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Love sick made me emo

March 20th, 2008by Skull_Boi

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6 or 7 weeks ago

March 15th, 2008by mad4him4eva

6 or 7 weeks i cut myself. i wouldnt be here if it wasnt for two friends. they told me that this world would miss me. they told me that suicide is not the answer. i believed them. while i was talking to them my ex-boyfriend got on. i talked to him and i forgot all about it. now im really happy i didnt commit suicide! i have a wonderful b/f!

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I am a disgrace and I am going to kill myself soon.

March 6th, 2008by mail704

I’m a student. all through high school and university and when I go around I am frequently approached by fairly attractive females. I send them all away because I am so frightened of them. The female teachers hit on me too as well as male homosexuals. I’ve never had a girlfriend and am still a virgin. I’ve spent a lot of time practising playing the guitar. Now I am pretty good. However I never go play for anyone because I’m so frightened. I played some songs for groups of people at school, college, in clubs etc. and was good. However I am just so frightened …

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Finished, Had Enough, and Tired

January 11th, 2008by clintw317

My life is pleasantly comfortable and I can’t complain about anything. I have a dream job and the money is great. I’m in a wonderful marriage with my lovely wife. We have a huge house and nice cars and stuff. If I were to ask for more, I’d be greedy. Sure I can hold out longer for a boat, a nice trip to Hawaii, or even just to see how the kids turn out, but why?

I guess it’s fair to say that self-termination is unfair to those around you and selfish in itself. I will never take that route but sometimes I think about it. …

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Pain Has Stolen My Life…

January 2nd, 2008by a00013

I had a good life: I am intelligent and ambitious. I have a great family, used to love life and lived it to the fullest. My career soared as well. I moved up from an entry level to a SVP in only a few short years. I was fortunate enough to meet a wonderful wife, inheriting a 3 year old step-daughter and later, a daughter of our own. Our dream was to enjoy life with our kids, have a nice home, travel and perhaps start a business venture of our own eventually.

And then…eight years ago, out of the blue, I began experiencing some …

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Respect for the dying

December 30th, 2007by Ender

I visited relatives this Christmas, it was nice to see everyone but naturally I had a few too many drinks one night and let the veneer slip. So at least one other relative knows how fucked up I am. I really have to remember not to drink, it brings me nothing but misfortune. The trouble with being suicidally disenchanted with life is that it’s hard to cover it up, I’ve made choices in the past couple of months that have given away my secret motives, and so now I have jittery relatives worried about what I might do. I regret that, I should have been …

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losing sight

December 18th, 2007by jumpdance16

I get in stages like this, In my life which just seem so wrong. I hurt so many people, with no happiness with myself. There are so many things that I want to leave. But so many things I want to move to, but they are so far, there is no point. So I wake up, without a reason. I walk without a back. Why do I stay?

good bye

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third attempt

December 13th, 2007by coverinthebases

The cut was small.
And then it became deeper
and deeper
and deeper
The shiny white tendon in my arm began to burn as the blade took one nick after another.
The vien, like a hose, shot steady streams of blood onto the ground of my balcany like a pool.
Putting out one cigarette after another into the mirror of crimson liquid.

My cat walked by in the yard below, and all I could think was “Who is going to feed you if I die?”

Do any of you know what it feels like to have to clean up your own blood from a bathroom floor?
Do any of you know what it feels …

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nothing

November 26th, 2007by cloudedeyes

i know i wouldn’t kill myself. but i feel like disappearing. just for an hour, maybe for a month, maybe forever. so many things are piling up on me. i don’t know how i feel anymore. the only girl i ever truly loved just hurt me ever so deeply. my parents aren’t bad parents, but it seems that everything that they try to do to promote a good relationship isn’t helping. my friends don’t really respect me anymore, and I hardly get any sleep from the amount of work I have to do.

I just want to sit down, take a deep breath and just vanish. …

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It Came Back.

November 4th, 2007by Grey.

It came back. That cloud. The heavy, dark, consuming cloud of hopelessness. I have tried to kill myself on two occassions. Both using medication used to treat depression. Both times would have been successful had I not been found terribly drugged up. The second time I had a seizure as a result and lost a bit of my memory. How I wish I had lost more. I was in the hospital for months, “getting better.”. Then I got out, got another job, started upgrading some courses, even started having dreams again. That was a big sign for me that I had made it. I had …

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Why am I?

September 9th, 2007by staringbackatme

Am I the anti-norm? How did I get this way? Maybe I’m not just a product of my upbringing. Certainly others have had to grow up under much worse conditions. I had everything I needed. Well almost everything. But is love necessary? I’m finding it hard to remember what it is to be loved. To be honestly appreciated and cared about. A lot of it is my own doing I’m sure. I’ve pushed many people away. Others I‘ve cut completely off and toss them away. Then of course I’ve had friends who have crushed me callously numerous times. Having a low tolerance for others ruins …

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a mirror.

September 8th, 2007by codi

There is something terribly wrong here.

