My friends tell me I have an eating disorder…I told them they where full of shit…but they aren’t I’m not stupid I know that not eating is killing me but I cant eat…it makes me feel sick even thinking about it…Maybe being skinny will make my mom love me again…

Dear ANYONE,

My ARMS, THIGHS, STOMACH, and ANKLES are adorned with the marks of my THANKS TO YOU.

This SLIT is to thank you for all the PAIN you’ve caused me.

This CUT is to thank you for the TORTURE you put me through.

This SLASH is for the LOVE you never gave me.

This GASH is for the HOURS I lie awake.

This SLICE is for the NAMES you’ve given me.

Every MARK I have made is because of YOU.

…Yet you don’t see that…

…All you see is me…

…And how much you hate me…

…Well here’s my perfect weapon…

BYE.

-Love,

NOBODY

(a.k.a. ME)

I didn’t know what else to label this, but last night I was with my girlfriend and we were going all over to different stores and having fun with her mom and little brother. Her mom stopped by this stupid clearance cart that they have to look for socks and stuff. Then my girlfriend said quickly, “Don’t look in the cart.” I was confused so I looked. There was some spare razor blade for a box cutter or something there.

Then my girlfriend started spazzing out to cover it in socks so I wouldn’t see it and she kept telling me not to think about it. […]

dose anyone have any concrete information about this drug???

How effective is a successful suicide with this drug???

roughly how much is needed???

my psych doc has no idea I think this way, is there any way to convince her in prescribing this??? I take prozac(which is an older anti depressant as well but not effective in suicide)have taken it for years , can I convince her to switch my RX to a Tricyclic??? or do doc’s no longer prescribe this???

I know its a lot of stupid questions but I am at ground 0…need all the info I can get…

I have found web sites in the us(which is […]

dose anyone have any concrete information about this drug???

How effective is a successful suicide with this drug???

roughly how much is needed???

my psych doc has no idea I think this way, is there any way to convince her in prescribing this??? I take prozac(which is an older anti depressant as well but not effective in suicide)have taken it for years , can I convince her to switch my RX to a Tricyclic??? or do doc’s no longer prescribe this???

I know its a lot of stupid questions but I am at ground 0…need all the info I can get…

I have found web sites in the us(which is […]

why do you smile and make me cry? why, why do you try when there is so much pain in you. why? why? i swear if i found that creator…i don’t know….what have these innocent people done??? ok i’m a liar, a sinner i deserve it, i understand that,..i could make a choice…but what have these innocent, honest people done? what? tell me, you owe me an answer very badly!!

Shouldn’t I be happy? I mean, this is what I wanted isn’t it? But I don’t feel happy, I feel insecure and angry and lost. One minute I’m smiling and the next I’m cutting. What happened?

Smoking gun

We’ve lost it all

The love is gone.

The more I try to stay, the more I want to go… Let me go. Just please let me go…

I just realized today is the day I got a call from my ex best friends mom that he had snapped and shot a man for cutting in front of him in line at a Wingstop.

What is your purpose for being on SP?

What do you hope to get out of it?

What keeps you coming back?

How long do you plan to be here?

i really dont like people give them any opportunity and they will hurt u and take advantage of ur vulnerabilities trusting in people just leads to dissapointment and expecting people to do the right thing leads to even more disappointment even ur family will take whoevers side is against u they wont listen to ur argument either all they care about is what u did wrong not wat anyone else has done to u. the day i can sustain myself monetarily will b the day i leave my family all behind forever i wont write wont visit not even if theyve been hospitalized after leaving […]

I am considered a social parasite.  At this point I can actually agree with societies views.  I know what I am.  I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder since the age of 16.  I have been in and out of hospitals most of my life for my failures to conform to the everyday norms.

I actually have been doing very good with myself the last two years.  I am off medications, live on my own and have not been to any doctors or hospitals in this duration of time.   I do not however work anymore.  I pay my bills with disability and use food stamps […]

It’s getting easier to swallow the pain and feel the pressure release. The lines are getting deeper and less hesitant…. It kind of feels like I’m healing backwards….

I am surrounded by an incredible sadness. It lives inside of me, in the people that I met, it is around me, it is everywhere. It is me.
Or well, I don’t know if you can call it an actual sadness, maybe just more emptiness. That is what I feel. I feel empty.
Like a shallow shell, just wandering around in the world, with no care for anything or anybody.
I just think that I have given up in a way. I see no point in fighting, because I don’t feel like there is anything to fight. This is just who I am, maybe this […]

Do you ever just start crying randomly because you think about how much of a mess your life has become? Generally I can block it out and fill it with distractions but tonight, that loneliness hit hard. It’s that type of deep loneliness that even a person being with you wouldn’t fill. It feels unfillable. I try my best to avoid thinking of that, but today it just got me.

The heights humans can go to are inspiring but the depths humans can sink to are equally as endless and I’m testing the path I never wanted to test. Life just  sucks when you suck. Nothin […]

okay, I wanna kill myself so bad. i get bullied everyday. and now to make it all worse my best friend is dating the guy i’m in love with. Cutting int good enough for me. I hate my life and i wanna end it. What should i do?

I’m scared to get close and i hate being alone.
I long for that feeling to not feel at all.
The higher i get, the lower i’ll sink.
I can’t drown my demons, they know how to swim.

I can’t leave him. I don’t know why, but every time I try to plan it, he either messages me, calls me, or even walks up to me. I want to die, but I just can’t ditch him like that…

anonymity on the internet is an illusion so if someone really wanted to look up the things I wrote online and who I really was they probably could.. but who would anyways?

I’ve been waking up at 6 am every single day.. no matter if i slept at 3 am, was drunk, was so tired from school, I always automatically wake up at 6.. I guess that’s a sign of depression..

but in any case I think a part of growing up is realizing how shitty life is and just.. being patient with that fact.. honestly if I think about it my life isn’t all […]