hey. im abby and im 13… i dont know what to do. i am on medication for depression and anxiety. but they arent helping. if anything i got worse. i started cuttimg and became suicidal. the only reason im aliv  is because my boyfriend monte talke  me out of killing myself two nights ago. i have a therapist ut she is a *****. im sorry but i really hate er. and i  cant get   new therapist because there are none mor  in my area. my friends have been supportive but they are getting tired of all my sadness. please i am writing the letters […]

Wanting to die is a strange feeling. It consumes all of the joy in you and turns you into mere nothingness. Empty, cold and numb are the best words to describe it. It has gotten to the point where I can be dripping in my own blood, not feeling anything, no pain, no emotion. I thought he was a new beginning but I mean nothing as always and I don’t expect anything different nowadays. Some people know about my self harm and depression but none of them can fix me. I’m far too broken to ever be helped, I don’t even know what it feels […]

She died… My sweetie, my friend. I loved her so much, just to have her around. Just the noise she maked, so I didn’t felt lonely. Just her presence. That I could talk to her whenever I needed, and she always listened. That I could hug her whenever I wanted, and she would just look at me with those little, cute and sweet eyes. She meaned so much to me, but now she is gone… She was so strong and she fought till the last second. I knew she wouldn’t live very long, but this was just too soon. I needed her in these hard […]

Number one on the list…

Connor.
That name means so much to me right now, good and bad. I have this friend, I use the term friend loosely, we met at a party just over a month ago. Since we met we have text each other every day for most of the day and we see each other at least once a week, usually more than that. He is amazing. He makes me happy without having to do a single thing, just being around him makes me feel so much better about everything and I don’t know why. I like him and he likes me, but here’s […]

I’m not sure when I stumbled upon this blog by accident; before or after decided to take my own life and almost went through with it. I do know that reading these stories helped, perhaps just a tiny bit. I want to thank the people who put this site together. I was in a really dark place and hearing other people’s stories made me feel like at least I wasn’t alone. All day, every day, I’m surrounded by people who are nice, but who just wouldn’t get it. And I don’t want to tell any more people about it for fear of pushing them away. […]

Well I was going to explain everything in the order it happened but I’ve come to realise that would take months.

(*T.B.E means to be explained)

Biggest things in my life as of today;
•Connor, (T.B.E)
•My Granddads recent death&funeral, (T.B.E)
•Exams, (T.B.E)

•Self Harm… (T.B.E?)
There are other things but they are not of high importance.

Come, come with me and just see,
The world changes you and what you’ll be,
The world presses on me until I just break,
Until I cry, until I die, until I can’t help but shake,
The world looks at me and spits and stares.
The world wounds me, it rips and it tears,
Why can’t anyone understand, I can’t take this,
But they don’t care, I’m someone you can’t miss,
They’ll probably be happy that I’m forever dead,
I will be erased when both my arms are red,
I’m nothing to remember anyway, I’m shit,
There’s only my body left, that’s the last bit,

Hey I’m new to this but there are some things I need to get off my chest. I’m sorry if I offend anyone or just generally upset/piss people off.

So I’ll start from the beginning.
From a very young age I didn’t really have a “normal” family. My parents divorced when I was a few months old so for a couple of years it was just me, my mum and my brother. My dad was always in my life, more so now than he used to be, but still he was around. When I was about two we moved in with my stepdad. He has two sons […]

Freaking out. Freaking out because my friends all abandoned me because I told them I was depressed. I’m having a panic attack. I can’t deal with this. Freaking out. Freaking out.

I really dont wanna wake up tomorrow i just wanna fade away and no one would notice it no one at all  cuz im just the fat ugly girl in the corner that no one likes i dont wanna wake up

Life is not for me I see my self in the next world

happy as can be suicide is our pleasure our ticket out

of this world if this  were Greece or Rome the world would not hate us

my suicidal brethren death will be a wonderful gain it is the

best sleep!

”When I Die, Fuck It! I Wanna Go To Hell. ‘Cause I’m A Piece Of Shit, It Ain’t Hard To Fuckin’ Tell. It Don’t Make Sense Goin To Heaven Wit The Goodie-Goodies. Dressed In White, I Like Black Tims And Black Hoodies.”

Everyone’s annoying and out to get you. Your friends are disrespectful and unappreciative little cunts who don’t give a shit about what you’re going trough (the only reason they ask ,,what’s wrong” is purely curiosity) and the people around you stopped appreciating you a long time ago. 

You’re an ugly little ***** who no guy will ever date, fuck or marry.

You’re not doing well in school or work ergo you deserve to die because you’re a useless member of this society. 

By wanting to kill yourself, talking about depression and anxiety, having anger fits and complaining makes you either boring or a scary individual that nobody wants […]