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Stories of Loss

For those who have passed on.

Long time no post here…

by pikwangchu 7/20/2016

written by pikwangchu

Tell me…

Am I useful to this world?

I mean, from what I see, i’m useless.

So I’m here to rant about myself.

I’m unaccepted, i was never able to be super comfortable in a group of friends.

I’m troublesome, i’ve always caused my parents a lot of trouble. It’s to the point where i blame myself about my father’s heart attack about one and a half year from now.

I’m an accident, my parents never planned me out. i almost killed my mother when i was born. i’ve been called ‘adopted’ a million of times throughout my short time of living.

I’m mentally suicidal, if that made any sense at all, […]

7/20/2016 2 comments

Feeling depressed and not worth living? Then you have been lied to… (Part 1)

by beyourself 7/16/2016

written by beyourself

Let me first tell you a bit of my story and how I found this website – I was searching for methods to commit suicide. Why? I do not feel suicidal at all and I do not want to die at all. However, I may not have any other option. The reason for this is that there are some criminal people treating to do horrible things to me and my family, presumably because I was the cause for their significant financial losses (we are talking millions “supposedly”). While I can accept being killed I do not want my family to be affected. Therefore, my only […]

7/16/2016 1 comment

One year…

by insignific4nt 7/16/2016

written by insignific4nt

Can you believe it?

One year without you.

One year since you left us.

since you left me.

One year since your eyes were on the world.

One year since anyone has heard your laugh.

One year since the sun hasn’t shined as bright.

One year since you have been kissed by those you love.

One year that your baby brother has woken up screaming your name every night.

Once year since he found you laying in your bed.

One year since your mother had to bury you.

flag and all.

One year of pain in my heart.

god damn how it hurts.

One year since I have felt your touch.

oh, how i miss your touch.

One year.

7/16/2016 2 comments

Protected: I want to go

by Imperfection42 7/14/2016

written by Imperfection42

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

7/14/2016 0 comment

I want to to tell people my story, hopefully it helps someone find hope

by JamalK02 7/14/2016

written by JamalK02

So, I used to be a lowkey, small time drug dealer in the biggest city on the east coast. I’ve lived in the hood all my life and who I am is simply a product of my environment. One of my first drug deals was to some tall white kid who wanted a dub of weed. I could tell he didn’t do this often, he used as much slang as he could and even tried to sound “black”. The problem was that this kid wanted to meet at a train station and i didn’t have my metrocard. I hopped the turnstile to get to him. […]

7/14/2016 3 comments

bed post.

by catsnap24 7/7/2016

written by catsnap24

when i was in the 4th grade my parents decide to get a divorce. everyone who has been through one probably has a similar picture with the same line “we both love you very much”. but after that my dad was gone a lot. so here i am growing up with only my mother who is depressed herself and stressed to take care of 3 kids. we would fight a lot! but one day we got into a huge argument and she locked me in my room. i remember scream crying all day hungry thirsty for water, maybe at one point i got my phone […]

7/7/2016 1 comment

I Feel Depression Coming Back

by GerbzBaby 7/1/2016

written by GerbzBaby

( Inspired by the beautiful animated films by Miyazaki. I present a drawing of Totoro and Catbus! Enjoy<3)

I’ve been happy or.. At least carefree for a while even though I barely had any communication with anyone for the past months.. I started to feel strong, like I could do anything and honestly not give a sh*t about what people think.. But all of a sudden i feel my depression creeping back up on me. I’m scared. I don’t want to feel depressed anymore. I WANT […]

7/1/2016 4 comments

by kinziek 6/30/2016

written by kinziek

Sigh. Personal life is a smoking crater and now I’ve stopped caring about my job at all.

And behind on bills. Maybe something extra bad will happen this month and I’ll be homeless and just die on the streets.

6/30/2016 4 comments

Four years ago today !!!!!

by noneedforaname 6/29/2016

written by noneedforaname

Hello to old friends and new. As you can see im not dead or in prison which i guess is a good thing. ( depending who you ask ) i haven’t been on in awhile, trying to be strong for eveybody else lmao. Anyways i do pop in to read post now and then but had to post today. Like many people, this is my vent. I get a lot of good advice, kind words, and a whole lotta ” shit ” off my chest. Its been 4 years today that GOD took my oldest son. He was 21 […]

6/29/2016 5 comments

First time on here..

by Tin_Cup 6/26/2016

written by Tin_Cup

Hi,

Y’all can call me Tin if you’d like.

My story and why I’m here?

Well, I was a victim of a very violent form of abuse. My father, a drunk sadistic bastard, would beat my brothers and I. Though I was left without an escape my brothers could run to school, as I was only 4 through 8 at the time.

My mother was framed for abusing us when we were young. I was 3, and my brothers were 4 and 7. Our church were the ones who framed her, and lied to DCFS which led to our being taken away from her.

