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A Suicide Note To Myself (AKA, More Bullshit That I’m Too Self-Centered To Keep To Myself)

by AKidWithAName 3/22/2017

written by AKidWithAName

DEAR FUCKING ME,

As of yesterday, I’ve officially come across the most miserable day of my year: the day of my entrance into this god-forsaken abyss! Who wouldn’t want to remember my birth, where I nearly died twice before I even got out of my fucking mom (who didn’t even want me, by the way). I really must’ve fallen short; birth is an easy time to die.

I could always blame it on the sadists the world calls doctors. They didn’t really want me to live either, I’m sure (who could fucking blame them?). Unfortunately, their job calls for them to try to keep even the most […]

3/22/2017 8 comments

Aaaand I’m back

by pikwangchu 3/22/2017

written by pikwangchu

I actually feel quite clean today. Well not exactly. A bunch of hoes are pissing the crap out of me. And i apprently failed my exams again.

anyways. My point is… like suicidal thoughts flash into my mind out of nowhere in the middle of class. Not every time but from time to time. It’s quite scary actually. I’d also think about how people would react to me disappearing. I honestly feel like they wouldn’t care. I mean a lot of them don’t care. Maybe some will but not a lot. Just about 2-3 people would. Out of all 100+ people in school that I know.

I […]

3/22/2017 0 comment

Stupidity is killing me

by Lennie Cohen 3/20/2017

written by Lennie Cohen

I deal with some of the most stupid human beings in the world. These are low skill sales people meaning they arent selling complicated products so anyone with a pulse can get licensed and certified to sell the products. I’m getting emails asking “whats the password for the webinar” even though it’s clearly listed on the email. I have people asking me in a snarky way for the physical address of the training as if I’m a moron and forgot to list an address. Hello! Sh1t for brains!!!! It’s a WEBINAR!!!!!!

This is just the tip of the iceberg. They are so stupid and they don’t […]

3/20/2017 3 comments

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by Zelrot 3/19/2017

written by Zelrot

I lost my baby within three years of her birth. Before that, I was moderately depressed. Once in a while I would break down into tears, I was even afraid to look in the mirror. I’ve seen myself as a monster most of my life. If not I as a monster, then I as someone surrounded by them. I’ve been married to my husband for quite a while now, I love him dearly but his depression only piles onto mine. He’s put a gun to his head around 238 times now, once just recently. He pulled the trigger all but that last time, all bullets […]

3/19/2017 5 comments

Developing frustration

by Rayman 3/18/2017

written by Rayman

Post-analysis: I’m sorry for anyone who reads through this.. it’s an utter bullshit and compared to other really serious posts here it seems out of place..but it might help me pick myself up again and i can’t just post this on facebook can I

Hi there, me again with my bullshit (and my bad english). It’s always the same deal with me. Time to time I feel like I’m slowly decomposing from the inside and it’s always in the worst time possible. Right now I’m in my most difficult year on Uni, studying mechanical engineering. I’m 23 y.o, have loving family and some friends from uni. […]

3/18/2017 2 comments

just felt like posting to deal with my emotions sorry if its bad

by Moon gazer 3/18/2017

written by Moon gazer

Chasing after the moon.

Under a cloudless sky.

The stars suppressing my sense of self.

Forgetting my demons.

Forgetting my scars.

Trying to grasp the moon.

Hoping to steal the secret to its peace.

Content to rise and fall.

To always shine just for itself.

My cries fall into oblivion.

My hands always failing to reach it.

Still chasing after it.

Awaking from my dream.

The moon still in the sky.

Still away from my reach…

by moon gazer

3/18/2017 3 comments

Are we really the selfish ones?

by stuckfornow 3/17/2017

written by stuckfornow

Are we, the ones in insurmountable agony, the ones who are selfish? We yearn for an escape from something that is out of our control, yet “how dare we” be so selfish. Yes, it’s selfish to make others suffer so that we can escape, but it’s selfish of them to bind us to this life we wish to take no part in. It’s selfish of them to make us feel even worse than we already do (if at all possible) for wanting to have that unspeakable freedom. I do believe it’s selfish of me to take what I want without consideration of those I love, […]

3/17/2017 7 comments

Abuse, Broken, Alone, & No Future

by BrokenDreamer 3/13/2017

written by BrokenDreamer

All my life I’ve tried to do the right thing and all my life I got pain and abuse.

Years back everything was destroyed by a hurricane and lost that I owned and my health started to fail.

In 2014 my father died due to med mal. I’m on disability having gotten a severe debilitating condition. I’m in massive chronic pain. Greedy relatives tried to the little money my father had.

I have no one to help me.

In 2015 I got abused by 2 medical facilities and imprisoned in one due to a false statement someone made. I witnessed an African-American beaten by hospital security severely in the […]

3/13/2017 7 comments

Newbie

by sp2112 3/11/2017

written by sp2112

Hmm… Just signed up. Not sure where to start. I had made myself a deal a few years ago. I decided that it really is kind of my duty (no ‘kind of’ involved, if I’m being honest) to outlive my mother and my dog. Feel like I owe it to my mother. Just couldn’t do it to my dog who is everything to me. I am also everything to her and I just couldn’t leave her adrift like that. I still plan on keeping that promise. But, I gotta say, the world in general and this country (usa) in particular these days is making this […]

3/11/2017 1 comment

If You Talk Enough Sense, You’ll Lose Your Mind

by millionth 3/10/2017

written by millionth

It doesn’t matter what I do.

I have been to three hospitals in an effort to save me from myself. I tried to explain my feelings of pointlessness to the doctors. All I got was medications shoved down my throat and a longer hospital stay.

