I have a friend who cuts herself and she is thinking about committing suicide. She told me about her life and I then compared it to my life. I found they were the same. We both have cuts on our bodies and our fathers abuse us. She can’t do anything without getting thrown somewhere. My father just takes his belt off and whips me with it.  I told my mom that he abuses me and she ignored me. I told her I wanted to kill myself and all she said was, “God doesn’t except those who kill themselves.” Lot of help that did. I haven’t tried yet […]
I have so many of the warning signs of suicide it’s not funny.
Severe depression (always there, but worse now),
sudden reckless behavior (I had sex with a complete stranger),
sudden change in appearance (I dyed my hair blue)
inability to sleep
severe anxiety
social isolation
impulsive actions (I just got 65 stitches)
researching suicide on the internet
I feel like a helpless, hopeless burden, I have no reason to live. The only reason I have for not killing myself is that I need to repent from my reckless, impulsive sexual behavior.
If anyone was paying attention they would be very worried….
….but they’re not.
I’m at the point that I just don’t want anything to do with anybody I hate everyone I’m in a dark whole and can not get out there is no way of getting out there is no exit what’s so ever. I just don’t want to try no more iv done everything I can to try fix this but nothing works I cut until there is no where else to cut iv lost a lot of people throughout my life iv tried to commit suicide I was rushed to hospital 3 times they set me up with Mental Health I hate it I never want […]
everyday bring on a new struggle , i always just get by. i dont live , i exist. tomorrow im supposed to be in this fashion show [they didnt pick me, i just entered ,] im so scared i have to walk in front of god nos how many ppl. nothing you say will make me less anxious. i want out but i ve came ths far an my dad paid a small fee, omg im such a coward but i feel sick and nervous
I grew up in a small town of Michigan, Were people knew eachother, but the people in the town were druggies, whores, sexist, and horrible.
Every day id go into school hoping ill be ok, but nooooo i cant have 1 Damn good day, i got made fun of, got my ass handed to me, and rumores went around that i was a prostitute
Now all of this didnt bother me, untill my “bestfriend” started doing it. She was really the only person i had, my parents didnt care, my siblings didnt believe me. so at that point i had nobody
ive been smoking ciggs […]
I’m 17. I make decent grades. But not great grades. What do I have going for me? It seems like my mom and I are constantly fighting and any person I try having a relationship with, I just scare them off. Someone told me my sophomore year that if I killed myself, no one would notice. I’ve been gone for aweekfrom school due to training for my job. Not one person has said that they miss me. When do I find hapiness and joy like everyone else? And if I will find hapiness and joy one day, why do I have to wait through all […]
i think I get why I self injure. It’s because half of me is in constant pain and turmoil, and the other part looks perfectally fine. So in my quest for balance in my life, I try to make both sides show equal amounts of what I feel. A balance between physical and emotional pain. What I look like on the outside, my inside is unable to deal with, so I have to change the outside to match the inside. I’m wrecked emotionally. I have no faith in anything anymore, I’m in constant pain, and I want to die. So I show it by cuts […]
i guess today is the end tommorow will be the new better life in the next world i think im going to hang my self she left she whent to the hospital she gave her self up and i need her really bad right now to talk to her but i cant then theres these people who think its funny that people want to kill them self i was made fun of for wanting to do it and no one took me serouse i dont think so i guess ill prove them wrong
 kill useless fuckers who fuck with you
 hehe
– reb
A few months ago i read “Crash Into Me” by Albert Borris… is about a group of teens that decides to go on a trip when, at the end, they are going to decide what are they going to do with their lives -suicide or not- is really funny and kinda crazy in some points but at least it made me feel good for a while, without suicide thoughts
i have gathered the strength to cut.
Nobody understands me in my life. I can come on here all I want but it doesn’t change the fact that those I live with will never get to know the real me. My friends and family will never understand what goes on in my thinking process. It is really hard cause when I’m at school, family functions, or at church everyone looks at me. I can see disappointment and frustration. It saddens me that those I love will never understand.
What also saddens me is that the little amount of friends I have and my two BEST friends are moving further and further away from […]
For any of you who were wondering, my suicide attempt failed. Unfortunately, I was caught. So my plans have been temporarily delayed. I was in a psych hospital for the last week and my internet access is now limited and monitored, so I’m not sure how often i’ll be here. I just wanted to let those who cared know that I am, in fact, breathing.
If you every feel invisible…Â
Just imagine you were a spy, or on a mission, avoiding detection. That’s what I do. My black converse make little noise and I walk at the same speed as the fastest walking person to not be heard. When I see someone I know walk by, I hide behind someone else until the don’t see me. I take mental notes of people’s attire, pretending to find my target.Â
I imagine myself doing extraordinary things while I walk, dodging incoming fire, vaulting over obstacles. Make it fun, maybe you might survive a bit longer.Â
On a side note, I got little to no […]
You don’t know anything about me.
You don’t have the right to judge someone when you have no idea what they go through. Every. Single. Day.
Been molested, raped, bullied, punched, slapped, used, burned, cut, and beaten til blood dripped down my cheeks and elbow.
You have no right to call me a *****, whore, slut, skank, hoe, chink, etc
Every word you used on me I added a new scar on my wrist.
Been to the hospital waking up in shame wishing I wouldn’t hear another insult.
Being called an stupid dumb idiot for committing suicide. For not wanting to hear anymore hurtful words. […]
I’m at the end & I don’t know what to do in this situation/:
I need advice on a relationship problem….please/:
I just want you to know, I’m here to listen.
kenzie.fallenangel33@gmail.com
I won’t lie to you, I won’t feed you false words. I will listen. And I will be with you. I won’t judge. I’m just here to listen. Sometimes, that’s all you need. I’m here to care.
REAL Change Project
         You don’t know me. Let’s be honest. I could be anyone. But I am someone. Someone trying to promote change in the world. Am I successful? Not Yet. I am doing a project on suicide. The whole goal of my project is to promote the choice of life. But I need help, your help. I need ideas. Ideas. Ideas. Ideas. I need to listen to you. I want to make a video. But not just any video. A video that is breathtaking. Comment on here the hardships you have endured, and anything that has helped. If you seriously need […]
Spending my time here at school sober, I hope the majority of you are not doing the same. Marijuana is good, Marijuana is ok, smoke it up. The government just doesn’t want us to be happy.
So Fuck this peice of shit government, Smoke up, Be Happy.