I can’t do it anymore. I’m just fucking tired. I’m tired of having to wake up everymorning and pretend that everything is okay. People say that in not alone, then why do I feel like I am alone? I just hate everything. People judge me and they don’t even know a thing about me or half the things I’ve been through. I just want to get away from everything…just away from the world. Months past and I still feel the same way. They say everything will get better soon, years has past and it’s gotten worse. The pain has gotten worse. I try putting a […]

Its the wrong kind of place to be thinking of you…

I’m so mentally clusterfucked and I dont know what to do or think right now.. the worst I’ve fallen in almost a year and I dont even know why. All I can do is bury my head and want to cry.. too bad my heart is too bruised to shed a tear like they used to.

Not even sure why I’m posting here. I guess I want to know if anyone feels the same as me, what do I do etc.

I basically can’t seem to handle life. I was booted from home when I was 14. Apparently a bad situation with neighbours caused us to move when I was 11 and according to my mother this unsettled me in my life. I was a stable, well achieving girl before that.

Now I am 32. I have had strings of bad relationships, one after the other. Ending for reasons which may or may not have been my […]

I’m sooo tired of it all!! Don’t know what to do anymore! Can’t even stand to look in the mirror, I don’t know how much more I can take.  I cry all the time now, can’t even get through one day without crying. My husband always asks if i’m okay, but the truth is, he really doesn’t wan’t know the answer to that question. I don’t know why he even bothers asking. I wanna believe he loves me, but I don’t know how. I feel as though everyone would be happier and better off if I were gone.  I really believe they would all jump […]

My energy is still gone, but I’m going to hang on. Maybe my story will save a life someday.

Hey this is my uhh.. first post thing. And this is new too me because I’ve never felt this way. I mean I had a bad life but never realized it was this bad. What’s the point? I have no meaning. The whole town hates me and I get bullied because I wear my heart on a sleeve plus I’m the tallest kid at my school and get bullied for not doing sports. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m out of moves…

I swear theres no way to describe how worthless i feel. can I die? like can someone kill me ?

Im completely done. I can’t take this anymore. everyone hates me, I m an awful friend and i ruin everything. people die everyday is it hat hard for me to die today. I have nothing sharp, nor rope, nor meds. what am I supposed to do. I don’t cry. but I can’t handle it anymore. I ruin everything.why am i so bad? why?

to die. So I’m pretty sure I’m done I am very serious but can’t become 100% certain. I can’t function around people, I have been deeply depressed for around 7 years, My motivation in life is to hurt those who hurt me nothing more and nothing less. I have no real goals or dreams in life, I have been on alot of medication, tried everything, have no reason to live and am almost sure I am incapable of love or happiness or even being content. I don’t want to live in any society and I wont do anything I don’t want to. I don’t want […]

I’m constantly asked for reasons to keep on living. But I can think of many more to just die right here.

Who’s actually going to miss you? Friends acknowledge it and move on, as do family. The goverment might miss you as it is one less person to get tax from.
It’s considerably more a selfless act than a selfish one. Think about strangers you walk past and are around every day. Wouldn’t life be easier if there was one less **** in your way?
It’s a human right to live, and another to die.
What about colleagues? Have you ever had someone that was dragging you down or […]

What is the whole point of living anyways?  When you get to the point where all you feel is numbness and pain, why should you go forth in life?  When every waking moment of your life you unintentionally hurt the people who are supposed to love you, why not end their pain?  It would be selfish of me if I continued to live.  My death it seems is inevitable, the people who are closest to me all know that at some point I will end my life.  So why not end the pain now?  I’m tired of pretending to live, when in truth, I already […]

another reason i want to die is because my family hates me every time something goes wrong they blame it on me and punish me and if they find out its my brother or my sister they don’t say sorry to me and they don’t punish my brother or sister . i feel like im not wanted all the time.and my dad thinks im just a problem and constantly reminds me that he hates me and doesn’t want me.and the only one that likes me is my sister and she just got married so shes not going to be there fore me.well if what my whole family wants is me to be gone […]

honestly.

i cannot live this way, with my mind battering me into constant disintigration.

i am living for the peace of mind of my loved ones.  they’d be destroyed if i killed myself.  or so they say.  i think that they’d be shocked (by the unexpectedness of exactly when it’ll happen) and saddened, then grieve, then pick up and continue on with their lives.  with what they consider to be life.

my life cannot continue like this.  i am finished.  i am exhausted.

depression kills.  put your family and friends on notice: this disease must be *taken seriously*.  we can never ‘pull ourselves up’, ‘snap out of it’…  if […]

i want to kill myself but everyone i know says no don’t do it but i think why not i would be way happier in heaven than down here in this hell hole

Just woke up after falling asleep allof sulden sobbing uncontrollably and shaking dont know what was draming about but must has really spooked me this has  happened before and alwys scares me times like this when I hate being on my own and not having anyone to tell me its going to be ok. Im such a mess

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Full of nervous energy and panic today. I don’t understand why. Just wish I could go to sleep and not wake up.

Its been a while. but im having those thoughts again. I havent cut for a whole month but i want to do it sooo bad.
I kissed a boy, he told me he loved me and that he wanted to be with me. I didnt want to kiss him but he was so cute and i liked him so much. i knew that if i kissed him before we even started a real reltionship that something bad cud happen. And it did. We got in a fight the other day and we havent talked in 2 days. I texted him this morning but he hasnt […]

hi all.

someone (me) took my username, so I used my username as my password. anywho.

some idiot told me to call the suicide hotline about a month ago, and I’ve called it before, and from many different states in the USA. this was about a month or year ago. I really do forget.

I tried to kill myself for about 5 years maybe ten. I stopped trying to kill myself about 4 years or maybe 3 years ago now. Now I bounce in between states, jail and doctors offices. it’s great don’t get me wrong, if I had a gun I would shoot hella stuff, but I […]

Hi.. you know my other posts, yeah, them…. well they are  not true, i lie. I do this because i have a sick twisted demented little mind for a bi-sexaul 11 year old boy. Yes, you did read it right, I am 100% Bi-sexual, don’t like it?? Yeah well neither do I. I hate my sexuality. You know deathbug, well it’s funny really because we are so alike, we made sick twisted lying stories that made you fall bad for us, so i would again like to say sorry to all of the people on this site, especially U.N Owen and Holly. I don’t know […]