Hey, anyone who’s a little interesting in this stranger. I already wrote something saying that I was thinking about killing myself and also talking about my own life. Anyway, I’ve decide to leave the world but I can’t. I’m so angry right now. I can’t kill myself. I was thinking in committing suicide by carbon monoxide poisoning.  I can’t because my parents, aunt or grandparents could see me. I thought committing suicide by taking too much pills (my original plan). Then I felt really retarded when I notice that wasn’t as easy as I thought. I don’t want any suffer so I’m not going by hanging, wrist cutting, suffocation, hypothermia, electrocution, […]
I want to die, but of course I can’t. First I’m scared of dying but I’m sick and tired of trying to live happy. My parents stalk the hell out of me whenever I try to talk to a boy and my dad and mom beat me. What am I supposed to do? My friends tell me I look weird when I don’t smile because I smile all the time. Why do I smile? Why am I completely at peace when I’m at school, but at home I dread it and want to die
I’m tired of living. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of doing […]
Lights off. Ears plugged. Doors locked. Notes placed. Water running. Blade cutting. Perfect. All according to plan.
Lights fading. Consciousness slipping. Room spinning. Parents sleeping. Blood pouring. Finally. Time to go.
No more. The End. Black. Infinite black. Peace. Calm. Eternity.
Then noise. Faint. Distant. A hum. A buzz. Audible only because it it the only sound in the beautiful void.
The hum won’t stop. Won’t go away. Won’t leave me alone. I have to find out what it is. What is it anyway!? Look around. Just black.
Wait, I didn’t look around. I couldn’t. There is only black. Maybe if I open my eyes. Then I could find the source […]
I HATE my life. That’s it. I spend all my time, hating my life. My kids, take turns BASHING and PUNISHING me. I am terminal anyway. It takes so much energy to HATE anything, or anyone for that matter. I know that someday I will be in Heaven with my Father. I can not believe that He Hath Forsaken me. I knew the consequences of coming back, I should not ever have come back. I HATE it here. I am so emotionally abused…and everyone sits around like that is an acceptable action ~ to be verbally, mentally, physically, and emotionally abusive. My son in LA, […]
if we were all born with sin,and none of us are good enough to get to heaven,then we are pretty much fucked over,i think of every possible reason,what the point of life would be,but i cant think of any,i try so hard to be strong,but the humane in me cant fucking take it anymore,if i dont have nobody,then why do i stay here,if i wanted to jump a train right now,i could,why cant i just get up and leave,theres nothing here,fuck it,
PlPlEase dontt  go the same way as me, talk to someone it may help, wish had x
Hey, you can call me Mordecai. Mostly cuz I love the name because of Regular Show and Borderlands. and for privacy reasons. I guess I don’t know what to do or say. And that’s the problem in a way.
I used to be suicidal a long time ago, can’t say if I’m not anymore. Growing up I’ve always had a lot of “friends”, more what I’d call friendly aquaintances. You know, those people you meet and like and say hello to but you have no real connection with in almost any way. Well I moved across town in elementary and then in 4th grade there was this new […]
I hate how people joke about dying or someone killing themselves… it is not funny and is in no way something to joke about… those jokes are all i hear anymore and it makes me mad that they think of it as a joke ugggh i hate people….
This is my story for what its worth and for whom it may concern, its an ongoing story and its ending is yet to be decided but in any case it isn’t going to be an “and they all lived happily ever after” kind of end, and nothing can change that. So if you want a story with a happy ending stop right here. However if you want to find out why the course of this tale can’t be altered and are prepared to peer into the mind of a madman… read on.
Ever heard the saying:”Beware the quiet ones” and asked yourself, “why?”
Have you […]
I bought a house recently. I have a good job, and I figure I can afford it. This is my first time living by myself, and it’s really depressing and scary. I come home to an empty house, and I don’t even know what to do with myself. I seriously don’t do anything. I deal with some pretty major depression and anxiety, and being out in public by myself is really hard for me, and I avoid anyone I don’t already know. It’s been years since I’ve made a close friend. I haven’t had any contact with anyone […]
That fucking hurt. Ouch.
‘Going to throw a party next Thursday, Hopefully got something to celebrate’ I hope you realize how fucking sick that is. Twat.
So anyways, Yeah. Next Thursday. Let’s do it Nat. Things aren’t going to get better, are they? Just going to get worse. So come with me.. We can go and we can go to that place.
What is wrong with me? why has the past two days been terrible.
I had a breakdown at school today. I genuinely believed that the school were going to do something to us, I couldn’t stand being in a classroom full of guys. I felt so alone.. And […]
Never want
Never hope
Never dream
Never belief..
i just think if i did try i would have to do it right to NOT come back
everyday i wake up and just dont want to be here anymore i hate my stupid fuck up of a life and im tired of all the shit i dont want to be hyere whats the point
Cut to the chase, shall we? My pennis is only 4,5 inches and I’m still a virgin (28). So, what do you think? Is there still future for me in bed department, or not really?
look anywhere in the map
too many young boys stuck in the trap
too many young boys running round strapped
too many young girls who have got the clap.
It’s time to go to war. & get out of this crap nightmare. I will find a way out. Even if it leads nowhere. Because i am Donnie Black
..and wake up
open your eyes
and i garentee, yourll hate what you find.
It’s time to go to war. & get out of this nightmare. I will find a way out. Even if it leads nowhere. Because i am Donnie Black.
Im going to start this off and get a lot of shit off of my chest. im not trying to sound like a whiny *****, or someone who is looking for a pity party, i  just feel as if i need to say somethings.
for the longest time i have  felt like nothing, i dont know how to explain it. i just feel as if i will never amount to anything or will never accomplish anything. i see all of my old high school friends going places, and doing all these incredible things, like getting married, and having beautiful children, and moving to places that would beat the hell out […]