I don’t know if I’m dyin or not…. Keep smelling fire, but there isn’t one. Then feel like I’m on fire. Help please?? I get hallucinations of my late animals, NAND my uncle. Like I keep reliving heir deaths!! 🙁 please help.

To whoever is reading,

I give up. I’m a 19 year old, white, lower middle class, agnostic, who lives in California and I am killing myself on February 12th, my birthday. I’ve felt this way for several months and had thoughts of suicide for years. I already decided how I am going to go. I just felt like telling someone. I attempted suicide just over a week ago but was talked out of it. This time I won’t be.

I’m an exconvict on parole for possession with intent to sell. I’ve hurt so many people. Especially the people closest to me. This will hurt them […]

(**imagine any name**) And I am 11. I am female, and attend Middle School.
I remember,in 2007, when I was 6, I had just gotten home from school. I was happy, and I thought nothing would get in my way. That all changed the next day, Saturday. I had learned about death when my Uncle died. He died in 2004. Strangley, I remember everything. At he funeral, everyone was eating, and drinking lemonade, after honoring him. I was crushed. My older brothers best friend? My best friend? I would never see him again. I cried every night. He sed to help me sleep too. He […]

Long story – Short(Believe me, I tried):

I was 17 last year making my brother 23. He started seeing one my absolute best friends until she decided to start dating someone who could be around more, his work kept him out of town.

He told me that it really hurt him and we bonded over it… or so I thought. I had a complete falling out with one of my oldest friends and he decided to take her virginity as a way to get back at my best friend. He’s not very mature for his age – I know, and hes been told by many, including my […]

Hi, I know I seem a little too young, and how it’s “just a phase” but please listen! I am 11. I have a mood disorder, and I am fighting depression. I am, of course, too young to date, but I also like this guy. Harrison. His nickname is Lake, so I’ll use that. We became friends a few days ago. I like him, and he knows, but every time I ask him out, he says no, and then asks out a different girl. Although, strangley enough, it doesn’t effect our friendship. ; -;. On top of this I see 2 counselers every week. 1, […]

I don’t want to be dead. I’m suicidal, and I recognise this fact. I think about killing myself the way other people think about what they’re going to have for breakfast. I don’t want to die, I just can’t face the fear and the despair that always return to my mind. It gets to the point where I can’t see any other alternative.

I’ve tried to kill myself a lot of times, 16 to be exact, and I’ve always failed. My last two attempts were definitely the most serious, and both almost ended my life. The first I ended up with multiple organ failure; the last I jumped […]

I know. I know I’m only 13. I know I can’t be in love. I know I’ve never even gone out with the guy. But I think that, honestly, I love Trevor. But he doesn’t love me. This is why I don’t let my feelings take over. They always make me go back to liking him. He likes Kendall. Well, I mean, he should, considering they go out, but I wish he liked me. I know that everyone would just call me a slut for liking him, but you know what? I know what I am and what I’m not, so I don’t care. I […]

Have you ever woke up, and was to sick to even think about getting out of bed? And by sick I don’t mean physically sick, I mean like emotionally sickened. Have you ever woke up and questioned your own existence? I just feel so selfish to even have these thoughts. I have everything I need and more. How come I’m not happy? I don’t even feel like being here anymore. This place just isn’t for me.

 I’ve tried to explain these feelings to someone before but it doesn’t really help. They usually just say “oh I’m sorry, I understand, I’m going through stuff too.” So then […]

I am a 29 year old male. I have struggled with depression for as long as I can remember. I have attempted suicide several times, I chose to believe that perhaps there was a reason why I survived. As if there a purpose to my existence. However at this point I have abandoned that frail belief and have chosen to give up completely. I can not remember most of my past, the memories are there but they have become so faded and blurry I can no longer distinguish the realities of my past with the vibrant thoughts of my once over active imagination.

The first attempt […]

“Love like my butterfly, unconditional. Open arms welcome all in pain, worn, used. Welcome… This is home. This is love. Have a seat and pour out your soul. This lioness will listen. A butterfly in her heart and a wolf in her mind, loving without question and protecting with her life. Fall into my arms, I will wipe your tears and hold you close. Trust me and I will protect you.”