I tried to explain myself to the EMT in the ambulance with me. All I got was a lecture of how selfish I am, and then he showed me pictures of his cats.

I tried to explain it all to the nurses. It was funny to one that I watch crime shows and Grey’s Anatomy and was suicidal, but if I didn’t watch […]

3/10/2017 17 comments

Please help.

by afterdark000 3/9/2017

written by afterdark000

Honestly, I dont even know why I want to kill myself. I dont know why, but I just want to.

I want to give up on my life. Everytime I look back on the things on Ive done, it makes me want to cry.

To be comepletely honest, while thinking about registering here, I cried. I then spent the next hour deciding to sign up or not.

My mom walked in on me just now. I tried hiding my face and wiped the tears away, but she saw me for a second or two probably. She asked why my eyes were red. She then went on talking about […]

3/9/2017 8 comments

The Stars are Too Bright Not to be Seen

by every_nightfall 3/9/2017

written by every_nightfall

A few days ago, a classmate noticed the cuts on my wrist.

Today, a friend of mine saw the cuts too.

I told them it was nothing, that I only got them for being mean to cats (Don’t get me wrong, I love cats.). I know what I said was such an awful thing to say especially when even you can see the truth beyond your own lie. It’s just that I couldn’t quite think of anything to use as an alibi anymore.

I’m afraid sooner, more people would start to notice the slashes on my wrist and think I’m a weirdo, or worse they might think I’m someone […]

3/9/2017 4 comments

Countless Scars (i’m new here)

by every_nightfall 3/7/2017

written by every_nightfall

Would a person die when he’s dead?

Or would he only feel more pain?

I knew I’m already suffering from depression a year ago but it’s only last week that I started to hurt myself physically. It just happened. I don’t even know when or how something sharp came into my hand to slit my wrists. All I know is that I shove it on my skin and felt the burning pain beneath. And that it felt so good. To finally feel the pain. To finally divert my attention on my bleeding wrist rather than what I feel inside.

It was the time my brother came to yell […]

3/7/2017 11 comments

Game of Life

by lxmyrick 3/6/2017

written by lxmyrick

I bet a lot of people have heard of the game “Life”.

It gives you all the happy things in life like a family and a great career, and a great life. But the issue is that is really life. In real life you will lose loved ones, you will have issues with money, you have good times and bad times; but the game “Life” is all good things in life. I wish they made a version of this game of reality. One where you can learn relate to the game, not a pretend game.

3/6/2017 2 comments

Oh boy

by simple.sushi 3/5/2017

written by simple.sushi

I’m Karen. I fee pretty lonely a lot and no one around me is ever even here for me. Been super depressed for a while now and I’m so annoyed by it. My family try’s to help but they really don’t. I have a girlfriend she isn’t much helpful either along with her friends which were my friends too but they totally hate me because of my depression. I hope this feeling leaves me be but for the mean time I guess this will stay like this.

3/5/2017 2 comments

No one deserves to know..

by nonexistingsoul 3/2/2017

written by nonexistingsoul

Hi. I’m back. The day was the same like any other day. I feel hopeless and I still made bad decisions. I made everyone around me mad. haha. I never change, do I. I always make things worse. I want to die. Last night I confessed to a friend about what’s happening to me. Know what he said? he said everyone experienced what I’ve been experiencing now. He said I shouldn’t let everything affect me. That I should just be positive cause I’m not the only one who’s suffering in this world. I shouldn’t be selfish he said. haha. They are all the same. Always […]

3/2/2017 3 comments

Mirage

by Jazzmoses 3/2/2017

written by Jazzmoses

I’ve known him for five months. We met in a psych ward. We try to hang out every week, usually three days a week that I spend at his place. I’ve met his family. Cooked and baked with him. We have fun together, we laugh together, and we have sex. I remember when we started this thing, he mentioned no strings attached. Is friendship a string? Scared of breaking this illusion.

3/2/2017 1 comment

Exhausted from Fighting

by lostsunshine 3/1/2017

written by lostsunshine

I can’t do this anymore. I feel so much pain all of the time. I constantly put on a fake smile but I’m getting so worn down that I can’t keep it up much longer, I just want to sleep and never wake up. Every time I try to make a new friend group they just end up insulting me endlessly and make me feel completely wretched and then they leave my life forever. I’m tired of being abused and hurt. I’ve had virtually everything happen to me in life: manipulation, rape, living on the streets, physical and mental and emotional abuse, stalking, mother calling […]

3/1/2017 5 comments

I feel Alone

by Nugget 2/28/2017

written by Nugget

I’ve complemented suicide since I was 7-years-old, it’s tragic and horrific knowing children experience such thoughts so young. I come from a family where discipline means a visit to a room with the doors closed and anything at hand. It meant having to contain my tears and cries or the pain would just get worse. At 13 I got bullied for being Hispanic, it was the first time I realized skin color had a meaning. I was stereotyped as a Mexican whose dad left and the only thing I’ve ever accomplished was hoping the border. My mother at that time would make my life at […]

2/28/2017 6 comments

The police…

by Elliot97 2/25/2017

written by Elliot97

tl;dr left my flat with nothing but my backpack with my rope. Shortly after I was stopped by the police and asked If I was Elliot, declined and moved on another 300m where I was stopped and searched, they found my rope and I just ran, i must of got a good 500m until a 4th car stopped me.

After being handcuffed so tightly, I asked the police officer “it’s not fair that you can just stop me making my own life choices”

You know what he responded?
“No one would if you died anyway, you’re wasting my time… We don’t get a choice”

Now for a complete […]

2/25/2017 13 comments

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