Such a lonely day…for me, lonely days bring back the suicidal thoughts. It never fails…and im always lonely.
“Hang in there, it will get better, lots of people care about you, I do and we’ve never met. Just get some professional help and meds, you’ll see – life is great” complete B S. Pull the trigger, our life is meaningless, we are so insignificant, it’s comical.
im thinking about ending it all tonight, i just really cant bare to be apart of this horrible world anymore, ive been getting nothing but depressed evry single day and each day it gets worse, nothing good is happening to me only bad things, im being bullied by my own family, and i just cant take it anymore. and on top of that i ran into my friend or should i say ex friend/ someone i liked and she was at the counter and i was standing in line at tim hortons and she didnt even wave at me she was freaking facing me too […]
I feel really abandoned. This is related to events occurring months ago, but I feel a resurgence of the emotional pain. All my friends from college save two stopped talking to me about a month or so after I graduated in December. When friends leave I usually let that happen because I know friends come and go; however, I’m twenty-three with no current future plans, so these friends were my only social network. And they just stopped communicating with me. They moved on, so I can’t blame them specifically, yet it still doesn’t change the fact that I’m upset and alone. I’m really well-meaning, and […]
You always hear people say that, “You’ll be accepted by being yourself,†right? Well,… IT’S WRONG!!! People would only accept you by being like everyone else. They always say that, you’re an anti-social freak or a messed up person am I wrong. Should we live up to other people’s expectation? Should they accept you by using you? Should you change yourself because you’re desperate to be accepted and to speak out on your own? That’s the quest/journey that I never accomplished from my life and still now. I do know that there are others that are doing the same. I understand. The confusion, the depression, […]
I’m fine again. A few weeks ago I was about to kill myself but right now I want to jump from a bridge just for fun and feel the adrenalin, I know I’m crazy but this is my high and as long it gets, as hard the down will be.
I hate this thing on my life that I can’t never be happy for a while, if I get some hapiness then something bad happens and it’s taken away from me. Right now I have a crush on this beautiful girl (I’m bisexual) so all I want is speak to her and spend time around but […]
I am on klonopin and abilify and it had been working really really well for a few months. But now, even though nothing in what I take, how I take it, and when, its stopped working and I have regressed. Now everything is worse than it was before, I rarely feel anything and when I do its usually intense anger or sadness and I have started cutting again. My therapist wants me to consider inpatient therapy but there is such a stigma that I am afraid because I dont want people looking at me like I am a crazy person. Suicide is a thought that […]
*sighs* Lately i’ve been happy, crying, or sad. Mostly happy, due to the fact that im ready to die, knowing my place of where i’d be after i die. So lately i’ve been happy because i actually hope and pray that i die very very soon….Im hoping it’s before 2012 is over with, if not, then on my birthday.
But until then, im getting ready to graduate from high school with 3 more weeks left. I wanted to go to college at first, and i do have one school in mind. But being a high school student now, with my lazy ways, not doing my work, […]
I’m 13. Lately, I’ve had a lot of stuff going on in my life, and here goes. Once I started secondary school, I started to get bullied, my hair looked greasy which was natural. I got called either ‘Greaseball’ or ‘Frying Pan’. It was horrible. My whole school called me it. It started to wear off. Once it wore off, I had a perfect life. My mum had just given birth to my baby brother and sister which were twins (Aged 1). I thought I had everything, I did. Then I started making new friends, and one of them I just loved. We started talking […]
This song is called Sayoko it is about a girl who is suffering from depression the original song is japanese. Sayoko meening morning chil is about a girl who is tierd of her everday life thinking she is the worst as i do myself. Please enjoy this song it is if may call “my anthum”. ~Shiann sung by:_Miku-tan_ song:[English] Sayoko_____
I don’t go to church, I haven’t since I was a little girl. That being said, I believe in God with all my might. The other night I was extremely scared, the next day at school my assistant principal, teacher, and I were supposed to have a meeting to discuss my eating disorder and problems, they were panning on calling my parents because they said they had to. I want to get better and knew there was nothing I could do about it, but I was so terrified.
Scared of disappointing my parents again.
Scared of not being able to lie my way out.
Scared of the truth.
Scared […]
I’m new here. You don’t know me or anything but I know how you feel ! Killing yourself isn’t the best thing to do. I don’t know your life story but i used to feel like that. There’s reasons why you want to end your life. You’re hurt with a brken heart! It seems like everyone left you and your world is falling apart. It seems like everybody hates you. nothing ever goes right in your life. I know how yall feel ! I used to feel the same way but that was before i made Jesus christ my savior. I have so much more to […]
I have just had 2 bottles of wine and know I’m just starting on a bottle of Vodka and I’m no where near drunk yet. That is probably cause I wiegh 21 stone. I have tried to kill myself by a overdose but it did not work and I was called selfish by everyone as I have children. So I have decided to carry on over eating and over drinking something I have been fightging against for 17 years as everyone said it will kill me. I’m 39 and and in the same place I was when I was 23 so why bother so why […]
I don’t know how long I can keep doing this for. I had planned my suicide for last Tuesday but I got really drunk on Monday and told my auntie so my mum took me to hospital. Now everyone’s pretending like it didn’t happen. I have my exams in less than a week and it’s just another insignificant thing on top of everything else. Although it isn’t a priority teachers and college in general are making me feel lazy and stupid. I wish I could just end it now, go to sleep and never wake it. I’m not scared or upset that I want to die anymore, […]
Dont know what this day will take me ,Dont know if ill see that sunlight with the newyork lights for another day. After midnight everything is up to your dreams but what if the dream visions me not being able to sleep nor see. Maybe ill sit by the bridge waiting for my world to ended or maybe ill think of ending it standin on the edge prepare to die ..
twinkle twinkle little one, no one cares about you….your mother is dead, your father is gone you sit in a corner holding the knife..
twinkle twinkle little one don’t come home no one cares…once you die they won’t care….they are everywhere
twinkle twinkle little one…..it’s me…..i’m the little one….no one cares about me…no one loves me at all…..i’m the young one dying…..cutting, bleeding, dying…..slowly….painfuly…..i’m gone…..forever…..now that you know my song..i want to die……help me by singing along…..
twinkle twinkle little one, no one cares about you….your mother is dead, your father is gone you sit in a corner holding the knife..
twinkle twinkle little one don’t come home no […]
i never keep my eyes on the road, i never ask for any help…..i grip a razor to my chest as i cry out his name……the gillering metal in the moonlight sparkles in my face….
i slice through a fresh patch of skin as i scream out his name…no one ever hears my name or calls me in the death of night……yet they wake up and enter my room to find a pool of blood….blood stained roses and hot gun barrels won’t bring him back…yet at night i call out his name and i hear his light voice as a response…..so now i grip my blood […]
i try. i try to hold on to you. this pain is just to real. there is so much that time cannot erase. my wonds wont seem to heal. you presence is just too much for me to bare. i try to hold onto your hand and let you say everything will be ok. sometimes you are speachless. not knowing what to say. sometimes when your not around i get into a deep depression and i wish you were here to give me a hug and promise you will stay with me forever. as i think about my past i begin to cry. sleepless nights […]
Before I begin with my story, let me just say that I’m staring death in the face and I’m at the end of my pitiful rope. It’s a long story so please get comfortable. At the very end, is a letter to my love.
September 25, 2010 – The day my life would change forever.
I had been talking to this girl I liked for a while now, we had a lot in common, so we set up a movie date. September 25 was our first date. She looked beautiful that summer night. I remember what she wore, how her hair was, and most of all, that […]