Fear is that feeling you get  that makes you feel helpless, your heart flutters and gasps, well your mind screams to run. Many think of fear as an external cause, where something outside of your self scares you. Little do people know that fear is internal, caused by the feeling of lack of power, you feel weak and powerless. your mind will play tricks on you telling you that you are weak, powerless, even worthless. The mind with fear slowly ether crumples under the strain or stands up to the lies and falsehoods become strong, powerful. One may think you can hide from it or […]
Hi everyone..this is a poem I created about last year..when depression hit it’s worst..well here it goes,
Trapped like a bird I sit in this cage
Never once to show a bit of rage
Empty, like a book without it’s page
All I know is now..I bleed
The one that watches me has no creed
All the thoughts..on MY mind
Never are they..ever kind
My eyes become dark..I think I am blind
My mind wishes to just rewind
To forget everything I had once done
But, my heart challenged my mind…and won
So know..I still am forced to know what I have done
I am no […]
So, it’s my Birthday again tomorrow; I’ll be 23. Ever get the feeling of deja vu? Nothing seems to change, aside from an increasing feeling of isolation and a decreasing feeling of motivation for life. I don’t feel human anymore. I don’t want to be alive, I cannot see a way out of my isolation apart from death. Of course, this would seem rather over-dramatic from an outside perspective, from those “just get over it, cheer up!” types. However, for almost a decade now I have had no friends, no connection with others and no affection. I won’t pretend I’m not bitter, because I am, […]
That is not tough love or correction its pure hatred. U like fut jmIcan guy, your dad ends w f, im going to hell. They cup prt of my hip off…u know I died in the wtc. I’m a pig. True love always wins. Who in their right mind ever loved or wanted you or even considered u a beautiful.girl. God wants winners not bum dirt fornicating lowers or liars. What a cruel tool I am. Future jmaicn guy I love.
Always on the upkeep
Always trying to reach the rest of us
We don’t have anything to say, nothing to give
Well, life it blows away
Could somebody tell them
To hurry on, hurry on down
Somebody tell them
To hurry on, hurry on down
I wanted to, I think, sometimes.
But in my heart, I knew I couldn’t.
Some people are just not meant for this world.
Not meant to be here.
Mistake.
Defective.
I don’t want to, I know, now.
In my heart, I know I can’t.
I am one of those people who is just not meant for this world.
I am not meant be here.
A mistake.
A defective.
Finally free.
My Life Is Getting a Little Better Cuz My Girl Friend Is With Me And I Did Not Lose Her I See Her At Barns and Nobles And We Have a NIce Time But f She Lives Me I Dont think i WILL LIVE WITH OUT HER
I messed up…. I’ve been in love with this guy for I don’t know how many years. I asked for another chance, but I don’t know if he’s gonna forgive me for breaking his heart… I’m IN LOVE with him. He just doesn’t understand. He got mad at me for cutting two days ago and I’m human. We all make mistakes! I just don’t know what to do anymore. Maybe he’d be happier if I just killed myself…
All I want righ now is a hand to hold.
Isn’t it a basic need?
To be loved…
How good it would to be needed. I can’t take it anymore. I don’t want to live like this anymore…
Everytime someone shows at least a bit affection I get so excited. And I can’t help myself that I fall for those people so fast… He was drunk and called me pretty, thats enough for me. Now I have the most beautiful dreams about him. I gave him my number and he doesn’t even text or call me. That’s the worst, I think he’s into another girl. And I can’t do anything […]
If anyone has ever read this amazing book (my boyfriend got me to read it and it was absolutely fantastic; I find reading takes my mind off the wear and tears of reality) then I have a question for you: What is your opinion of the Nac Mac Feegles’ view and optimism of death?
Taken straight from Wikipedia (it was the best way to summarize it.):
“The fearlessness of Nac Mac Feegle warriors in combat is derived from their religious belief that they cannot be killed, because they are already dead; they believe that they are in the afterlife, and that any Feegle who is […]
I’m suicidal for three years straight. I’m a victim off bullying, I cut, I have no friends, I love the wrong person and I have no perspectives in life. I tried to kill myself by overdosing and cutting veins but it didn’t work.
I want to combine jumping, drowning and poison in my last seconds of life. I want to do all of this at night. Here the European Yew grows wild in the parks. My aim is to collect several hundreds of seeds and about 200 grams of fresh leaves, mash it and ingest it. It will make me die of cardiac arrest. […]
if all the colours of the rainbow
could make my day less grey.
make it filled with sunshine
and more than just a boring day.
My day used to be exciting
with things to do and time to play.
but now its just colourless,
with depression my only friend.
always making it self aware,
and there is no end……………………………………
I am 25 years old. I have always had problems with depression, with self-harm; I’ve attempted suicide twice, and I promised myself that the third time would be the last; I won’t mess it up, next time. The third time will be the end.
The third time is all I can think about lately. I have lost everything, these past few months. Two years ago, I moved 1000 miles away from home; away from all my family, who spent my entire childhood abusing and neglecting me, and away from all my toxic friends that only dragged me down into their messes. I wanted a fresh start; […]
am 19 year old, a second year student of Psychology from St. Xavier’s College.
I do not exactly remember how long it has exactly been but I have never had a good relationship with my parents since I was some 16 year old after I had my first relationship with a guy.
Though they let me go out to college, but my life is equivalent to hell. I do not say I am the only suffering person in the world, but for me, at this moment, only my pain matters.
Day before yesterday when city enjoyed one of the loveliest weather, I asked my mother […]
I got to me great aunt’s house yesterday, the same time that a guy who looked like he was in college was there. Apparently, he was Katelynn’s boss and best friend. He was giving Katelynn’s violin to my aunt, obviously, I was confused since Katelynn didn’t play violin. At least I didn’t think she did. She played violin. She was in 4 recitals. She had a job. And I never had any idea. I didn’t know that every time she came home late was because she’d been working part-time to buy a violin. I didn’t know she was actually a junk artist, and I don’t […]
So it’s officially the 12th, which still leaves me four more long days (sigh) but I’m rather excited the end is coming, slowly but surely. It’s a fitting end tho, or at least in my case the old saying stands true (live by the gun you’ll die by the gun) an I’m fine with that. As my hours count down I swear I can hear death calling my name, but y’all probably wouldn’t understand. It sounds so sweet, I get to shed all my struggles an sin I’ve been living in
Death = freedom
And that brings a true smile to my face
So before I start talking, I guess I’ll say a small bit about my self. I’m 15, a freshman in high school, going toward sophomore after the summer goes by like always. I’ll keep my name anon. though.
But anyways, I’ve been depressed. As a child I had a abusive father, my mother could never do anything about him hitting me or my siblings. He used to come home drunk, pretty much rape my mother and rampage when thing didn’t go his way. My brother used to touch me as a child, him being gay. I’ve never told my mother, I just forgotten about it and […]
A kitten trapped in a fucking bathtub.
I think I cried for a solid 20 minutes.
I wasn’t prepared for the adorableness.
Well, I guess hello.
I don’t exactly know what I am doing here..
About ten minutes ago I was ready to end my life, but a person I know recommended I check out this one website awhile back and I figured it couldn’t hurt. That’s how I ended up here.
I don’t really know what I am suppose to say, or do. But I just really need to tell someone what is on my mind.
If you are also on this site reading my words, it is safe to assume that you’re dealing with something around the topic of suicide so you know the amount […]
One of the best scenes from LoTR.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wRqqpCT2R3c