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scared

July 7th, 2009by emily25

I’m not too sure why I am posting on here right now. I mean, this is a “suicide” website. For the first tim in a long time I do not want to suicide. I am content about myself. I wouldn’t say happy, I am far from that right now. But I am not feeling… selfish in any way. I am worried about my brother (which isn’t really m brother. he is family friend. we both have a mom and dad, but we call eachothers mom and dad as we would our own. wierd,  i know. we all get along that good though. it’s just like …

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Well…hm…

July 7th, 2009by LGchica

Idk i just wanted to post this…

well, one of my best friends told me something yesterday. two things actually: one was that she wouldnt hesitate to die for me and that scares me. like if i told her id be happy if she died (which i wouldnt) shed go kill herself. that scares me with what i might say in anger to her for i bottle stuff up and sometimes it just explodes. thats how i made my friend brendan, my bottle got too full and it just exploded and he fucked my life up lets just say.
second thing she said has more worried me, …

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long road to heaven

July 7th, 2009by long road to heaven

well…where to start…i have been on this earth for 37 years and have nothing to show for it…well that’s how i see it anyway…i was sexually, physically and mentally abused as a child by the lady and family that adopted me.  You ever read “A Child Called It”?  well, my story wouldn’t be much different.  Since i have visited this site and read a few stories, i have began to see things a little different.  i have a daughter that is suicidal and i can’t figure out why…she is beautiful and smart and so sweet and thoughtful. i have made it my life goal not to …

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What does the society want from some one who is about to do it

July 7th, 2009by AlbertJhon

20 years from today which is 7th july 2009 and the burial day of Michael Jackson, I was a kid of 10 and was thinking that my life is not worth living. I might have killed myself if I could but surely I did not. I dont think it was a mere cause of depression and emotion. Let me put the facts and figures in front of you and you decide what should people like me do. Since I am definately not the only one in this situation, society has a responsibility to do some thing about this. I am not saying , that society should bear the burden …

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Two Addictions That Will Never Be Cured.. Maybe

July 7th, 2009by jessicaxrawr

When I was only nine years old I was hit in the face with the fact that my father is a drug addict. He has been one since before I was even born, I just never knew. I did not know how to deal with it whatsoever. Once I had made that discovery, my world came crashing down. I began to cry myself to sleep each night, wondering why this was happening to me, why God put this down on my father, if I actually did deserve this life. I know my father’s drug addiction doesn’t seem like a lot to be so upset about, …

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the Past

July 7th, 2009by icedullieth

I’m not sure how to really do this but here I go:

My senior year of high school was the worst year ever. I was struggling in my classes, it wasn’t looking like I was going to graduate, my parents were constantly disappointed in me, tellling me to grow up, and I had few actual friends. My stress level day after day just kept rising and rising, until it hit the point where I had to cause pain to myself to lower it. I started cutting myself. For a while the cutting really helped. Then a friend saw the cuts and freaked out. She went around …

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Seriously considering this

July 6th, 2009by dyingj

When I registerd here I was seriously considering ending my life…I felt that I just could not go on anymore…my heart was broken, as well as my spirit.  I had just finished crying my eyes out, and cursing God, why when he had the chance did he not take me…I had replayed are the hurtful things my husband has said to me over and over in my head…I also had just watch another amature video of him and his girlfriend post on the net…I watched and listened to all the things he said to her…and thats not the only one of them that he has …

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Worn down

July 6th, 2009by Jason

So, here I am, sharing my story with strangers. Maybe that’s the best way.

What can I say…I am not seeing the point in going on with this charade called life anymore. I am 37 years old, and feel that there is nothing to look forward to, except working jobs that I hate that I feel are beneath me for the rest of my life, and being alone.

The dreams I have been pursuing of doing photography for a living have not come to pass. There were a few times when it was starting to look pretty good, but things either came to a grinding halt, or …

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Need your expert advice in commiting suicide.

July 6th, 2009by Dione

I am so tired of all the lies and all the decite, people who call themselves my friends stab me in the back and don’t even care about other peoples feelings. I go to school faithfully to get an education and professors treat me like shit and like I am worth nothing, Do I have to pay for this crap? I have attempted suicide twice in the past, someone always found me passed out on the bathroom floor. I would like to make it happen for real this time, I want to kill everyone who has ever been mean to me especially the ones who …

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Need help

July 6th, 2009by maya

I’ve always been afraid to talk about my suicidle thoughts that haunted me for years and years back,afraid of considered a crazy pothetic person with no beliefes and courage.

