today my mum and dad sat me down, and asked what was going on. they said ive been ‘acting odd’. i tend to shut myself out from the world. spending most of my time going on walks with music blasting in my ears, or just simply staying in my room, door locked, music blasting, and staying in bed all day. they don’t understand. its a big world out their. my anexity is climbing the walls. im just a mess.
Please, by god help me.
I just ABOUT briokw my FACE.
Sorryb f9rfor misss spelling drunk as ever.
two b;ack.
omg/////// please he.lp me. I fractured my jawk. I cant quit httin g mysekf.
Tired of disintegrating under the weight of my own fear of disintegration. Tired of watching everything I suffered so hard to build, crumble away, to slide back into the trauma I desperately want to distance myself from. Tired of the fear of disintegration, only to have it happen in actuality, and have all of my worst fears come true, for the x-teenth time: To relieve my worst experiences, those that caused me to be like this, over and over and over, in the context of current work relationships as I try to make my money and pay my rent, barely scraping by, wondering what I’m […]
I’m scared to die but want to.right when I’m about to down some pills I think about what’s gonna happen after and chicken out. I’m NOT Christen so I don’t believed I’ll go to hell for doing so. But were do I find the strength to kill myself?
When I was a young girl, my parents were divorced and I lived with my mother. I thought that’s how families were suppose to be though. You have two separated parents and just visit the one occasionally. Then one day my mom started seeing this guy. I had an idea of what was going on because my dad was also seeing another woman. But the strange thing to me was when my mom and this guy who was actually a complete stranger to me got engaged and he moved in. It was weird at first but I liked the idea of having two “parents” together. […]
…are the last bastions of a scoundrel.
Well last night was defiantly an interesting one. But now I’m left with a difficult task. I could tell something was up with my boyfriend with the way he would hardly talk . I knew something was bugging him but what he told me I was not expecting to hear at all. for about the past two years me and my bf have been together everyone was really happy about it except for one person. My little sister she pretty much hates him and it hurts me cause most of the time I have to play referee when they are near each other. Hes been […]
I think the saddest part isn’t that a year ago at this time I thought I had it all figured out. The saddest part isn’t that the girl I love more than anything stopped waiting for me to find a way to get back to the same town so we could be together. I don’t even think the saddest part is that in the year I had to get things on the right track that few if any things worked in my favor. No, the saddest part is that I will be having a birthday in a few weeks, and that I will be 27 […]
This time it was a boxer.
He was enormous , an unfair death, like always.
I just started to love on him, became attached.
But all good things die.
This is life.
I feel alone. All the time. It’s the worst feeling in the world. I can be in a crowded place with lots of people and still feel all alone. Sometimes I wonder whether or not it would be worth it to just kill myself and spare everyone around me from the misery I feel. I am very good at keeping it to myself, but sometimes, I slip. And when I slip, people decide they hate me and walk out of my life. That in itself is a horrible thing to have to go through. Just yesterday, one of my best friends decided I wasn’t worth […]
Greetings, people.
Here I am again. After months of inactivity and facing the world I’ve found that I’ve wound up on this site again. I thought that I might have been able to focus on work and get my head off from my own negativity. But it never works. Time and time again I find myself coming back to the same conclusion – I have nothing to live for. Others might have people who love them, or a lifelong passion, or an unfulfilled wish. It might just be true that I have given up on life itself, and my contemplating of it only furthers my sorrow. […]
I am looking for my life partner from any FIRST NATION WORLD, where life is not as depressed as where i am presently living. I lived some years in UK and I never felt depression as i am feeling in India. I am willing to relocate and have enough money that I can buy a small house there.
Every time i read any discussion forum on depression, i get the same answer that you are not alone and somebody is always there to help you. If such a help really exist please come forward to help. I will be thankful for my whole life for such […]
I need to get help for my manic depression for once. Always been scared of seeing a doctor but yesterday I finally see its only a short time before I completely become useless. I’m running out of time. I’m a 32yr male.
Please, if you can.. tell me your experience with manic depression, what your doctor told you and treatment and your opinion on the whole experience. Please tell me as much as you can cause I’m so scared to be put away. It’s gotten so bad and starting to literally get out of control.
It has to stop or I’m gonna just kill […]
Absolutely love the lyrics to this song, the video…not so much. It definitely asks some great questions.
Doesn’t it feel like we always have to prove something to somebody to get anywhere? When we work for others, our boss. When we work for ourselves, our clientele/fan base. And all of it is typically for one thing: money, the item through which we sustain a living.
Now being a rather introverted individual, I often find the task of socializing with anybody to be rather exhausting. So then how might I go about making plenty of money when I hate probably the most important aspect of earning it? Building rapport, networking, and selling on my particular skillset/product seems like a lot of unnecessary stress.
Take my […]
I wanted to thank people at this site who have been so kind to me.
I have been diagnosed, at least in the past, with recurrent major depression. What makes it worse are the moments when I’m flying high, and I feel like I can accomplish all this stuff. Then I get anxious, and the anxiety transforms into a deep depression.
I have made it out of bed once today. No one can save me, and no one can even tell me what is wrong. I’m an adult, but I cannot seem to function like one. Actually, I can’t even function much like a human being anymore. […]
I have listened to the advice given on my last post, which was quite a while ago. I have been hoping that getting another dog would make me more happy. I believe that she has. She loves me and I love her. The sad part is that she is my only true friend in this world. At the same time I have been trying to chat to women my own age. They do not seem to be interested in me. The only women who are would be very young women. They do not need to be with me because they have their whole life ahead […]
I have got good Grades in School, All my friends are back, made new ones, gotten over brake ups and make new relationships 🙂 I just hope I don’t get my heart broken again, I have been given a second chance by so many people, I have fixed things,Going to see my favorite band in January (Slipknot), I am starting to really love life 🙂 But one thing that did kinda put me down today was I got a message off a stupid 13 year old threatening to kill themselves because they cheated on there girlfriend who was apparently the love of his life bullshit, […]
The air was so cold on that dreadful October night,
As I shivered in my thin blankets three,
I sat waiting for a call that would never come,
From someone who said they cared about me.
As the hours ticked on I worried that they were hurt,
It is a possibility you know,
But as I sat there a horrid thought crossed my mind,
As horrible as any I know,
This person never did know how to be late,
Not even for school or for work,
So how could someone I loved so very very much,
Turn out to be such a damn jerk,
Then my thoughts took […]
http://youtu.be/Hci2kZ8DlJM?list=PLJ0wn2wwbYFmNYL9RgYZFdaXKJaGeQRu1
In this song the guy is having a bad day. I can so relate to these words lol