isn’t right or fair because I’m just comparing their pain to mine andy oroblems aren’t anyone elses. I was molested by my cousin when I was about 8 in 4th grade. the earliest time I can honestly remember this, I was experimented on and I was penetrated my older cousin. Both my cousins fondled me though. That may not […]
Perhaps I’ve been suicidal since I was seven years old, which was ten years ago. I guess the bullying of my friends and peers were the start of it. I saw everyone having at least four friends as I played by myself, I was never the one that anyone thought was fun or cool. I was the freak with the buck teeth.
I was also diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome at that time. I often was in my imagination, being friends with imaginary friends until I was fourteen.
There was only one friend that I knew, and she went to a different school, but each summer, we would […]
My wish is this one day I have it all ended. Where Do I began? Im 16, Just faking everything. I attempted Sucicde countless times from anything from Suffocation, Overdose, Cutting, Strangling and have tried hanging. All of them have failed and caused pain for me. I have a girlfriend I hate my life and my family. I wish I could run away and not be affected by anything. I got into trouble at school for Depression thoughts, Self-Harm. I was sent to the hospital twice for a week. Put me on meds and never really helped. The Hospitial is out and I will run […]
I cant do this anymore. I have decided that if things don’t improve by the 1st June, I am going to kill myself. I cant take the pain anymore.
And then finally I can be free of all the pain
I guess I should start from the beginning. I am 17 almost 18 and have a brother who is 16 and a sister who is 20. My life sucks is complicated and somewhat confusing at times.
I was adopted when I was 4 by a family who we were all happy to be part of. I was adopted because my parents did drugs and were nearly always unconscious. We were malnourished and my sister was looking after us. So I guess the positive was we got a new family and well that’s where things were supposed to get better but in fact things somehow got worse.
My brother […]
I give it all but when I fall,
I get up and give some more,
Until there’s nothing left of me,
Just some bones left on the floor
This is so difficult because the emotions I’m feeling right now are such a mess but holy hell I am so sorry for everything that you don’t deserve I don’t want to do this but I have to be selfish again, I need release and as much as I love you you’re not there when I need you but God I still love you. You are so strong and beautiful I can not stress the faith I have […]
I don’t even know how I ended up here. I was looking for painless ways to go. I guess since I’m here I will say goodbye to my sister. I know you tried, an I love you. Christina, My love what can I say other than I’m sorry. My kids will never understand this decision, so break it to them gently. The rest who know me, well “middle finger”.
Reality is boring , real life is boring , real world is boring , not like movies, comics, novels, anime manga, video games !
by niki
written by niki
Reality is boring
real-life is boring
real-world is boring
not like movies, comics, novels, anime manga, video games !
also,
I hate Humans , Humans suck
I hate Human , Human suck
I hate Humanity, Humanity suck
I hate people , people suck
Most humans / people only think about Money ,
and this reality is boring !
reallife is boring !
realworld is boring !
people / humans are so shallow, superficial, stupid, ignorant
Humanity is hopeless
if there is God , then God is boring !
even Science is boring too !
Science fiction (Sci-fi) is much more interesting than real Science facts !
why […]
Pain and Pleasure (a quick true story of a kid who fucks with the minds of depressed girls…)
written by emotional.monster
So I am a senior male in high school. I’m 17 going on 18 at the end of June. There’s this one kid Zack who is a freshman at my school and I fucking hate him. I haven’t really talked to him but knowing what he does makes me sick. He dates a girl and makes out with her and everything, he is all sweet and charming and everything (little does anybody know he’s really a ***** and extremely aggressive and violent with guys) but the catch about the girls he dates is that they all self-harm (usually cutting). Sounds like a sweet boy right? […]
Don’t cry over my death, cry over my life.
lately I’ve been completely hopeless, alone, and depressed. I feel sorry for everyone in my life, having to deal with me, I’m so pathetic. I cut myself this whole school year and recently my parents found out, they haven’t looked at me the same, i hate feeling pity from others based on the choices i made, I’m such a *****, i don’t deserve the kindness. I’ll never forgive myself on the choices i’ve made, i’m done, done with the self pity, the apologies, the secrets, and most of all I’m done with myself, i can’t even look at myself in he mirror anymore, I’m ugly […]