They treat you like crap in the real life, yet they act like they care on the internet. Why is this? Why do they stab you in the back to your face. They don’t see the cuts, they think I’m fine, they think it doesn’t hurt, they also believe I do not cut from excuses. No one thinks I’m a good liar, they don’t know how good of a liar I really am. I hide my cuts they don’t suspect. I plot to leave, but my uncle keeps me here by making me show a true smile. When he helps me they hurt him, I […]
I quietly wait for the end.
The of end a sentence, the end of a song, the end of the day,
the end of the hour, the end of the dream, the end of this way.
The end of the cycle, the end of time,
the end of the mind, this peaceful end of mine.
I try to rush forward in hopes of meeting you sooner, but in the end I am denied.
Sadly someone selfishly wants me alive,
when all I want is for the quiet to arrive.
Dear End please hurry! Do not delay,
for I know when you come a new dream we […]
So this is a sorta free verse lyric I wrote for my English class last year. Hope you like it. Sorta dark though. Happier ones still to come
One more.
One more year, one more week,
One more second In one more day,
One more sunrise, one more breath
One more night, don’t fade away.
They tell you, “you’re a fighter,”
Yet the don’t see the blood
Or burns etched by the fire
Or tears that come in floods.
They tell you to keep living,
When yoy feel dead inside
They say that it gets better,
Get up, stand out, don’t hide.
So you live one more day,
Counting minutes go by.
They add up to all these years
You […]
Hi. I found this site last February by accident and have been popping in once and a while to check out posts. Today I decided to register. Why so? I’m not exactly sure. All I know is that I’ve tried two ways now to die, both have failed on numerous attempts. I’m seeing a psychologist and I’m on medication to control my anxiety problems and depression. I’m 4’2″ living with a type of dwarfism known as achondroplasia. I absolutely hate my body and luv carving it with pretty red sketches. There are voices inside my head and they aren’t all that pleasant. So Yeh, I’m […]
I’ve come to realize that when someone asks any variation of “how are you?” They don’t want to hear the truth. They want to hear something along the lines of “I’m good, thanks.” So they can go on and not feel guilty about not having asked why you’re sad. If you didn’t admit it, you’re not right?
The same goes for when they do actually ask if you’re upset about something. They don’t want to hear that you feel like your entire life is crumbling around you, they just want to look like a caring person for five seconds.
So you hide behind “I’m fine” […]
So this is my letter… I don’t know when exactly I’m going to do it, but hopefully by next spring. PLEASE help me proofread this! I want to make sure my relatives understand my decision and can go on without me. I’m 21.
Dear mom,
I know this will hurt you for as long as you live. I don’t know what to say to ease the pain I’m going to cause, but I know that ‘sorry’ changes little. Though I will tell you why I did this, I know you’ll still be overwhelmed, confused, and hurt. Everything that was going through my head before I did […]
Reality is boring & LIMITED !!
Real life is boring & LIMITED !!
Real world is boring & LIMITED !!
I also hate this life, I hate people / humans (well.. MOST/90% of them), I hate reality, I hate this world.
its very BORING !! and especially nowadays become ONLY very materialistic, money / profits driven only, all about money, money, money, & image, image, image! ; it’s very superficial, shallow, and mundane boring!
Why movies, video games, comics, books, novels, anime/manga, creative Art, basically human’s IMAGINATION & fantasy is often/always a hundred times FAR much more interesting & better than this sad, mundane, boring, superficial, […]
fuck Reality ! fuck real life ! fuck real world !
Reality sucks ! Real world sucks ! Real life sucks !
Reality boring ! Real life boring ! Real world boring !
movies, novels, comics, games, manga/anime are better than Reality !!
there is no MAGIC, no SUPERPOWER , no ‘cool, magical’ SUPERHERO / SUPERHEROES like in those movie , novel , comics , game / games , manga / anime , etc etc !
FUCKING BORING real world / real life / reality !!!
I also hate this life, I hate people / humans, I hate reality, I hate this world.
its very BORING […]
i don’t even know why i am writing this really i suppose subconsciously i do i am just so tired of waking up each day with no purpose trying to do something with my life only to realize it holds no meaning in the grand scheme of existence and that ultimately i will always just disappointment myself with my own inadequacies i hate myself and the world for being the way i am i always feel so hollow like i am not even real and that i am no good to anyone it feels like my very existence is being stretched across some medieval torture […]
Hi everyone, lately I’ve been thinking more and more about suicide. Over a year ago I met this guy who I feel in love with and after about 8 months I was told he had a girlfriend. Imagine the hurt and betrayal I felt by this. Sadly I wasn’t strong enough to walk away from him, it’s like he had some kind of control over me. I finally got to a place where I walked away from him for good about 5 months ago. I’ve been trying to better myself and move on with my life, I’m only 22. I’ve been trying to get back […]
I really need to let my story. I can’t tell anyone and I won’t tell anyone most of this. I’m going to go in order of events, and you tell me if I have a right to kill myself.