I have fallen so many times in the past year. It’s been really hard for me since my mom left. But this site, the people here, have pulled me through. Thank you all so much. […]

I have been holding on for too long and I am slipping. I have no one up top to reach down and grab me, pull me up; and I have no one to catch me when I fall. I was once on the edge now I am dangling and ready to fall. I thought I could handle the weight of the world, fight on towards my future until the day I die. But I can’t. The world is depressing even-though there is so much fun around. I am so heart-broken even though I have friends, family, and a boyfriend who love me dearly. You may […]

Hello everyone. Hope you’re all having a great day. You are amazing and a significant addition to this world. It may be hell, but sits people like us who take the pain and make it our strength. Stay strong. And another reminder, any of you feel free to contact me if you want to. I love you no matter who you are.

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-Ash

Where do i even start this sob story? I’m only 19 and from the age of 8 ive been depressed and not wanting to live, i tried to commit suicide when i was 15, and now at 19 i feel that low again that im just waiting for the final straw to snap and to do it again although i dont want to die but i dont want to live either, its a confusing stage. It all began when i was 8 and my mum was in a relationship with an abusive asshole who made me feel like shit and played mind games and i […]

After over a decade of trying to slog on through this bleak existence, and being guilt-tripped continuously into persevering, I am all out of stamina for the fight anymore.  Too many things, too many broken emotions, too many medical tags stuck onto this tortured, agony-racked being.  I don’t even think those closest to my heart would begrudge me seeking eternal peace and relief from this cruel world, if they could understand the pain I go through on a daily basis.

I have had 3 botched overdoses with different meds, and tried hanging once but the cord stretched too much, and contemplated stepping off the roof of […]

Everyday I want to give up, the stress is just becoming to much. Everyday, I want to explode. Everyday I cry. But what stops me everyday, from letting go..She stops me. My daughter stops me. I look down at my growing belly. And just think, in three more months, my daughter will be here. In my arms, looking up at me. Her mom. The women who carried her for 9 months. The women who put up with the pain, and sickness. The women who kept going. Me. I want my daughter to always know, I never gave up on her. And I never will. She […]

I Tried So Hard Last Night, To End It All. I Fell Asleep From Taking Two Different Brands Of Pills. But I Woke Up. I Woke Up And Now I’m Fucking Pissed!!

I feel…. weird. Almost as if all feeling has been sucked away now. I fake my laughs. My tears just don’t come anymore. When I get hurt, I immediately want to hurt that person back. They put holes in my plan, so I’m going to make them crash and burn. I’m driven by what seems to be revenge, but on what? I can’t figure it out. I only see one way out. Not suicide. Not hurting myself. Trying to get revenge on everything that hurts me. I’ll hurt them back. Apex predators kill without remorse. Humans are Apex predators. I am an Apex predator. Cross […]

“There’s too much love in the world. Sometimes I think that’s what heaven is—- a place where everybody’s happy because nobody loves anybody else, ever.”

Sometime I really HATE LOVE, I do. Sometimes I just want to kick the Sh*t out of love…. “How can u do this to me???…”
I hate the fact that I need love, that I want love, not to say that love is enough or that love solves all problems but many of us are on this site b/c we want love in our lives. we want someone to care… I hate that I WANT someone to care. Why is it […]

You know what I’ve realised? I don’t want a relationship for the sake of having a relationship.

I want one that means something, that’s something I’ve never had.
Whether it’s with a guy or a girl I don’t care, if they mean something to me then that’s all that matters. I want someone that makes me happy and that I can make happy, someone to love and protect but most of all someone that feels the same way about me. I’ve never had a real relationship because I suffer from social anxiety which often holds me back, but for the right person I’m willing to overcome that.

Spin, spin,

Spin around,

Desperate to stop.

Stride, stride,

Here you come

Striding at the top.

Play, play

With your mind,

Daughter of the odds,

With your pretty eyes gone blind

You’re breaking on the rocks.