I can no longer recognize the face in the mirror.
I dont like waking up anymore..it all seems so pointless. It feels like the darkness that has taken hold of my mind is desperately trying to claw its way out of my skin. Each day it gets harder to fight the temptation. Just end it says the voice.
You know the voice of which i speak. Its a soothing voice. It talks of better places and happiness and peace and relief. It teases you with promises that THIS will make it all better..make it all go away.. …

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and in the end …

August 8th, 2007by PairaDizeLost

don’t know why I am doing this .. who cares ? I have made one mess of my life after another. Lost everything that matters. Didn’t realize until too late what is most important in life. Family. Love. Forgiveness. I don’t have any of that. the short version:
I was in a very unhappy marriage for near 20 years. I knew at the beginning that it wasn’t the “perfect match”. But it would do. I thought I would grow to love him. Hard to do when you don’t even respect each other. We had children over the years. So I never left because of the children. …

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The Bridge: Looking Into The Abyss

July 27th, 2007by Heatherrr

The Golden Gate Bridge is the top suicide destination in the world. Suicide is not an easy subject matter. My brother died of cancer as a young man, and I was with him when he died. My sister was killed by a drunk driver, and I wasn’t there when she died. In many ways, it was easier to deal with the death that I saw than the one that I didn’t. That is what guided me as I made the documentary The Bridge. In 2004, our crew ran cameras at the bridge for almost every daylight minute, capturing most of the two dozen suicides that …

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Winter Came and Went

July 24th, 2007by Leon

This story won’t take long, but if I could this story would go on forever. That is how much I had admired this man. He was a dedicated teacher who knew so much of his students’ potentcial for greatness, but did not have time to admire their bright futures. The day he had died, I remember pulling up behind a parked ambulance. Any sign like that would make you worry. I had heard from one of my friends that my english teacher had collapsed, but it was in math class when my world had fallen apart.

“He has passed away,” my math teacher had said between …

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So exhausted

June 20th, 2007by onedown

As I lie here on the couch [my 19 yo brother gets my room] my favorite feeling has comeback to haunt me.suicide.My whole life has been shit.I mean my brother is my moms favorite (even tho she acts like hes not)and all he does is treat me like scum even tho I bend over backwards 4 him.(BTW Im 15)No girl likes.I mean im not ugly or anything.Point is I just want this pain to end.If anyone thinks im doing the wrong thing plz tell. otherwise im going to end my suffering by thursday.see ya guys on the otherside

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Tired of pain of living

June 17th, 2007by sherzn

Each morning I’m disappointed to find that I’m still here. Each day brings such great burden. At the end of the day I have no reward for going through it. I fit the criteria for high functioning autism. I look normal so its an invisible disability. At least I now have a reason for always being unable to make conversation and not fitting in. It feels as if I was not made to communicate. When I try, my attention span runs out on me, and I have to struggle to find something to make the conversation continue. These …

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is this what we live for?

May 30th, 2007by themiserymachine

I sit here in this place of quiet and great knowledge. I sit here and I listen to the voices of those around me. Yet, I feel silence. The voices are distant. Far away from me, just like myself. Of course, I hear their words, but they mean nothing, as they have for so long. Until you feel the empty, you don’t know the meaning of alone. You don’t know the meaning of fear. They talk, and they live, and they love. They do not know these feelings that I feel. They do not experience …

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A Great Way To Make Your Child Feel Like A Loser

May 19th, 2007by Carrot_Envy

It’s been over a month after I officially graduated from college. I always thought my parents would be supportive of me and my decisions in life (Note: At 20-something, I still live with my parents (I’m asian! LOL) but ever since my younger sis graduated a month ahead of me (blame it to my university’s Academic Calendar?) and has been hired on her first job, everything has changed.

Cool, so, now my sister is the best daughter ever while I am just a lazy person who sits 24/7 in front of the computer letting the opportunities pass by. I already recieved two phone calls from different companies, the first one offered an above-average salary but I decided I wanted my first job to be memorable and related to my degree. The second one is kind of close to the field I a pursuing but the pay is so low, I would still probably ask for my parents’ money for my everyday fare. I want a CAREER which at the same time could make me pay for a bed space or a place of my own.

I have been trying to tell them that I am not like my sister. It seems to me that my sister is trying to prove something by getting the first job available. I could do that if I wanted to but as i have said I want a fucking career. Am I just being lazy, difficult, stupid, or all of the above? I don’t want to compete with my younger sis. I have always been the best in school and in co-curricular activities growing up, always been the best while the younger sis would be my shadow. Okay, maybe this is her moment (and she really is feeling it) but it’s already hurting me.

I only thought this vacation is a well-deserved one since I spent 6 long academic years in college, summers included. I was a state scholar which means i spared them from spending a LOT from having to pay high tution fees. 3/4’s of what i spent in college, i owe to the government. So, I don’t understand what my parents are bitching about. They have always been laid-back and relaxed even when we were having financial challenges before. So, why fret now that they only have my youngest sister (we are three siblings) to send to college to.

Parents should be

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Meaningless

May 19th, 2007by Charly

I’m almost 23. The first time I clearly remember wanting to kill myself was when I was 11. I’ve been wishing to die ever since and pray everyday that it’ll be the last. I suffered a lot in my life (physical & mental abuse, eating disorders, living on the street, working since I was 14 to pay for school and a LOT more…) and I only know pain and sacrifice. I cry everyday, that’s right EVERYDAY. I’m exhausted of having to fake that I’m OK, just to keep my mom and bro happy. It’s tiring to have to watch tv or go shopping or …

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