So tired of this. I just wish I had the guts to actually jump. I wish I didnt care. Someone once told me that you should do suicide the way you take off a band-aid quick and at once, no backing out, no thinking about it. If only I could do that… Fuck, why can’t I do that!?!?
so im socially awkward and im losing friends left and right,, im probly gonna die in a few months when i save up for a gun ..i lods my girlfriend of three years had to move out of her place (now shes a heroine addict) i was recently told by a pscycologist from my town that i fit the symtoms of adhd innattentive…which makes so much sense but im 24 now i feel like my life is ruined..i cant pay attention in conversation so now i avoid everyone…im afraid the doctor will think that im just out for drugs to sell..this is my last shot […]
Hello everyone. A potential suicidal from Brazil right here. So, needless to say, English is not my primary language. I truly apologize if there is any kind of grammar mistakes on my reports here. Honestly, it is my first time posting something in a site such as this and I’m a little insecure of what to write here, but I decided to try and make contact and – I don’t know… See what happens. I don’t think it’s wise to keep all this torment to myself. If is ok with you, I would like to open up just a little… at least just once.
It is […]
Everything I do is worthless,everything I feel is useless,everything I hope for is always a cruel mirage and my soul is so full of pain I don’t feel like I have any strength anymore to keep forcing myself to live,what for? in the end life just hurts you,people take advantage of you the more sensitive and empathy you feel the worst and unlike they say it never actually gets better is all a lie it just lifts you up with a false pretense to throw you against the ground while it laughs at you and there you go again like a masochist standing up in order […]
So I guess I’m wondering if there is any difference in being dead in LA or NY. Not that I’m partial to either, but if I just go ahead and off myself in LA I would save a couple hundred for the plane ticket to New York. I guess I feel more comfortable in nyc, I know the area well and it would be nice to be there, something about the city I guess. It was the first place I really felt free. That would take a little bit more planning and less money to reimburse other people. Either way a hotel is pretty easy […]
I havent drank in a while because it usually ends up very badly for me but tonight, im really needing to just zone out. As I was pulling into my driveway coming back from the liquor store, I saw a wallet in the street. It had a decent amount of cash, some gift cards etc. I could have taken it all and just tossed the wallet in the garbage but, knowing it was the right thing to do, I took it over to the guys house and gave it to him. He was very grateful as most people would be but, unlike how I used […]
So my baby is gone I and so upset and I want to slit my throat every moment I think about changing things and I think about my baby. My boyfriend doesn’t even act like he cares. His mom told him before it all happened that we should get this over with so he could gwt away from me. And he wont even help me with this. His mom doesn’t care. I want to just be gone. I want him to know that I want him to help me tgrough this cause I fell stupid. He wont understand I hurt. His mom is like well […]
I can’t take this shit anymore.
I don’t even know where to start my story.
Actually, I’m not going to waste my time typing the story.
Nobody Cares
I hate my life.
I want to die.
It never gets better
My boyfriend is the only one who I told I’m breaking,I think he’s forgotten though.
He just keeps getting mad and upset and frustrated wih me and he tells me I’m pushing him away and I tell him things about ex’s and he struggles too forgive me but I’ve forgiven him for so much that hes done in his past.
I need his support,but he’s forgotten I need it..but I don’t know how too tell him in a polite,non attention seeking way….I need him..I’m scared of losing control..
It seems that pushing yourself 6 feet under would be a better feeling than this.
More and more as the days go by, I am realizing that the only way i can feel normal or ok again is to not feel at all. I am getting worse and worse and all this pain consumes me more every day. Heres what i need and even though i know none of you, i have no one else i can turn to and trust so hopefully one of you can help me. I need someone whom, when i finally let go, will contact the few people in my life that matter and give them a message for me. yes, i know i could […]
Is there anyone here who is in therapy but struggling with DID and suicide?
So I swore I’d never post here again, that my last post about being tired wasn’t going to lead to another. That it was a one time venting thing. So why’m I here again? Good Lord, I don’t even know. Maybe it’s because I want to off myself, but am too afraid to do it. Maybe because I’m all talk, and just desire some kinda of attention, even if its just negative attention. Perhaps its a plea for help, so people talk to me. Maybe its so I don’t feel as miserable and alone. I created Tumblr for the same reason – as an outlet […]
No worth in putting up with bullshit just to save nothing but a pathetic little thing ready to be thrown away. I see a lot of people marking their leaving with their birthday. Well, mine is this Tuesday. Still stumped on what I should do. I only thought of it today. I almost have no motivation to even come on SP anymore. But my mind is clearer when i expel my muddled brain somewhere. And, well, if I’m going to do it, may as we’ll keep it hidden from the real world and be able to go through with everything more easily.
I’ve decided life really isn’t worth living, and want to die. I want to commit suicide while still being able to use my organs for donation, so I can at least save a few lives in the process. The problem is if I die and no one finds me right away then my organs will be no good. Also I read death by cardiac arrest as opposed to brain death will make it so my organs will be unable to be used. I figure since I’m going this route if I can do some good and save a few people in the process it would […]
I don’t know what to do anymore
Im still wondering wrong
Nothing can help me
Not a lyric or a song
But I’m still wondering why
Should i fall or should i fly…
I hate the weekends. I have no where to be and the anxiety consumes me. At least during the week I have some responsibility that forces me to function and get distracted from what triggers me. Weekends remind me of my lack of meaningful connections and that my participation is not required or sought after. I often end up self medicating so I can relax enough to sleep or settle down enough to read or watch movies. When that doesn’t work I reach out to people who don’t truly respect me simply for some companionship and pseudo moments of feeling like I am part of […]
I guess it’s a bit different. People can get along. But will I ever do the same?
What makes one sane? A bunch of standardised tests for differentiated individuals?
Disorganised and depressed thoughts for the last 4 years. And I’m not even 18.
Maybe I just had a rough day. But, I’ll never be able to talk to y’all the same way.
Sorry for wasting your time. I just felt the need to turn to someone/something. Cause I have a bad tendency to turn to self abuse when I feel low or disappointed or mad at myself.
…because one day we will all be Dead 🙂
it wont get better. my life is ruined and over. i will always be sick. i might exit today. if i work up the nerve. i just miht. no bs.