This is my last time writing this to someone because I’m ending myself. Nothing seems worth living for except a few things, which are not yet here with me. What are those things? Having my first child. Having my first relationship. Drinking coconut juice, very refreshing. Anyways, here is my pouring out thoughts of you: I still think about you every day. I’m quite sure it’s not the same for you. But I wouldn’t know. Though you could say I’m still in love with you, I don’t consider I am, in fact, I feel I’m near over you. ‘We loved with a love that was […]
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My Suicide Note
I don’t know why I’m posting. I guess because I can’t share this with anyone else. But I have 4 more days to go. I’m both at peace and afraid. I’m afraid I’ll fail. I can think of nothing worse than failing. My method I hope is as foolproof as anything can be but then nothing is ever 100%. My plan is meticulous. But once it starts I cannot stop. Even best laid plans may be interrupted though and as long as I haven’t started I can delay it. I hope I don’t need to though.
I want so much to go through with it. I […]
I’m very, very tired. I can’t live every day debating whether I should live or not – if I continue living, it’ll stay like this. If I die, I don’t have to deal with this. I know you say it’ll get better, maybe it will, I won’t live long enough to find out. For some reason, I can’t feel happy, even though there’s been cheerful people in the atmosphere. I’m very, very tired. Shall I go about eternal slumber?
I hate everyone and everyone hate me… I always upset my girlfriend because of the past, I never bring it up, I hear voices all the time, there shouting at me telling me I’m worthless and that I need to kill myself… I have stood at the top of a building I have held a blade to my wrist 3 times in the last fucking week… I have pushed down once but didn’t draw blood, My Family hate me, I get dirty looks, I get bullied… I can’t talk to anyone about this because I can’t share my opinions and when I do PEOPLE TELL […]
what would seriously be the chance of surviving a car hitting you?
I’ll be fine, less down. going about my day, and WHAM, a sense of despair, of sadness, of desperation strong enough to metaphorically (and sometimes literally) drop me to the ground will slam into me. Just out of nowhere, the pain is so much, too much. I don’t want this anymore. Please, make it stop. If there’s a higher power, if there’s a dash of kindness in the universe, make it stop. Make me stop. Let me die. I can’t handle this. I don’t want to feel this anymore. There isn’t anywhere for me on this […]
Tell her i love her
tell her i love her
tell her i love her
tell her i love her
tell her i love her
You never notice how much affection can kill you…litirially, you support her through everything she knows how you feel about her, she understands you and you understand her but yet even in the way you have expressed yourself, your love she doesn’t feel the way you want her to and the love almost seems guilty, you would do anything to get to her heart, betray your friends, lie to her, choose her over everyone else. Even after all the crap you take for her, the […]
I think I’m going to kill myself tonight… I don’t have anything I feel happy for. I feel miserable. I don’t have anything to live for. I’ve tried meds, therapy, hotlines, doctors, but here I am…
I just don’t wanna live anymore. Yes I regret so may things and I want to do a lot of things in the future but not at the cost of what I have to go through everyday, depression and suicidal tendencies. I regret not showing my parents the lovely daughter I could be. I regret not being able to see my siblings’ future success in their career. I regret […]
I’m new here, I was searching around to find answers and I found this website
read some of the posts and I’m glad I found this. you can call me kei uses this name for a lot of games.
I just wanna share what i thought, What I feel. I don’t know how to start but I guess I’ll start with I feel sad about everything in my life I feel so useless, I failed so much ,I don’t know where and how to catch up, I feel like it was a mistake that I exist in this universe, I don’t want anyone to be near […]
one day left. Its quite nice being so numb, i no longer think so much and no longer care about how it may affect her and everyone else. without her even being near me i can tell how hurt she is, i wish she would just let go, it would be so much easier…..people always say it’ll get better, well it never did it just got worse and even now people say it but they still don’t realise for some it never gets better, it just gets worse. I wonder whats after…..death, is it worse then this? Or better then this?
Hello everyone,
i would like to preface this by saying thank you to the wonderful staff who have created this website and for those who will read this. I appreciate your time.
