I’m done. There’s nothing I want more than to die. This isn’t an impulsive decision; I’ve thought long and hard about it and it is really what I want. The problem is that I don’t know how. I’m too afraid to try because I’m afraid it would fail. I need a foolproof, quick, easy way. Something easily accessible. I live alone and don’t leave home, I’m dependent on my mother for almost everything. I can’t exactly ask her to go out and buy a suicide bag for me. I need something I can do by myself. I hate that physician-assisted euthanasia is illegal. I’m not asking how […]
No one cares about me because my sister has it worse. She’s got anorexia and depression and she self harms. I self harm and try to kill myself. I feel like my whole life is a stupid comparison to her. I want to cut myself until I pass out. I want to stay awake for so long that I just drop. I can’t do this anymore, and yet no one even notices.
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It’d be nice to end it. Quit everything. Abandon all connections. Why bother with anything when giving up is easier. Nothing to live for; everything to fight against. What can one person do against such recklessness.  If not yourself then find something to protect, 8532210.
i did it. i pushed the last person that cared enough away. he promised me with his life that he wouldn’t give up on me. im sitting in our apartment with all of our things. everything reminds me of him. i feel stupid. i won’t go to bed until he comes back. im hoping to hear the buzzer, but its been hours and he hasnt come back. i wonder where he is at. i hate myself so much. i wish he would understand that im bipolar and that i didnt mean all that i said. we’ve been together for 4 years now. married 1. he […]
All I ask of anyone reading this is to at least put some thought into my words. You will never understand what I am going through, and that goes for me to you as well. From reading this you may at least have some understanding.
I’ve never been through anything this hard in my entire life. In the last 5 years everything has changed. I am an 18 year old male from the U.S. I grew up in hopes of becoming something in this country when I grew older. Now I am older, and the task is beyond difficult. 5 years ago I became badly ill […]
ok, my life probly isnt as bad as most ppls out there who think uf suicide, but right now im have problems dealing with everything im going through. I have had thoughts of suicide for a couple of months now, since things started to get bad between my boyfrend and me. i have been depressed, and it has genrally gotten worse until now, i barly eat. and i dont sleep very much at all. my grades at school are dropping, and my sports are in horrable shape. but now mostly all i do is cry or write dark poetry, or i sit and fantasize what […]
I truly want to just stop breathing. I have tried to justify suicide in general to the people in my life without having to actually say that I am trying to justify my own. I’ll be 30 years old in June. I have a B.S. in accounting and I am tired of failing in all aspects of my life. I hate my mother with such rage and disgust. I wasted 10 years of my adult life helping her, just for her to allow one of her many drugged out boyfriends destroy what my family has built. If she were dead I would be able to […]
I feel everyone expects too much out of me, the more I do the more that is expected of me. I can’t keep up anymore, so tired of being tired. I feel as though I am stand on the edge of a cliff ready to jump, everyday hanging by a thread. I can’t talk to no one about how I feel, always have to keep it locked inside, tell everyone I am fine. My son committed suicide 2/14/2012 it left me so broken inside. I feel it’s my only solution I have at the moment. I wish the people who say they care really did […]
I decided to write on SP… I’m lonely right now. I have nothing to do… I should go to bed, but I am restless. I really want to see Jasmine, but I guess even though she’s the most important person in my life, it doesn’t matter, since society will just make me feel bad for having my own desires and stuff. Whatever then, I’m still waiting on my dad to get me a psychiatrist to analyze my head, hope I can get some pills or something to help me. Or i just need to not be alone at all times. I seem fine when in […]
jesus fuck i wish i was dead. Â how do you control the monsters inyour nmind. Â i want to kill everyone. Â we’re such a hideous virus that i can barely stbnad it. Â mother fuck i wish i coul dstolp exisgting. Â aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh|!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11.
Ok time for me to rant like a ***** again to people who’s lives are 20x worse then mine. But i have no one else to turn to because everyone in my life is against me.
So the reason im at the breaking point (as some of you might have read already) is because i confessed to a girl i work with how i felt about her 2 months ago. She told me that she just wants to be friends, but i always had the sneaking suspicion that she was full of shit, and just didnt want to tell me the truth because we work together. […]
I wish I knew then how fast, far and hard I would fall for him and how bad it would hurt if and when he wasn’t at the bottom to catch me. I made him my everything. When he left he took my heart and soul with him. My entire life walked out my front door. I did everything I could to stop him but the closer I tried to get to him the further away he got. Until one day he was no longer in my reach. I want nothing more then to be in his arms just once more. To feel his lips […]
Everyday I wake up wondering why am I still alive! Everyday I think of so many ways to just end my life. I cry soo much everyday .. Im so alone and hurting I cant tell anyone around because they will call me crazy but im not! I just want it to be over I dont want this pain. No one can see how alone or how bad things really are. I am useless and coward. People who look at me think wow shes got the world at her finger tips.. I dont wanna have to be perfect anymore.. I […]
I never really understood suicide until it struck home. Me. I don’t understand why I felt like I needed to die. I have a fine family, they would help me anytime. So why did I feel so bad? My life outside home was bad. Or so I thought. But my famiy was fine, I have no valid reason to be thinking this way- that’s what I told myself. But that didn’t stop the feeling so my final question is the name of the post, why me?
I have only ever felt so left out and so alone last year, and the year before, and the year before, and so on, and I will feel this way again next year. This on top of my everyday struggles makes me wonder if it is all worth it? That and the knowledge that nobody gives a shit about me makes me wonder if I will even see tomorrow. I think I am going to throw in the towel.
Can anyone explain to me why a teacher/counselor must call your parents if they think your health or life is at risk??? Especially if they know it isn’t going to help anything. I just don’t get the point, especially since 4 counselors have called my parents and it hasn’t helped once. That being said, I understand they call because they don’t want you to get hurt. BUT what if I am willing to get help and I really want to get better (I have an eating disorder, anxiety disorder, and possible other disorders) but the only thing holding me back is my parents just because […]
The only thing i need is that one person. That one person i can fully trust. That one person i can talk to about anything. That one person to hug, to hold, to love. Trying to find this person is one of the few things keeping me alive.
I want the world to stop. Just long enough for me to stop spinning, get my bearings, find something to hold on to. Then things can start up again. But the world won’t stop, not for me and not for anybody, and it’s leaving me behind, grasping at straws.
Sorry for my bad English, I’m Dutch/French (I’m a 18 years old, school dropout). I hope this all makes somewhat sense…
I was seen as a child prodigy when I was child (learned myself read at a young age and I went directly to second year of primary school), but everything went bad in secundary school. I feel totally useless. I have nothing to live for. The expectations that society has, the expectations I have of myself. The reality that doesn’t fit the expectations. My apathy towards humans, towards my family. I have no friends, I never needed friends, neither have I desired to have friends. I […]
I’ve got 5 inch scars on the inside of my forearms now…I despise them. They are a constant reminder of my inner weakness. They’ll never go away and they’ll never fade. They’re just two more to add to my never ending collection of failures.
I’m not sure if I’m worthy of love. death would be the perfect solution for all this shit…..maybe that’s why God won’t let me die….Death would bring peace…this life is absolute hell. Suffering and alone….What a way to carry out my miserable existence… I don’t deserve to live… I don’t deserve to be loved…
fuck, where did I put that blade….
Happy mother’s day […]