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Stories of Loss

For those who have passed on.

The Encounter.

by GerbzBaby 4/19/2016

written by GerbzBaby

(If you want to get an idea of what’s been going on, look at my previous post.)

I unexpectedly ran into him today while working on a project at the computer lab. The first thing that came to mind as I walked in and saw him was “leave” but honestly, I couldn’t. I had to get this project done or else my future would be at the mercy of my schools hands. It’s not like my school takes kindly to failures, but, anywho.. I walked in and sat down at the desk the teacher directed me to. It was right next to the printer. I knew […]

4/19/2016 0 comment

Change..

by nonexistingsoul 4/15/2016

written by nonexistingsoul

It’s been a long time since I posted something here again. So here I am, still alive. Remember my post entitled “April 2”? that should be my date of death. I should’ve been dead by now. But still, I’m alive. But now I wish I wasn’t. I regret choosing to live again. I thought everything might turn out good this time. I tried changing. But every time I’m trying, something bad always happens and it drags me down deep. And when I thought I was getting better, it turned out worse. As usual, I still do self harm scars. I still think about suiciding. And […]

4/15/2016 1 comment

“Numbing the pain for a while will make it worse when you finally feel it.”

by HakunaMatata 4/14/2016

written by HakunaMatata

Throughout life there will be ups and downs, joys and tears. Normally, I try to ignore negativity coming from my neighbours and refrain myself from using foul language but words can’t express how I stronfly feel about these emotional and financial leeches. My neighbour are the type of people who are like this quote “counts other people sins/mistakes” to try to make themselves look like “saints”.

In my opinion, they are truly despicable and are like peeping Tom’s who have a problem minding their own business. I made nicknames for them as flies, paparazzi, or anti-fan. I made it clear to them that I would appreciate […]

4/14/2016 0 comment

Living on house arrest

by AnonStuck 4/11/2016

written by AnonStuck

I was once a young, ambitious man. I loved smoking weed and one day I got some from California. It was really good and I sold a lot of it. Within 6 months, I was making about $2-3000 a week. I sold for about 5 years. I never had a job, just a full time dealer. Last year I spent 22k on plane tickets alone.

I would always use cash and avoid using my bank card and account, but I still managed to have 150k go through my bank account in the past 5 years. Plane tickets, for example, have to be bought on a card […]

4/11/2016 7 comments

Said Fairwell To My Best Friend.. And Lover

by GerbzBaby 4/9/2016

written by GerbzBaby

No, before you jump to conclusions I’m not harming myself in any way. This is about someone who I loved but unexpectedly found out he had cheated on me. Though we never made us dating official we where intamit (kissing, cuddling, making out, I would never go as far as that). He was my best friend, my lover and someone who made me in all honesty happy, something most people can’t do. He was kind in helping me.. But in the end I was wrong about him. He has fallen in love with another girl and still had feeling for my sister, lied and told […]

4/9/2016 4 comments

AN OPEN LETTER FOR EVERYONE

by missanonymous 4/8/2016

written by missanonymous

I know some of you might be into deep holes right now and some were at the point of their life when all they want to do is to break down and cry, or even die. Yes, I do understand because even I myself can’t do this anymore.. but I’m still trying as long as I can. That’s why I am here not to tell you that ‘everything is gonna be fine’,’get up and it will get better soon’ or ‘put yourself together don’t be weak’ because even I can’t believe that it’s all gonna be alright. I’m not going to tell you the words […]

4/8/2016 2 comments

Wolf In Sheep’s Clothing

by HakunaMatata 4/7/2016

written by HakunaMatata

I’ve suffer from anxiety and depression for months after my relative just keep telling me “not to worry and let karma do the rest” about my neighbour from hell next door. Things didn’t get better but escalate for the worst. He never listened to me to be about being careful about those people trying to harm us/seek revenge and it is always better to stay safe than to be sorry. I tried very hard to stay positive and always strive to protect my home from these sort of jerks that try to provoke us with their words, kids playing on our driveway, and petty revenge […]

4/7/2016 3 comments

Musings of a Pill Popping Loser – Part II: If Only I Weren’t Lonely.

by Shephard 4/5/2016

written by Shephard

Hurry up and fuckin’ wait — oh, how I despise that phrase/former way of life. I don’t like sitting ’round on my arse doing nothing (besides exam prep) but that’s what I’ll have to do for now. Things should be bearable as long as these folks working my case stop making it all about money and meeting these stated outcomes of theirs, because otherwise I’m going to turn violent… and that won’t end well for whoever happens to be on the receiving end of my violent gestures.

…but I’m not a violent person by nature. Of course not. I’d much prefer to reach a compromise […]

4/5/2016 6 comments

Friend long gone. Other thoughts.

by Seneca 4/4/2016

written by Seneca

I live in a south-american country with lots of social problems. One of those, connected in a way to all, is poverty. I was born in a fairly wealthy family, not rich, but in a country were some some didn’t make enough to eat, certainly more than enough. My family didn’t live always as well as they did by the time I was born, and still lived in the same “low-class” neighborhood. In this neighborhood, lived a much poorer family, and my grandmother were friends with them. I was about 7 when I was introduced to the other old lady’s grandson, a kid older than […]

