I didn’t ask for any of this. I was born and my path was thrust upon me. I am not looking for your approval or sympathy because I simply no longer give a fuck. I hate people. I started out as a kid does; Innocent and gullible. I didn’t realize that I would be despised by family and friends for recieving gifts that I DID NOT ask for. I don’t believe in evolution but I am not religious in any manner. I was probably the MOST DEPRESSED PERSON on this site a few years ago. I have been here a while… I hate life and […]
I hate people. I hate living and I hate existing. No matter how much good you do for folks? EVIL always has the upper hand…remember that…evil always wins…for now.
because of rumors, there’s this boy who is friends with the spreaders. and he likes pushing me down stairs or pushing me in front of people at school. i really don’t care about rumors anymore, sometimes you have to get over it. slowly recovering from my depression but am still very anxious.
but for some reason everything, every little issue just annoys me. even if it’s from my significant other. it just annoys me! people apologize to me but i cant hear it anymore. just another big fat stupid lie.
is it normal that as you’re slowly recovering, everything annoys you and makes you so angry, mad […]
Work stresses me, but being home triggers me. I’d rather be at work right now
Hi guys,
I’m a 30 y/o male from the uk. Been suffering with depression for many years, mainly stemming from my upbringing. I’ve treated those close to me badly in the past, always pushing everyone away. I know my problems on here are nothing compared to others, but I feel I’m at the end of the road. I met the most fantastic girl 2 years ago and lived my life to the fullest with her. We was both so happy. But yet again I manage to ruin it, just like I’ve done with everything else. I’ve tried everything and hung on for as long as I […]
Sitting in the hospital waiting to see my therapist and I just want to break down and cry. Holy shit. Then tomorrow I get to see the psychiatrist. Maybe they’ll actually give me a pill that works.
Doubt it.
Hello again,
So I’m beginning to understand why people post here. It makes you feel less crazy. So thank you for making that available. Anyways… the pressing question I have is more of a story with a question. I was in the hospital a month or so ago and they had psychiatrists come in. They told me if I ever felt like hurting myself, I suppose suicidal thoughts would be in that category as well, to call them or come into the emergency room. I was.. inquiring if I should actually call. It’s probably a good idea.. but I don’t really feel I want to. Anyone […]
I hope no one takes offense to the “Nuts” line.
Humor’s my go to when I’m trying to cover up my true feelings.
This is my first post.
Actually, I didn’t even know this site existed until about an hour ago.
Well, here it goes…
I’m 28 years old. I’ve struggled with depression & anxiety since I was a child. When I was a teenager I cut my wrists (not deep). I don’t think I wanted to die. […]
hello,
I am from new zealand. I am a 35 yr old man who hears distressing voices 24/7 and for the last 7 yrs. There really is little hope for me as i have tried all of the world’s medications without success. I have also tried acupuncture, psychological therapy and hypnotherapy without any luck. When you reach the end of the road with respect to possible fixes you just feel like crap and wonder what the point of it all is.
For me its quite ridiculous that i could still be alive 20 years from now. It means a whole lot of suffering occured from between now […]
If the world is an ocean, then shall we become sharks.
The king of the jungle, the lion. A warrior, a sabre of light.
The magic sands at the end of hell. The chain that we must cut.
Faith, is everything, everything that is. Everything that is wrong and right.
The scale. The balance. Liberty and justice. Most of all, universal and eternal peace.
Raped, our goddess. Civilization, civilization, civilization. Our populous system on our “Mother Earth.”
I wonder so much, what is missing in the soul of others. The truth – And oh, how I am so alone. Sacred crucifix.
Assemble, the journey. Who will […]
So, I’m gonna cut the bs here, I’m probably not going to kill myself anytime soon. I honestly just really want to share my story, get help, and possibly prevent me from doing so EVER.
I’m Mae, I’m 14, and I’m currently dealing with both severe anxiety and minor depression. Which honestly is like hell but you can’t really tell anyone. I’ve taken countless tests, and surfed for symptoms for hours, and honestly, I know that’s what’s wrong with me. Please, don’t call me stupid or attention seeking because I’m self-diagnosed, I’m sorry but I just can’t ask people about it because it honestly makes me […]
So Andrei and I conceived this piece about 3 months ago, we both recorded our parts about 2 months ago, but we’ve had the track in post-production since then. This will definitely appear to music pretty soon, but we both thought that it could stand okay raw for people that like poetry.
As always, the poem is below for people that like to read along.
You’re Gone
[Bullfrog]
I loved everything about you,
From your nervous smile to the way your face would flush without warning when you felt the slightest bit uncomfortable.
And since you’ve gone there’s just some little things,
Sensory memory triggers of the joy […]
I’ve waited till now to make my first post, simply because the first two days without food and water has been relatively easy. Now the third day, I honestly have no desire for food though swallowing is becoming difficult. I am starting to experience headaches, probably because of lack of food and even getting down ibuprophren without water is difficult. It would be so much easier if the people that made the decisions towards legalizing euthanasia weren’t making the decisions. It’s easy to want to live when you have a 100k a year job house, wife, children and even family and friends. I have none […]
It is automn and I am five. I m a lonely child, my friend are more ghost I created than real ones. I m thinking about death. Dad is dead. I I m wondering were his soul is and if his body is eaten by worms. But I now I m not supposed to ask myself this questions so as Mom asked I just smile and say “hello” to the all lady speaking to a grave.
AI m 8 and Mom says I will have a new father. He gave me a beautiful doll and de hide together in the moutains. I love him as I […]
I wonder if the structure of “modern” psychiatric institutions differed from actuality would we have so much strife… what is normal what is abnormal
would people be stuck in jobs that they hate, in bodies that they hate… equating body to buildings, buildings to religion… once I was a wanderer, coming off of forcefully ingested psychiatric medication, not wishing to pollute the earth with a vehicle I walked across town in 100 degree weather and needed a drink of water. Pressed a button on a church’s intercom to ask if they had a water fountain. They said no. Which is a lie, but Christians aren’t supposed […]
I wish to terminate the continuance of a certain existence,
though it is obvious that the identity is of someone regarding myself,
I do not wish to expose the exact identity of the person[s] involved.
So I will simply yield this Inquisition:
Why not?
The hour grows short; hasten your responses
I’ve had mental health problems since I was around 10 or 11 and I’m 22 now and frankly, I’m just getting worse and worse. The medical profession have basically written me off as a time waster because of a few failed attempts and because I’ve ended up in a&e from drug and alcohol abuse a fair few times. Although I don’t suppose that really matters because with a condition like mine, the best I’m going to get is “learning to cope”. Like, all I have to hope for is dragging out the time between breakdowns and getting better at talking myself off the metaphorical ledge. […]
Hello lovely people,
I am breathing. Why I do not know. Breathing is one of the few vital things we need to survive. I don’t wish to survive. I wish to be six feet under. Yet I continue breathing. Sort of a vicious cycle. I breath to live, even if I do not want to. Of course mental suffocation would be a horrible way to go, but it is still a way. Sorry for reading my thoughts. I truly hope your day (night) is better than mine.
-M
My friends tell me they care, but I know they really don’t. People see my wrists and think “ew what is wrong with that girl.” It doesn’t surprise me. I dress weird, I color my hair.. I look terrible. Why can’t we all be accepted? We live in such a judgmental world. That’s why I’m deciding to end it in a few months, just take as many sleeping pills as I can; and just cut my veins open. Cut my legs one last time. And leave a note. Explaining why I hate my life. Nobody cares until something bad happens. So mine as well end […]
do you know about any user here that commited suicide?