I’m exhausted..

I’m contemplating suicide for and more. Sence I was about 13 I’ve had suicidal thought. I thought life was hard then. I’m 20 now. And I’ve thought of how I’m going to end my life everyday almost all day for the past month.  I was  addict of methamphetamines eight months ago. Now I’m on pills . it’s one addiction for another. I no hat for a fact. At 13 I was cutting then I went to getting tats .

In 2013 I love my grandfather…then my mother on Christmas eve night 2013. I use to have everything o ever needed. And now I’m literally nothing. In all reality all I want is for someone to hold me while I hurt … And never be left alone like I have been. Last week I cut open my arm. Tonight I cotinue to contimplate on exactly how I’m going to do this. I’m also a felon …all kinda shit has went so wrong from me… I just wanted the old me back and I’ve struggled and struggled. I’ve snapped and I want to just be gone.. I don’t wana be here anymore.