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Need to know

  May 7th, 2011 by 77evergone77

How long can you last without food? Not without water though. I want to know how long someone can last without food before passing out or dying.
I also want to know how long someone can go without sleep.

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Will it hurt?

  May 7th, 2011 by vmy19

Hi there. I found this site doing what I guess you could call “suicide research.” I’m 15 and seriously contemplating to kill myself but there are so many things that I’m unsure of.

I plan on overdosing on a combination of stillnox (sleeping pills) and panadol (paracetemol). I have access to both and it seems to be fairly painless… But, being the over-anxious perfectionist I am, I did some research into this and found that it is actually painful to die of liver failure and if I’m not successful, the pain of having my stomach pumped is an issue.

For those who have experienced this: …

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I want to die…

  May 7th, 2011 by iphrit

Any other natural methods aside from carbon monoxide poisoning(charcoal burning in a sealed room(didn’t work))?

Im 21 male from the Phil, Baguio City…

Overdosing on OTC drugs seems a long way to go, and will experience excruciating pain(I tried halfway)…

reply or message me at snyphe_vash@yahoo.com

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“You gave it all away, it was mine.”

  May 7th, 2011 by eternallyconfused

I’m tripping up again, messing everything up. I’m doing it on purpose, or at least that’s what it looks like to everybody else. Looks like I don’t care, like I don’t have any ambition, or motivation. The thing is, I don’t think I do. Sure, I could say my alcoholism is keeping me in this self-destructive rut, and it would be partly true. It’s definitely not helping to get drunk every single night, but honestly I think I just don’t give a fuck. I haven’t for a long time.

I have a plan, but I practically refuse to put it into action. I started GED classes, …

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not sure what will come of this.

  May 6th, 2011 by justsomegirl925

i dont know where im trying to go, or maybe i just need to have someone at least read what im saying. I feel as if i dont have control of this whole thing called life. Im not ready for any of this, i was never ready for this. i transitioned into college too fast and it feels as if it is biting me in the ass. i most likely might be dismissed from my school becuase of my grades and i know that i should be doing my work right now trying my best to catch up but i have procrastinated so much that …

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Having Thoughts

  May 6th, 2011 by ime

This morning, I thought about killing myself. I was laying in my boyfriend’s bed, having argument the night prior and having my mom fuss me out over the phone. It had me feel useless. Hopeless. Unnecessary. Just low. I’ve had suicide thoughts off and on since I was 6 years old. I’ve even tried it. On the road, I would think about driving my car under a truck and  explodes. But this morning, I was thinking of ways to actually end it. I was so calm thinking about it. Thinking how easy it will be for people to forget about me. What would they say

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when you loose something you cant replace.

  May 6th, 2011 by hattie

i sat in my room sifting through my life in a polariod.

i was pretty.. who knew… at the time i sure didnt think so…

but i would give anything and everything to look like that again.

to be that happy again.

to have all the friends in the world, yet not a worry.

but hey, ‘nothing last forever’

no happy-ever-afters, just happy-for-right-nows.

i could ramble shit about my past, but where is that going to get me.

the worst part, is when i have to think about my future.

or lack of?

final year, graduating, ‘what are you doing next year’

and all you can say is ‘not sure’

because honestly i know exactly what i …

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i dont know why i came here..

  May 6th, 2011 by thatguy300zx

maybe its because i think other people might be having the same experiance as me, or maybe because im looking for sympathisers in this seemingly lonely exsistence. it might just be because i need to vent, and, hopefully ill never post here again.

all my life ive spent trying to be better than my mother, and my brothers, who have descended into madness and drug addiction (i havent seen or talked to my mother in about 12 years, i have no idea where she might be). i have ended up in the millitary because of it, and, if i look at my life retrospectively, its the …

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Insecure

  May 6th, 2011 by backtrackinlife

It’s like a test. You think you are completely over someone and then you hear their voice or see them.. A huge wave hit me and set my heart off. Silly!
I miss things, but I know I can’t get them back so … Fuckit! :] I love you but I can’t have you.
XD I feel so silly.
Well things have been turning around for me. I still have that wave of depression hit me almost every day, but who the hell needs to know about it? XD
I love him.  I dont want to hurt you.
GHoodbye

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i hate my life, please help

  May 6th, 2011 by alanna123

i am so depressed i cry everyday & im only 17. im not normal and i havnt been ever since my ex boyfriend broke up with me almost a year ago. i started to see him again and  he doesnt want a relationship. my heart is in a million pieces. to see him happy and getting with all these different girls and throwing parties every weekend. i feel like nothing. like i dont even matter. my life sucks. i just wish i could get help somehow bc i tried everything i could and nothing works. i cant even sleep at night bc all i think …

