If we could all just win a few million dollars, would that make a difference to anyone?

If you had one wish would you choose money, or death?

I think I would choose the money because I believe I could buy the happiness I always wanted with that and plus If I had the money death would be a breeze! I could afford to buy all the drugs in the world have my own house were I could die peacefully if I choose…

BUT… that will never happen, FML, I just want to die die die!

the reason i have been a total jerk on here is cause of my family my parents think my brother and sister are golden children and im the retarded runt of the litter. whenever i do something right its the wrong way to do it.but when my siblings do something wrong like smoke weed its all okay.but with me they act like im a disgusting thing that they wish wasnt theres.

Every time i’m about to fall asleep, i would wish that i would never wake again

i am 22.  i am a new mother. i live to try and make the love of my life happy.

not too long ago, i chose to have a child with this man not only because i love him, but i knew he could be the wonderful husband, father and companion i have always dreamed of. we had a son almost a year ago, and they are my entire world.

i have always understood that we were completely different people but  knew we could make a great life for our son and ourselves. after the baby arrived, the ex girlfriend came back into the picture. little did […]

im sorry for all the mean things ive  said on here if you want to know the full story its on. i want to but i just cant.

i had the best night out. no drinking involved but after working for weeks without much of a break i was so happy to just get on the dance floor and just go with the music. it was so relaxing. not caring what anyone thought just going with it. i just closed my eyes and felt the music. one of the best nights of my life.

Hey. I did it. I survived till Florida. Thanks for all your help guys. Of course I’ll still stick around the site sometimes. My mom hasn’t noticed my scars yet but I think I’ve figurd out how I’m gonna handle it. Strangely, I’ve only been here a day and a half but all anxiety and panic attacks, stress, pain, it’s all completely dissapeared. God I’m so happy to be home. At the same time I kinda miss being miserable :/ But again, Thank you for helping me to get here alive.

i just want to get out! i need to escape….
i’ve never before seen this place as a prison, it used to just be my home.
but the last few months have taken it all out of me. i cant do it.
i just need to leave, loose contact, recover from the mind fucking these people have put me through… but i have got not one place to go.
im so lost in the dark!

If I wasn’t already having a bad day.
Damn those stupid door knocking god thumping freaks.
You know nothing about me so who are you to call me a damn sinner and NO i don’t want you to leave me a bible and NO I don’t want you coming back next week to teach me to love a god that don’t bloody exist

oh how i want to go down 6 feet and be free
ill be away from this world and the hurt its caused me
so its selted, ill force a bullet right into my heart
ill end all the pain from the place it had to start
ill be in bliss and euporia and maybe feel okay
“i was too weak to go on”, ill make sure my note will say
im sorry for the confusion, you raised me right mom
it was me who chose to do this, so please try to stay calm
i know this is hard for you, seeing me in crimson
but one day youll realize that this was […]

I dont know where to start.  I’ve been trying to deal with my depression for a long time now and no matter what i just cant be happy.  There are a lot of things that have happened to me and my family in the last few years that contribute to my depression.  Suicide is always something that crosses my mind everyday.  And i don’t know if i want to do it or not.

I guess i could start talking about my family and how they contribute to my demise.  First off theres my brother (i wont use his real name so he will be ‘mike’ for this” mike […]

I finished reading this book today and i must say it is absolutley amazing,you won’t regret reading but my favorite part was the ending. I’ll try not to spoil it but it gave me another reason to live,to stay gold,it gave me hope that there is still good in the world,somewhere there is still good.

This is about me 3 years ago and how I survived looking into the horror that I have created. I was a lonely person my whole life and I been reading all the time. What else does a boy with no friends have to do. Anyway at age of 17 I spent months in my room reading. I had hundreds of books there. And one book which I ran across had affected me in a very bad way. I got interested in it and I read it over and over and somehow suddenly it affected me. I began to have paranoid thoughts and become scared […]

I just got into a fight with my dad. He started it with no reason. I’m either going to (try, it hasn’t really worked out in the past. :/ )hang myself tonight or tomorrow. So I guess this is bye.

If you need anybody to talk to, please email me. You’re all important and very very special.
aimee.m.zaval@gmail.com
You’re all amazing.

My nightmares

When children have nightmares 
It’s usually of the dark
Fears born from lies
Thoughts born from the unknown 
Their dreams are plagued with monsters and ghosts, darkness and ghouls. 

They wake up knowing that it was just a dream
That in reality there’s nothing to fear but fear itself

Oh how I wish I was still like that

Because in my dreams monsters serve me, ghosts fear me, ghouls fall for me and darkness is my kingdom. 
these are my happy dreams
The ones I hope to relive
You see, my mind is kind of flipped on its lid. 

My nightmares are of love
Of happiness
Of caring

I can’t take life anymore i just need to die now, I’m new to this site just wanna express myself.
Ive suffered from depression for a year and half now, i used to be on 100ml anti depressants but they did nothing for me just made me lifeless and made me think more. Which made me worse, I used to have to go and see a Psychologist but he wasn’t helping at all so i just stopped attending.  I have tried suicide before through Severely cutting my wrists a lot with a scalpel, which actually hurt alot. Ever since i thought that i couldn’t kill myself… Didn’t have the […]

I think about dying all the time.  Wanting to be killed, suicide methods.  I fight it, it gets worse.  I consider the absurdist tact, but can’t really sustain it.  Only solace is knowing that there are people here who understand and go through the same thing.  I distract myself with tv and food, when I’m with myself it’s just death.

i havent wrote here in a while, things been going great for a long time, and graduation is saturday. but today, somebody made me ready for death. Somebody wanted to make me kill myself today, like no other. Somebody bullied me like i’ve never been bullied before. She humilated me. She took a picture of my hair and said “your hair should not look like this” and posted it on twitter. i have never been so hurt in my life, i’ve been called ugly, and all sorts of names, but this is just horrible. Saturday after graduation, im killing myself.