4/4/2016 2 comments

My love left me today

by bodies.in.blood 4/4/2016

written by bodies.in.blood

The title says it… we’ve only been together for 9 months, but everyday was a blessing.
Yesterday, first thing in the morning (right after I text her good morning), i wake up and see a text from my best friend sent at 3 in the morning. It was a suicide note… as depressing as thinking your best friend killed herself (i found out later that day she failed), i tried really hard to stay somewhat in an okay mood. So needless to say, it was already a terrible day, but i didn’t even know how terrible it would soon get…
At about noon, i get […]

4/4/2016 11 comments

You are Never Alone

by AKB92388 4/4/2016

written by AKB92388

Hi everyone,

I wanted to share my story. My niece Anne took her life on March 30, 2015. She attempted the first time on February 10, 2013. I have no answers and we are at a loss. She left behind 3 beautiful young daughters. They are very strong girls but they miss their mom more than anything. She was the happiest person, but also the saddest. They always want to help others feel like they are loved. They made a suicide awareness video called “you are never alone”. They wanted to let others know you are loved way more than you could ever imagine. If you could, please […]

4/4/2016 6 comments

Musings of a Pill Popping Loser – Part I: C3I

by Shephard 4/3/2016

written by Shephard

You never forget that smell, no matter how long you go with or without it, it’s always there in your memory banks. Waking up that dark Friday morning in a hotel room just down the road from the Sky Tower, I looked across to see her cuddled up against me — our bare bodies covered only by a single sheet as the heat from the night before kept us snug and warm. But the smell of sweet, sweet love just so happened to pierce my nose, and with it came an epiphany of sorts. Could my future really lie within denouncing the one value I’ve […]

4/3/2016 8 comments

Nothing to live for..

by GerbzBaby 4/2/2016

written by GerbzBaby

As far as I know I have nothing left. My friends, my family don’t even care for me. Day after day, night after night I just lay in suffer age while my friends beat me down further. The friends whom I’ve considered family have used me until they come across someone to replace me. The ones I trusted now ignoring my cries. I have nothing to live for… I have no one to live for. I can’t feel any emotional love anymore..

4/2/2016 1 comment

I don’t know…..

by PlzLetGo 4/2/2016

written by PlzLetGo

I do not know what to do, what to think. I truly do believe that my husband does not want me around anymore even though he tries to make fighting arguments that he loves me and that he wants me to be here. I am having by far the worst time in my life and he can’t even be there how he used to be. He used to be so patient. Do entirely blame him for it though. He has gone through a lot with me in the last almost 4 years of being together, a year and a half of being married and 11 […]

4/2/2016 6 comments

The snow turned into rain

by Sameoldlangsyne 4/1/2016

written by Sameoldlangsyne

I can’t come up with a reason to go through the struggle again. I haven’t had an intimate relationship in more than 5 years.

I was married for 20 years, but she wanted to start over by herself.

I have a 20 year old daughter who only messages me when I send her money. She doesn’t answer her phone, and doesn’t reply to texts… Unless there was money involved.

I just got laid off from my job. I’m too old to start over. I’ve done it too many times. What for? To see who wins the election? That doesn’t matter… To see the next movie or show? What […]

4/1/2016 0 comment

So Much To Talk About… So Little Time

by PlzLetGo 4/1/2016

written by PlzLetGo

Since I was about three years old I was told my life would be become better for the events that played out later.

My parents split when I was three (no I am not heartbroken about it, I have not talked it him in almost 15 years). I was told that my life would take a step in a better direction now that a toxin was gone.

I was sexually and physically assaulted when I was five. No one in my life found out until I was 12/13 because hell at the time I didn’t even know what that was. It was my mom’s boyfriend at the […]

4/1/2016 1 comment

To Blue Tinker Bell…

by HERE4UOK 3/30/2016

written by HERE4UOK

Hello All –

Sorry I’ve been away for a while.

I just have been dealing with the recent loss of a truly dear friend and member of one of the groups I volunteer at.

She is deeply and terribly missed by all of us left behind and not a day has gone by when I haven’t thought about her. “If only…” thoughts plague my mind and tug down my heart, and as much as I understand that she is now free, that she’s now relieved of all her problems, DAMN IT THIS HURTS SO MUCH..!!!

14.

Too young.

I don’t know if to think she was too young to give up, […]

3/30/2016 2 comments

Hi

by iwanttodieslowly 3/30/2016

written by iwanttodieslowly

I don’t want advice. I don’t want to talk. i just want ideas on how to die slowly, memorably, and painfully.

3/30/2016 7 comments

2 Years Later

by 13vida 3/28/2016

written by 13vida

Oh my gosh, I have been trying to remember the name of this site for the life of me! I’ve looked every where for it for the past two years and then *BAM* I finally found it! No, I just went back through some of what I wrote and I feel bad for my past self; I was not a positive person, but I know it wasn’t my fault that I was depressed. No, here’s what’s happened the past couple years – p.s. sorry for the long story.

My best friend moved to Arizona in December of 2014; I missed her like crazy. I went out […]

3/28/2016 7 comments

Untitled

by imokaybutnotreally 3/25/2016

written by imokaybutnotreally

“You have so much to live for.”

I don’t know how may more times I can listen to that. Anytime I talk to any friends or family it’s the same thing. They start by telling me how I am going through a rough patch and that it will all get better. They don’t offer any real advice. They half ass their responses and tell me how my future is going to be just fantastic. I am getting frustrated even thinking of it now. A severe case of anxiety and depression is no “rough patch”. I have been dealing with these issues since before I can remember. […]

3/25/2016 1 comment

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