I am a 26 year old man. I stand six feet tall and have a decent body and some pretty nifty talents and gifts, but sadly i in my short time on this planet have managed to destroy every single good thing that has ever happened to me through very poor decision making. I currently perform stand up comedy, i am in a nirvana tribute band and i have a variety of extracurricular and […]
So tonight is the night, I guess. I’ve tried everything and just ended up screwing things up even more… So this is the note I’m leaving behind (besides the small snippets about how much I love certain family members, I’m keeping those private). One of my best friends is going to recieve this after I call my ex to tell him I love him, right before I slash my wrists. Please don’t leave any comments like “You should add this,” or “This one line is dumb.” This is honestly what I feel, and I want to keep it that way.
Here’s my note:
I’m so sorry, but […]
“But sometimes, I can see myself sinking so far down. Getting so desperate for some sort of tangible stability or peace. I can see myself getting a gun and swallowing the barrel.. I can’t See myself ever pulling the trigger, but I can almost hear the defining silence that comes after the blast. And I just wonder. Is there anything after this? If so, could it be better? I just want to be stable. I want to be okay. I can picture this landscape. Tall grass and a weeping willow in the middle of the field. Mountains are barely visible against the cool summer sky. […]
Death by chance.
She had always thought her life was perfect up until perfect became too much. She had a beautiful family and made friends so easily, she was good at school work and got guys easily, she thought life would always be this easy, sounds great right? Well that’s what she told people. Little did she know life was deceiving her the whole time, her life that she thought was perfect wasn’t as good as she thought, infact She got bullied every year of her primary school life, changed friendship groups every year, never had a true bestfriend until year 7. She didn’t have such […]
I always play out something in my head like for example, if I imagine myself going to my room to put curtains up I imagine seeing a face in the window… But I never see them just imagine them and it’s always the same monster just different at times.. It’s always a white face or mask with black hole for eyes or just souless pitch black eyes or something on the stair case… Someone touching my feet when I’m a sleep or when laying in bed i imagine seeing a shadow crawling around on the floor.. I get sculed at for leaving the lights on […]
There comes a time in someones life where things hit rock bottom, then you think you are as far as you can get when you are wrong.
What I mean by this is things get worse when you think the possibilities of life getting worse are next to nothing and they can only get better, well I bring you news life can get worse then you think it could.
So today this is my suicidal note and goodbye for the world, today is the day everything is going to end for me.
I have been hospitalised three times for cutting, (in attempt to commit.)
This time it’s going to […]
I’m contemplating suicide for and more. Sence I was about 13 I’ve had suicidal thought. I thought life was hard then. I’m 20 now. And I’ve thought of how I’m going to end my life everyday almost all day for the past month. I was addict of methamphetamines eight months ago. Now I’m on pills . it’s one addiction for another. I no hat for a fact. At 13 I was cutting then I went to getting tats .
In 2013 I love my grandfather…then my mother on Christmas eve night 2013. I use to have everything o ever needed. And now I’m literally nothing. In […]
The last train comes in a few. I’m outside, my hands are turning blue. The blistering wind in my hair. So many voices in my head. None of them are telling me to stop anymore. I don’t care anymore. I’m comfortable with all of turmoil in my head. I’ve accomplished so much in my short life. Did everything I knew I could, though I had no help. Everything alone. I’m so so lonely. Maybe I should’ve did this sooner. Definitely. I guess I’ve finally succumbed to my loneliness. A symptom of loneliness is death, right? Is this going to hurt, those fleeting moments when death […]
Once upon a time, two emotionally dysfunctional people brought an Imp into this world. Kids weren’t really dad’s thing, and mom wasn’t at all certain about the care and feeding of an impossible girl. Maybe Imp was destined to crash from the start. She learned how to talk, and then she stopped. Just stopped. Wouldn’t even talk to her mother, and she was a total mama’s girl. When she got to preschool, she was behind other kids because of the whole not speaking thing. But she also just didn’t really fit in. Playing house seemed pointless. […]
Ever since I was born, I have always been a shy person. I would try to ignore my own feelings to help others. In fact, I was forced to at such a young age since my friends were all a few months younger than me. Therefore, since I was the eldest, I was the one who got reprimanded and to my young mind, did everything wrong. This idea was reinforced by my mother shouting at both me and my dad a lot. My dad and her yelled at each other every night. They tried to hide it from me, but I was a poor sleeper. […]