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think I will be going soon…

  May 6th, 2011 by mdank

Hi, I’ll try and keep this short. I think I’m just about at the end of my life. My life used to be pretty good, at least I had a solid career. Then I started getting incredibly bad headaches and tingling in my hands and feet. My condition deteriorated until my short term memory disappeared. At that point, I started experiencing personality changes that culminated in bizarre outburts of cursing and the weirdest symptom:  my distorted mind pulled whatever story i had recently read or seen on TV and somehow confused it as my own history, which I could no longer remember. So my personality shifted with whichever …

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A fight I don’t want.

  May 6th, 2011 by HeWhoHasAHat

It’s been nearly three weeks since the world was told of my plan to kill myself. Now, here I am, stuck fighting to make myself want to live. I see no point in living, I’d rather just quit. It’s like being drafted to fight a useless war with no hope of victory. Friends and family want me to go on, but what good is living if it’s only done for the desires of others? I can make myself forget the utter pointlessness with simple distractions: videogames, television, exercise, conversation…but they all feel so empty. Nothing has value, nothing ever can. I don’t want to just …

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@will692

  May 6th, 2011 by Journey

Hey, I just wanted to say hi and it was good to see you were still on here trying to help people. I’ve been gone for a while doing research on DP (depersonalization), fighting migraines and strep throat.

But I’ve thought about you and I ll always remember you were the first person to respond to my first post… thanks. 🙂

Take care. I ll be back again sometime and I d like to get your email if that’s ok. If you’re friends with Amber you can get it from her.
There’s also a post I commented on that I ll be checking on, so I ll …

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Why am I breathing?

  May 5th, 2011 by longtimegone

I shouldn’t be breathing anymore, but I am. I shouldn’t be alive anymore, but I am. People continue to inadvertently give me reasons to stay, I say, “I have to stay until after this event, until after I return his book, until after I’ve done that for her…”
But I’ve never found a reason to stay for me. I’ve never decided I would stay because I wanted to. It was always because of my fear of hurting someone else more than necessary…

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Anyone else from california??

  May 5th, 2011 by the girl interrupted

🙂 hello

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Promise

  May 5th, 2011 by SuicideKillMe

The only thing thats keeping me alive is that promise. Since that day i can’t kill myself. No matter how hard i want to i cant. Same goes for my friend. He can’t kill himself either. I’m pretty sure he is doing well as i feel there is a gun pointing to mine head. I cant take it anymore >- < i feel like im crying on the inside and it hurts. v- v it hurts alot. I'm trying my hardest, but i dont know anymore. Maybe just staying in my room all my life can help. Or have insanity take its course. …

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Have you ever felt like everyone hates you?

  May 5th, 2011 by fallenpastthe_cliff

I’m not sure why, but I’ve always felt like everyone hates me. I truly mean everyone. And it sucks. I just want to go to sleep and not wake up. Not let anyone else down, not ruin anyone else’s lives. I just want to stop hurting everyone.

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Stuck in my head

  May 5th, 2011 by backtrackinlife

Okay.. So I’m not writing this because i’m really depressed or anything like that.  Right now I couldn’t cry if I wanted to.  I’m in a neutral emotion and I guess it might be distorting my real feeling or something… But I’m really tired of hurting people.  I feel like that’s all I do.  I let people close to me and these people want to help me.. To fix me.  I warn them that it won’t get better and for a while it might, and they think they did good.  All of a sudden I spiral downward.  I can’t do it.  I can’t smile for …

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Dammit..

  May 5th, 2011 by Silent Screamer

I lost it.

I’m that much of a failure.

I lost my own fucking blade.

My mom found my other 2.

Now me.

Super smart me dropped it somwhere and now I can’t fuckung find it.

I retraced my steps and everything.

Fuck.

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hate this lyf

  May 5th, 2011 by GALI

never imagined dat i’m going to be like this. once i was a meritorious student. gradually i lost interest in my studies due to less marks in public exam. this continued and finally i failed in my graduation. since dat day i feel dat i dont deserve to live since i’m not reading well, i should not enjoy, i should not talk with people…………etc. i imposed all these restrictions on myself. i have everything i want……but not happy. future seems to be hopeless. no confidence on me, fear of failure, stage fear, irritation, always lost in thinking, not interested in anything, feel dat unfit to …

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