I was born in Iraq, during the war. It was horrible. I was never able to have a good night’s sleep. I always thought I was going to get murdered, bombed, raped. I was so scared. I was only 5. When I was 6, a week or two after my birthday, my dad went to work, like usual. On the way there, he got shot twice in […]
I’m done. Had all I can take. No one understands how mentally destroyed I am..
I haven’t smiled in weeks…. Maybe months
I just can’t take it. It feels like my heart is literally ripping itself apart.
I don’t care if I’ll regret this decision, I JUST WANT OUT..
I’m sorry…
this is my end..
I wanna kill myself, I have a method by jumping off the Golden Gate, I’ve gone 3 times already, but I can’t seem to do it. I’m scared to jump because of chance of surviving and feeling the agonizing pain, although, the survival ratio is low and also, if I back out, I’ll just make a big scene. Now to why, I wanna do this act. I’ve been depressed for years do to having a dysfunctional family, always being a failure at everything I do; I don’t seem to have a future. A few years passed and I had to move to a new city, […]
I best introduce myself first, I’ve been bouncing on and off with depression for quite some time now and have now reached the age of 34. As a teenager my mates took drugs and i eventually caved in at 14 and started what i thought was a softer drug and began smoking cannabis which then led me onto higher things like magic mushrooms etc. After being led down a life of crime i broke away and became leading an almost normal life over the age of twenty, marijuana being my main fault line. It wasn’t until a few years ago i started recognising the inner […]
Hi…
just like everybody else on this site.. I was looking for easy ways to kill myself.
Reading the stories and all the comments…makes me feel less alone when it comes to suicide. I had a few attempted suicides that didn’t work, clearly.
But that feeling of depression comes and goes and most times it feels like it just needs to end.
I’m in my 20?s and thought this would never happen to me. Just a day ago I was living on cloud 9, I had it all; an amazing boyfriend and devoting best friend. But my insecurity and past issues caught up with me.. now I have […]
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hello there fellow SP readers im in need of some advice or guidance im so lost right now and for months the only solution to my problems is suicide.
My problems: Legal issues- im looking at some serious time for a crime im innocent in
Because of my legal issues im out of a really good job and i cant afford my bills and have missed many payments now
Im gonna be paying for my lawyer for the next 10 years for something i didnt do
everyone in my town hates me because of the way the media portrayed me and i cant leave […]
You gave me the push, to hold on, for just one more day.
And although my smile finally wasn’t fake, you were.
So here I am, even lower than before, desperately searching for another reason to be happy,
it’s like breathing under water.
I guess I’ll just develop gills.
Attempt one will be tonight, three hours from once this has posted, and I’ll be drinking bleach. Fingers crossed.
I can’t take it. He keeps hitting me and touching me and I can’t make him stop, you’re not allowed to tell your own fucking father what to do. It hurts. My hair is falling out slowly and he’s noticed when he pulls my hair and that kind of makes it worse.
As I’m typing this I’ve got three bottles of tequila and will be downing them as I go, I’m sorry if this becomes hard to read.
Everyone tells me bleach burns, but honestly, I like the burning. […]
How i fricking miss you and your texts. How i fricking miss how we talked for hours. How you came after me. How we liked each other. How we would go home together. How you would ***** about her to me. Now tables have turned. Im lonely. You are with her. Everywhere. So close. I never was. So physically close. Do you like that. But i didnt want to freak you out. I could have flirted with you the way she always does. But i didnt want to be her. But now you prefer her dont you. You dont even say hi. You fricking dont […]
Basically, this is how it goes. My life has been pretty traumatic thus far. (Loosing my grandparents at age 10, my first girlfriend commiting suicide at 18, seeing so much violence) that kind of stuff.
Since then, I’ve felt myself growing slowly and slowly more numb, feeling less and less everyday. I don’t think love exists anymore, I’ve lost my faith and I just survive day to day basically.
To top this all off, I haven’t had much happiness to counter this. My family is sub par at best, never offering support. (By the way, I survived after my girlfriend killing herself without any professional help or […]