My parents were divorced when I was only 7 years old,it was hurrable and i was forced not to see her or even mention her name or say”mamy”for example,it’s all because of my dad,I had no relatives,my sister and brothers were all I have,could’t communicate with anyone in a normal way..still I am that way..

I got married to a sick man and had 2 wounderfull boys and after 7 years of merrage i am fighting for divorce …

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July 5th, 2009by emily25

left alone again. why am i not use to this yet?! i mean, i should be by now. i dodn’t even know this person too well. what was so wrong with it? why did he thing it was so worng? to actually talk to someone. i have a bofriend. he has a girlfriend. i can sorta understand, and i respect his choice of not wanting to talk to me anymore. it just dosn’t make sence to me though. every single time i get to actually talk to somebody and feel comfortable about it. my life changes. it makes me happy to be able to do …

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DONE WITH THIS SITE

July 5th, 2009by darkgermandeath

I’m done with this site all it has done is give me false hope for happiness when the only way i’ll be happy is if im away from every one except for my future wife i feel she believes i dont love her and that im talking to nothing but girls so this is the last time you’ll here from me Goodnight to all

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birthday suicide/wierd dream about you

July 5th, 2009by darkgermandeath

For the past three or four years i’ve though about killing my self on my birthday which is coming up in a little bit.Im getting married in septembor but i dont don’t know if i can suvive my birthday by the way i had a wierd dream earlyer today about i was at my birthday and people off of here started walking up and then every one started falling down then i woke up .

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I’m Ready 2 Hang…

July 5th, 2009by USAFwife

Well, it’s about that time…again! I am awaiting the police to serve my warrant and take me to jail for defrauding my bank (1800.00)…but I had too, I had to pay the rent, bills and put food on the table for my family! I tried to explain to them, but money matters more in this world than life or so it seems! I already have a criminal background in fraud from years ago, always trying to support my family seems to get me in trouble. Yes, I have a job but it does not pay all the bills and we get further in debt everyday. …

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Death is freedom.

July 4th, 2009by Schism

I would start with a bit of information about me (age, interests, blah blah blah) but that is just ego and unimportant, lets get to the reason i’m feeling this way.

I feel so caged and alone, i have no friends, my only family member is my dad, i have no love interest in my life as i seem to always push most females away with my “clingyness” but people just won’t grasp that all I want is to be loved and cared for, if I meet a girl I like I treat them like a princess, like they are the only thing on this planet… …

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VISIT TO THE HOSPITAL TONIGHT

July 4th, 2009by darkgermandeath

I WENT TO THE HOSPITAL TONIGHT IF YOU WANT TO KNOW THE WHOLE STORY EMAIL ME AT MEINREICHISTWUNDERBAR@GMAIL.COM

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Vanished Dreams

July 3rd, 2009by osuterry

  I thought my life would be extraordinary. I have looks, intelligence, and charm, yet it all went so wrong. I started puberty at an alarmingly young age-when I was 10 I looked 16. This really upset my father, so he decided to deal with it by putting loads of pressure on me to excel and by saying hurtful comments about my appearance and life. This shredded my self-esteem, causing me to spend my high school years scared and lonely.  Then my freshman year of college, I met a 400 pound guy who was flunking out of school and decided to hitch my wagon to …

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How Much More Can I Take?

July 3rd, 2009by FallingApart

I finally feel like im getting somewhere and im better and then i so suicidal again. its crazy… then the next minute i feel fine like everything will be ok. like nothing matters. like everyone does care. but as soon as somehting goes wrong or i get tired i can so low its impossible to take it. its been 3 years now. councillin n medication have worked a bit.

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Six more months

July 3rd, 2009by choffelder1029

Well ive finally been able to choose and i decided on suicide by hypothermia.  Im not sure why but something about it seems very appropriate for me.  Ill go out into the woods where no one can find me, lay down in the snow and wait.  Ill probly bring my ipod.  Music is the really the only thing thats kept me going.  I dont want to die in silence.

The downside of course is im going to have to wait five/six more months.  Im hoping they’ll be pleasant though, knowing each day is actually getting me closer to my last.

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Dreams into life

July 3rd, 2009by darkgermandeath

I’ve had my girlfriend write down some of the things i say in my sleep and some other things i DO!! This is right out of the book >Well obviously it starts in ohio i cant remember it all ,but heres a few thing’s”at times he has dreams that i am cheating or being very flirtacous.so he’ll call me a whore,slut,stupid whore,Then he has gotten so angry in his sleep over me that he will elbow me in the ribs.He has also set stright up in bed and pointed towards the closet and in German said “das sweatter ich nicht gut”which means the sweater

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