I need some advice. Lately I have been worrying a lot about different things, and it is causing me to have more frequent (sometimes daily) anxiety attacks. I cannot keep taking xanax for them everytime, I don’t want to form an addiction.
But anyway, I’ve had worries and thoughts bouncing around in my head at 100 miles an hour. I worry about dad who is working 2 minimum wage jobs and having an nondependable car to travel to work. , I worry about my brother with cerebral palsy who is confined to his room because he doesn’t like to go places for fear of inconviening other […]
Hey guys.. Well it’s been awhile and I just wanted to say yeah… I’m cutting deeper… I just kindof wanna rant so I guess I will haha ^-^’… Well let me start by saying that it’ll be my 5th year cutting in August 2014 and I’m pretty addicted… My past was horrible but I mean I’m sure yours was worse…. :/ :c well anyways currently my family (Mother and one of my sisters and I) can’t even buy food… Not even from the dollar menu! Our family other than us three is so rich the give no frucks about us. It’s pretty sa when the […]
i really cant do this anymore. i cant live my life like there is nothing wrong anymore, i cant live a LIE. Its just not in my nature. I have no clue on what i want on ANYTHING, i am a horrible decision-maker every choice in my life has been horrible from choosing to go to parties and getting raped with no knowledge of the event except for trace strobelight like memories, yet this still wasnt the only time i was raped/molested, sometimes its just hard to think of a safe place anymore even though its all ended, because in my mind it hasnt, one […]
I am a 30 something male. By all metrics things should be going pretty good for me. I have been recently married, I have a good job that i like most of the time. But I still struggle with depression. I have had struggles with depression and suicidal thoughts since I was 13 or so. I’ve sought help but I’ve never really been able to find the way to help the nagging feelings.
A bit more background information. I am also on the Autism Spectrum, diagnosed with Aspergers syndrome.
I’ve just always felt that I don’t belong or fit in anywhere. I change jobs frequently hoping to […]
It hurts so badly. Looking at the pictures of my friends and how happy they are. Ive realized that when i think of the people i care about and how precious they are to me, they probably dont think about me at all. I knew i would always fuck this up, i was just hoping i wouldnt be alone. SOooo, when i was looking at their pics from past them or posts they put on facebook or their happy inside jokes none have me in them. The old pictures have them so happy and smiling with people they still talk to and im all alone. […]
Its 3 AM and mind is racing and I just want an intelligent back and forth. 92-96% of suicidal gestures end in survival. So, theories? Personal experiences? Please share! I have my own theories which I will probably organize and post at some point but Im more interested in what you all have to say.
wish this site had an im/messenger option?
I am not going to say that the time is coming closer as closer might be a few years. I actually have a strong will to live but for what? Oh I know “just to make sure my own biological family will never have to carry my coffinâ€. Just to make sure my mom is happy, I don’t want to see her cry or heart broke anymore.
Why ? Don’t we all ask ourselves that?
Suicide is an impulse and is not really premeditated, it’s a response. Like reflex.
What do I have to life for?
Some of you might have seen some of my posts. […]
Hey guys, I’m a new-comer to this forum.
Hello,
I have recently set a Death Clock for myself, the end of December. At which time, I will decide whether or not to commit suicide with my gun.
I’m twenty-two years old, never smoked, used drugs, and can count all the drinks that I’ve ever had on two hands.
I’ve never been abused or experienced anything overly traumatic; however, I isolated myself when I grew up which I believe helped to instill low self-esteem, depression, and anxiety. I also have or fairly awful memory, which may be in part to the depression, since I studied hard in school and college, […]
I’ve noticed (obviously) that loneliness is the biggest issue people are having. Â Once upon a time, I was married and had dependable friends. Â …non dependable friends to I suppose.. Anyways, I lose said spouse in a highly unfortunate event, sob away in sorrows, fuck up with legal trouble (DWI) lose my house, job, friends, support. Â I’ve spent a lot of time to myself the past year. Â When I lost all that, hell yea I was depressed; the last thing I needed was to be completely alone. Â Yea, I became very suicidal many times but survival mode kicked in so I was left with the physical […]
Everyone has a purpose and the world is so beautiful.
People are good and wholesome with great intensions.
I’m extremely high right now….
It’s sad what I have to do to be optimistic.
Hi everyone. This is my first post and I’m only writing on here because I can’t talk to any of my “friends” about this. They just wouldn’t get it. The short story is that I’m in my 20’s, and last year had to move back with my parents after my position at my old job ended. I thought it would be a short thing and I was fine with it. It’s been a year, and I can’t find a job. I do stuff here and there for cash and do like seasonal stuff but I can’t find a full time job. I literally apply to […]
If you know your limit i.e. what you can achieve with your life, then you can enjoy it vicariously and quit it.
Well I have been writing exactly what I want to say to people irl that I cant and what is going on in my life and how I feel about it and just posting it here. I turn off comments because mostly I feel no1 can help me out of the problems I get myself into. And try to sort what is going on in my mind out on my own. I think this works. First it helps to know at least someone has read what your feeling and secondly when I reread how I am feeling I experience emotions reading it. Rereading what I wrote […]
I feel ashamed writing this but at this point I feel that I have to come to someone or something. It’s been over a year I believe since my last post, since then I have lost 2 loves and my mom has recently been said to have breast cancer. She worries so much about me and not herself. She has been the only thing that has kept me alive. I simply couldn’t imagine leaving my mom with no one to take care of her. Â I feel that I’m worthless in this world. I have Asperger’s Autism which makes me kind of a recluse with people. […]
I feel so disturbed, like I’m  going to puke from how upset I am.
I just felt so distant from people today; I knew the people I saw weren’t malicious, but I couldn’t help but feel so far away nevertheless. It made me real lonely.
Then I was pretty much ignored by someone who was supposed to be a friend, and I snapped. My eyes got sore with held back tears and I drifted even further from people,where I was only feeling a constant pain. The worst thing about it all was that inside I felt terrible, but in the crowd I was in at the time […]
I feel like I live in The Capitol and it disgusts me.
Tonight was the night i felt i needed someone there.
I usually love being on my own and never felt alone,
but tonight has been different…
I would love a boyfriend, but i wouldnt want them to
have to go through my problems and mood swings.
Would be very unfair on them, so maybe being single
is the decision for now?!
I’m sitting downstairs. My mum and stepdad have gone up to bed and left me alone down here. I didn’t want them to.
I’m sat in the corner on the floor, pressed as close to the wall as possible. I can see things in the house again. Horrible things. Flashes lasting a couple, maybe 2-3 seconds of people. Their body hacked at by their own blades. Blades which are still in their hands, blood smeared all over them.
They’re reaching out to me with bloodied hands. Some are laughing at me, others have a shocked expression frozen on their face. Before they can get to me, they disappear. They get […]