Poetry & Art

Don’t tell me it was fate
Don’t say the bird eats the flies
Don’t say the flies will eat the bird when it’s dead
It’s not karma
Giving and receiving in a voluntary manner
Isn’t karma
You won’t find the dead
With a hole in their head
And have them do the same to you
An innocent passerby
So don’t say it was fate

The snake won’t leave
Screaming
Suffocating
You can’t remove what you placed
Muffling your screams
In this ocean
Nothing but bubbles escape your mouth as you suffocate
Don’t forget how all this happened
Don’t ever forget how that snake got there
Coiling around your insides
Your heart
Like a disease
A manmade disease
That you placed yourself
And yet
Like a fool, you keep smoking
And screaming
And suffocating

how does it feel to be on the other side?
I wonder
I can ponder
I can ask
But there’ll never be an answer
I wish I knew how this scale works
How this cycle is never ending
How you’d end up on the other end when you weren’t before
How I can find a solution
I wish I knew
How it feels to be on the other side

I wasn’t there before
Yet here I am
And yet, I am both there and not
I was receiving, you were giving
Another one bites the dust
And here I am giving and you’re receiving
I wonder
I ponder
When did it begin?
How does the cycle start anew?
There is no such thing
As fate

Seal the wound
Seal the wound
Seal the wound
The wound isn’t for salt
The wound isn’t for spit
The wound isn’t for pepper
The wound is to heal
The wound is to learn
The wound is to conquer
The wound is the epitome of beauty
Shut your sparks
Clean those knives
Toss the bandages
Take a walk in the park
Let the wound heal
Don’t throw knives at the wrong assassin
Don’t throw knives at the wrong assassin
At the wrong
Assassin
At your own assassin
Don’t throw knives
At the wrong
Assassin
Now shut your sparks

we live in a world someone else imagined

and I’m burning to dust in this twisted world

More than the fires below us

within us

Don’t come looking for me when I go missing

After you’ve sought to retire my flames

I’ve turned but I don’t want to hurt you

Close your eyes, look away

This fire’s all but vanished

Yet it’s burning, freezing, engulfing, neglecting

Close your eyes, look away

Why did you have to break the doll I loved so much?

The doll I made that moonlit night in ecstasy

Silly girl. I never meant to call you out.

It was plain to see the malice underneath.

I believed they saw as I did, a precious pearl

I believed they’d trade their bones for sapphire stones

Just for you

They said they love you

But they only want to cage your soul

Let me break their chains and set you free.

Don’t! Silly girl. Stop desiring the forbidden

And remove all that has been bound

Free yourself

See the other you

Those of you you’ve encased in those wretched dolls

It doesn’t matter what I do!

You have no say! […]

tell me, tell me

in these new lands

we’ve just settled

our little civilization, flourishing

We’ll become something big someday

We’ll become something big someday

They all say

A few decades pass

We’ve learned

In these new lands

Disease goes untamed

Weather unpredictable

Death left and right

Crops fail

Monsters lurk in the shadows

And war

War breaks out

War breaks out

Between the settlers

Between the noblemen

Between man and monster

Between settler and land

Between animals

War breaks out

War breaks out

It just makes us wish we weren’t here

Wish we didn’t have to suffer

Wish there were no monsters

Wish there were crops

Wish we didn’t have to antagonize about death

Wish the weather could be tamed

Wish there were no diseases

Wish, there was no war

Our little civilization is no longer flourishing

We […]

This pearl of mine

This pearl of mine

I dove for I’ve cultivated thus far

However, I’ve clearly done it foolishly

This pearl of mine

This pearl of mine

How you’ve cracked and dirtied

Yet you shine so bright

Yet you sparkle like the stars

This pearl of mine

This pearl of mine

How could I have been so blind?

How could I have been so blind?

You’ve cracked, yet you sparkle

You’ve dirtied, yet you shine

How foolish

Was your cultivator’s mind

How blind

Was your cultivator’s eyes

burn my skin

burn my mind

burn my heart

make me blind

Red and yellow

Red and yellow

Red and yellow

Red and yellow

The colors so warm

The colors of our bodies

Red and yellow

Red and yellow

Red and yellow

The colors so warm

The colors so mellow

My dear fellow

Why so fearful?

If only my heart wasn’t my own

If only my heart wasn’t so soft

If only my heart was a sapphire stone

I can walk everyday

Without fear of losing my way

I won’t be afraid of anything going away

I won’t ever scream

I won’t ever suffer

I won’t ever suffocate

From the cigarettes

From the coiling tendrils of the snake

If only my heart was made of stone

i never mess with my hair or try anything new

because whenever i do

…

…

…

so its better not to

but then i see you so carefree

i want to be, too

for the time-being, i try a little something new

and when times up, i hide

but sometimes, im too late

and they find out

…

…

Wearing your heart on your sleeve

For all to see

You’re a fool

Making a fool of me

I’m standing here in the shadows

Watching you crumble And scramble

To put yourself back together

Standing here, watching you

Bleed from the inside

A fool with her blue heart on her sleeve

Only a fool

Would go out of her way

To clear her day

For someone else

Only a fool

A stupid kuudere

Would go out of her way

To get others to stay

By throwing herself away

And at the end of the day

You still wonder

Where they’ve all gone

And if they cared even the slightest

They say the white light is something you see before death, before entering heaven. I don’t think that because if that where true then why have I seen this bright light 100 times before in my life. Every-time I say I’m not hungry, I’m just really cold, I’m tired. My head hurts with nothing to do but let my thoughts roam free. Being locked up in the same house not being able to see the people who make me the happiest. Life isn’t a trap the way you look at it is. I wonder why after all I’ve done, all the pain I’ve caused myself […]