ok, so ima say tonight NEVER happend. i LOVE my bf, too much, even if hehurts me..oh well. well 8 hrs ago i was asked out by the guy who denied asking to have sex me. well what the hell? at first i said no, then i wanted to see how much fun i can have for once so i got ready and walked down to his place, so we went to the movies and he is ULTRA flirty, i guess he still likes me. the whole time im thinking “dont fall, i have a bf, play it cool” well then we hung at his […]
How to start,while my hands are shaking and i finally made myself cry after a long time of trying to be strong and keep it all inside me. It sounds like another lame and pathetic story about how misunderstood someone can be. Honestly i had my moments of searching for attention but this time i just want revenge. I promise this will be my last selfish act towards everyone i know. I really wanted to make everything right again but when my own mother says that i am naive and stupid how am i supposed to feel about myself, how i am i supposed to […]
i recently found this website. i felt like writing something, cuz lately it’s so damn hard. i’m close to my limit.
i am nearly 25 yrs old. i deal with depression and anxiety since i can remember. 4 like 22yrs, i lived along with it not worring about it too much, i didn’t really know what i had anyway. since then it got worst. i’ve never been very social at all. i’m a shy person and very clumsy, or should i say fumbling? i dont know the right word to describe it in english… though i’ve always fought my personality. more than 3 yrs ago my […]
lets start here u see i lived in texas till a year ago im 19 now so i just graduated highschool when that happened. so we moved to arizona and my mom picked up drinkink now she has fallen more and more into alcoholism to the point where just this night she hit me in my messed up back with a pipe and then proceeded to call the cops now shes gonna wake up tomorrow im gonna show her the video i took and shes gonna do what she always does shes gonna deny it and walk out the door then she will come home […]
I know what it’s like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can’t. How you hurt yourself on the outside, to kill the things on the inside.
I don’t know what to do with myself anymore. I don’t know how to exist anymore. I’m so misunderstood. No one gets me. No one even seems to notice me. I’m just that shy girl who no one notices. I’m frustrated with myself. I started cutting again. Though, this time it was worse. I can’t cut deep enough. I just want to end all the pain. It’s like a bad dream, that only goes away when you’re asleep.
Every day I hope that something can happen to make this easier for me. On my way to work, can someone run a red light and hit my car, can I just not wake up, can something out of my control happen, to just get me out of here. I don’t want to be here, and I haven’t for about a year. All these people who die in accidents, who are murdered, who just DIE… and here I am. Nothing…
I’ve been cutting for almost 10 years… I’m 24 years old, with the same habits I had in high school… it was never a ‘I want […]
I am not perfect. I have many regrets. I have the scars to remind me of my mistakes. I knew a boy in middle school. He was 10 and had beautiful hair. When we were in high school he overdosed. Six months ago, I went to visit my family. I saw my uncle as I was getting ready to go swimming with cousins. He wanted to talk but I told him I had to go. I took a picture with him, went swimming, came back home. A week later he hung himself. 5 days ago my friend put a gun to her head and killed […]
Every day without him is a struggle i have to either cut till i feel relife or gett fucked up to feel like im with him i miss him why did he have to go so young and why do i have to be so young dealing with it i loved him and he loved me now wee will never see our future plans come out toghter i love you martin and one day i will be with you again
I’ve been feeling very strange lately.
For no obvious reason, my head hurts.
Well, not in a literal way like when I have a headache, but it still hurts.
I feel pressure inside my head.
It prevents me from thinking clearly.
I feel like there is a foreign object in my brain.
Anyone familiar with this feeling?
How do I get rid of it?
Well this is it the end of the line for me at only 15 year old and I can’t naturally smile or laff I’m now an alcoholic and a drug abuser messed up and I hear voices in my head so I am going to end it before I turn into a phsycho ***** and kill someone if I kill me then it won’t be a big deal I have no family or friends will anyone realise I’m dead I don’t know and don’t care I have got to the point where I don’t care if I live or die it will feel the same […]
I could disappear right now and no one even care to notice that I was gone. I can be surrounded by tons of people and still feel like I don’t belong anywhere. Everyone seems to so much better off without me. Death seems more inviting then life. I’m not good at expressing my feelings, so I keep everything bottled inside. Half of the time I want to tell someone what I’m feeling, but I’m scared they will think I’m insane so I just keep quiet. I feel like I’m just not here at all. If somehow I have disappeared into the world. Lost. There is […]
I know how some people wanna be skinny and thin but I don’t. I’m 15 years old and don’t have an eating disorder i’m just VERY skinny. I hate it I get made fun of a lot and get called chicken legs or twig. People make fun of me and say i’m anorexic. When I go to get clothes I can find anything that fits me. Also lately Ive been lonely my friends ignore me and don’t talk to me for reasons I don’t know. Ive been thinking about cutting and suicide lately. I always think about if I did die no one would miss me or notice. I just want to be loved and be comfortable on how I look.
Domestic relations picked up my dad today, he hasn’t payed child support in 6 months. I love my dad even though he picked drugs over me and my family. Now he’s supposedly “clean” I don’t believe it but whatever. My mom hates my dad. The bench warrant guy told my mom if he doesn’t pay child support by august 1st he will have to see the judge. I hope this happens, he will be put in jail. Right now in Pennsylvania he has seven warrants for his arrest. he would be so much safer in jail then out here. If he gets put away it will take so […]
For you younger gen suicide kids(and older crowd with refined tastes) that may have missed out on billy talent’s debut album(2003), here’s one of many tracks from that LP that is like chicken soup for the dead soul 🙂
http://youtu.be/C4fkwksdbPY
Why do people think its okay to mess with us… that why i don’t want to live i can’t walk out of my house with out being called a fag or some suicidal comment…… IM DONE
I’m fed up with this.
I can’t change myself and be who i want to be because it goes against my reputations.
I can’t be weak or emotional because it’s not how people see me.
I can’t wear make-up because its also against my reputation.
I smile though I don’t feel like it.
All the photos I have of me have fake smiles in.
For once I just want to smile for real.
For once I just want people too actually see me for me, not to see me as a fake. Iwant to be real. I WANT TO BE ME!!
she may look like an angel. a lot of people think so, become me. and u get to see who she really is. she’s cruel and hurtful
No matter what she does, where she goes, what she believes, what she endures, she will always be my Riley and I will always hold her near.