I suffer from a form of PTSD, sort […]

6/26/2016 3 comments

Why dose this keep happening ?

by kupo95 6/23/2016

written by kupo95

So far in one week I heard of two 2 and half year old children dying in horrible ways . wondering how the families feel and my heart breaking for the loss.

At 6:39Am my father woke up the house shaken ….with Tragic news my cousin son as passed in his sleep 2 and half years old. My heart is shattered the hurt for my familie is unthinkable my cousin live in jersey my mom and dad left . I’m home falling in an out of crying and numbness trying not look like a tragedy just happen . because my sister in law just had to […]

6/23/2016 1 comment

Suicidal and Confused

by snugglepuff 6/22/2016

written by snugglepuff

Well, I never thought I would post something like this and honestly its kind of weird but what the hell. As I type this my husband is sleeping next to me, and has no care in the world. Me on the other hand, I carry the weight of all of the care and pain. This is my story.

I am 24 years old, and I currently do not see even a glimpse of a promising happy future. It weird because I am in college and successful at it; I’m smart,have tons of motivation, and can light up a room. But, just as much as I can […]

6/22/2016 1 comment

Seeing the Demons

by xmwdhx 6/18/2016

written by xmwdhx

This is my story to tell and the story you should know.

Janaury of 2013, I was a suicidal trans male. I suffered depression almost 3 1/2 years. It’s very long time than you all expected. I was hurt, scared, tired, lost, abandoned, and many words I should describe myself of being sad. Every day during my middle school year and the year of my 7th grade, people treated me like an animal or a beast. I was beaten up by bunch of kids especially middle and high school boys. I was known as a freak, emo freak, tranny freak, or boy freak. I couldn’t stand […]

6/18/2016 4 comments

Its really happening

by kupo95 6/17/2016

written by kupo95

So tomorrow I will get my jewelry back and the past five years of my life will be a waste .

I just don’t understand my ex could really do this to me like he has no feeling for me at all which I know is a lie because he did/dose ..but he just keeps listing to his evil mother .

Now I’m sitting looking like an ungrateful piece of shit who just wants to be up my mother and fathers ass when all I wanted was to be married and left alone . to wake up in PJ’s and drink coffee to live a normal life […]

6/17/2016 3 comments

Hey everybody its been a while .

by kupo95 6/15/2016

written by kupo95

Sooo a lot happened since I last posted first off I’m divorced……so yup.

But before that my family found out that I was suicidal and got very mad can’t blame them tho know if must hurt them. But in between that time I was aguring with them them I not staying home and to leave me alone .

Then I opened up to my husband tell him all the pain I feel and sadness. Then he told me he been turning down opportunities to come back home for the past three months . so for some reason I told him that I been cutting myself and were […]

6/15/2016 5 comments

My suicide project.

by OddBlueBoy 6/14/2016

written by OddBlueBoy

Hey, they call me Odd. It’s nice to share my story with you.

First off, im not killing myself… Yet. I’m trying to push for another 10 months of living. I’ll be 18, in April. I’ve decided to tell my story now, just incase i jump the gun a little early.

Where do I start? This is kind of like a “my moment” type of thing. So, how can I personally catch your attention, long enough, to hear me out?

I’ll start by asking; “have you ever been sad?”

6/14/2016 4 comments

People Are causing Me To suffer

by GerbzBaby 6/13/2016

written by GerbzBaby

(A mini drawing I drew to help calm my nasty thoughts :/ )

All my friends and family are unsupportive and them not being here for me is causing me to suffer. Day after day after day all I think about is suicide but.. I’m to much of a chicken to fucking do it. I want to live but then again I want to die.. In the least painful way.. I’ve been waiting for so long to find those friends who finally care.. The […]

6/13/2016 10 comments

Places to see before ……that final trip

by Aeonverus 6/12/2016

written by Aeonverus

Need ideas to visit west of the Mississippi River before my time comes

6/12/2016 2 comments

An update on my worthless waste of space

by disgusting 6/9/2016

written by disgusting

Taken straight from my tumblr because I’m too lazy to repeat it. And it’s all here anyway.
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It’s taken almost 40 years and falling in love with the one I truly want and could marry every day of my life over and over again, and knowing that I can’t have him and will go to my grave never having the love that I’ve dreamed of since I was 5 to finally push me to this. It’s something I should’ve done when I was still a child, but I didn’t understand back then. All my life, I’ve ignored the outside world and stuck to […]

6/9/2016 7 comments

You Can’t Make Me Feel Sorry

by GerbzBaby 6/8/2016

written by GerbzBaby

People throughout my life have been making me feel sorry for them when I decided to put my foot down. Like with my friend who I got into a heated fight with. He always tells me about how upset he felt in the fight but never cared about how I felt about it. Hurt, depressed, betrayed, cheated on, thrown away, used, the list goes on and on.. It always seems like he’s trying to make me feel sorry for him even though he was the main cause of it. Same said with my dad. I remember this one time I didn’t want to go on […]

6/8/2016 1 comment

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