When I die I’d like to be a dragonfly and then for once I’ll feel alive. But what if there’s nothing after death, I want to remember my final breath. What if you’re nothing, and everyone forgets, no one will notice… I’m gone again.

Just in case I die tomorrow, I’m going to live today.

I actually know why I’m still here… it’s because I’m really too scared to kill myself.  But even though I have a daughter and husband and family and friends who all love me, I’m suffering.  I’m suffering a lot and I don’t want to continue to suffer the rest of my life.  How is it considered selfish of ME to want to end my suffering, but not of THEM to want to keep me around for no good reason other than they want me here.  And I don’t even know why they want me.  I’m not a great parent (she’s 3 and I can’t even […]

Hello everyone,

I guess I’ll just start with the basics. My name is Jamie, I’m 20 years old and I live in Ireland. I study Computer Science and I’m just starting my last year. I have suffered from depression for close to 7 years now. I guess I had a rough life. I was abused by my father, sister and my relatives. My mum died from cancer when I was 14. She was also abused by my father (which is the worst part). I’ve been through foster care. I hate myself. I cut, I do drugs and I don’t eat enough. I’m ready to die but […]

I’m Jael, nothing special about me. Had a rough life since I could remember. Parents left at a young age and I was passed around like a broken toy. Eventually I was raised by a family friend. I haven’t seen my parents since.  They never wanted me anyway.

I have had issues with guys forever. I was molested most of my life by this family friend. Yes you could say my head is a bit fucked up now. Many things have happened (not sure how much to share) and I have reached way beyond my breaking point. This world doesn’t need me and no one else does […]

so this site edited my last post, kind of pissed me off…but anyway..

Im here, somehow. I almost went to the mental hospital again, but my psych just increased one of my meds. Do i still think of suicide? Yes. Do i want to do it? Im not sure.

I think about it all the time…but im scared.

I do honestly feel thought that i have spent enough time here on this earth. I dont want to live everyday a mentally ill wreck.

I wrote a few notes already, but ive tucked them away. I just sob until i fall asleep.

Theres two things that can happen to me at […]

is full of people. but many i met have all turned against me. there is something wrong with me…BUT IDK WHAT IT IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i always had these thoughts of how i know this is not me everything happens for a reason right? well my thought now is if i never moved from california to idaho i would be sweet and innocent but im not….im actually a ***** but people dont see that…especially people here on SP. for example someone was joking around with me in class yesterday and i didnt think of that til i came unglued that he talked to me…SEE WHAT I MEAN???????? […]

I’m pretty sure that the title explains everything.

I’ve hurt the woman I love, to say the least, and in my own life, I’ve done some pretty messed up things.

So why keep going? Why keep living and trying to keep going?

There’s really no reason. I’ll just keep messing up my life and other’s lives.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cyoXP3w7dp4

this song describes me too wellXD

I’ve done so many bad things I don’t know if there’s hope for redemption and I feel like I may as well end my life.  About a year ago I started drinking heavily and started consorting with people from the gutter.  I then began using drugs and since then have continued to use Cocaine.  Every time I do it, it’s after drinking a lot and I drink a lot because I feel despair and lost, and then the next day I feel even worse.   My wife wants to divorce me, I’ve ruined our finances, I’ve cheated, stole, and gone from being a good father […]

Lucy4 your qonna love this.

Lowkey slash my version of the sonq….”Every verse (sentence) should be treated like the Mona Lisa Is”.

You should care more about what I write about my life Instead of me “crappinq on qrammer” or whatever you said.Where Is the old SP?You know the one where people didn’t judqe me on how I spell………..

Whatever It’s okay I still qot love for everyone on here.Main objective (for me edleast) make everyone feel Important on here cause well I’m on suicide forum.

No matter how much yall meet me with hate I still have love for yall.I had to find a suicide forum to know […]

“I no longer need you to fuck me as hard as I hated myself. Make love to me, like you know I am better than the worst thing I ever did. Go slow. I’m new to this, but I have seen nearly every city from a rooftop, without jumping. I have realized that the moon did not have to be full for us to love it. We are not tragedies stranded here beneath it.”

I stumbled on this on youtube. I think its supposed to be inspirational. I think its supposed to make people feel better.
It doesnt. It makes me realize that I indeed am […]

I hope I can make it through one more day. Just one. Then I can try.  I can’t make a mistake.

This was from my journal i cut out alot of it. I apologize in advance if you think im just crying out.

why am i not good enough for you momma? why do i feel unloved by you? why do i feel like a pile of **** when we talk momma? momma why have you hurt me enough to lead to trying to kill myself? please momma i need answers for my feelings. i want you to love me momma. why do i have all these scars momma? why do i feel empty when i hug you? momma your son loves you and does all he can […]

space the final frontier. captain’s log.  Stardate 43152.4. We are cautiously entering the Delta Rana system. Mr spock

THERE’S SOMETHING ABOUT THIS PLANET I LIVE ON AND THE WORLD WE LIVE IN…..

Dear world i find life hard & not enjoyin it. I know suicide is a selfish act. And it will hurt. what else is there.? Is Death is the creator’s greatest gift used. for a escape.? Anyhow. When the time come’s. I going to rip off  Hitler’s suicide note. I’m not a nazi or anything.

Before I post this please everyone understand I’am at a point in my life where I just don’t know so please don’t judge me – I don’t judge others as each person I believe has the right to do what is best for them in life.

My name is Sammi,I’m 32 years old I live in the UK.I have had a few heartaches in my life and I’m left today with a question mark in my head..do I want to carry on in my life where I can only see it spiral out of control or do I do what I feel is the best option […]

I’m so depressed, But recently cannot stop thinking about self harm and suicide. Every time I see a car pass, i think, I could jump in front of that, or a building, I think, I could just end it, just step out. It scares me so much and I feel like sh*t all the time. Help me.