Finding It Hard To Find A Reason To Live. I Want So Badly To End The Way I’m Feeling Right Now. I’m So Invisible Everywhere I Go. I Don’t Have Any Friends Around Here. I Just Wish Someone Somewhere Would Listen To Me & Tell Me Everything Will Be Okay & I’m Worth It :/

I promised to do one every day before bed and I shall. Life hurts. Those around us have 100% impact on that hurt. My baby was dull as fuck around me each time I saw her durring school hours. I didnt care. I was hurt and I had had a damn rough night before. She knew this. Oh well what’s done is done. Until she gets angered in a few weeks and brings it all up again. It seems reoccurring that I still want to kill everyone. I know how. I have to technology. Oh well as long as everyone else gets to be happy […]

I am happy, aren’t I?

I am strong, aren’t I?

I am capable, am I?

I am depressed.

I am weak.

I am not good enough.

I don’t know what I am

well i already posted bout my day but it was too soon….i just got the “perfect” ending to a horrible day: my bf broke up with me. strange i woke up knowing today wasnt going to end well, ha i was totally right.. now after today wait its not over something can still go wrong maybe i could end my horrible day forever so i never have to have this day happen again.

Hey my names Jasiel and I’m 12 years old. This is going to take me a lot of guts because I haven’t told anyone about my problem…it all started when I was 9, I was a happy little girl just walking by her self like always, the day was pretty and perfect. Until…all of a sudden everything changed to black. I wasn’t scared because I was used to the dark. But then something got my intention, it was just laying there hopelessly without any movement. It looked familiar and so I walked towards it, I turn it around so I […]

For whoever reads this…I’m sorry for wasting your time.

I’m not sure when this all started…when I began to feel empty inside. I’m a senior in high school. I often find myself thinking about life and if it has a meaning or worth. When I begin to reflect on my life, I believe that my friends start to distance themselves from me. I zone out in class, conversations, homework…you name it, I’ve probably reflected on my life at least once every hour of the day. I get so depressed when I think about my life. I sometimes don’t think I should…that I’m ungrateful for the life I […]

I hate being down talking about my feelings or lack there of. I hate all of it can i just pretend that i love life that i think highly of myself? Can I set myself free for a moment from all the torment?

I’ve spent so long just trying to survive the night, that I have almost completely forgotten how to live. I got 72 stitches in my arms a couple of weeks ago….I think God and the devil are taking bets….. I just won’t fucking die. I have no hope for tomorrow, but I’m done trying to kill myself, for now. So what does that make me?

My mother confronted me about my self-harm and demanded that I allow her to see my arms. I completely denied it and refused to let her look at my arms ( seeing as though I’d just gotten stitches two weeks ago). […]

im through. i have no one else to say this to. goodby world. i hate you asmuch as you hate me.

I’ve been feeling suicidal for about two years now. Read the text wall if you care enough…

Read the recap if you won’t read this, but I’d appreciate it if you did.

I’m only 13, and I’m currently in the 7th grade. My therapist, who came to school to attend me weekly, told me she believed I had depression in the 6th grade. I had discovered the topic not long before she told me this. I told mom when she came to pick me up, she didn’t buy it. It started getting worse after a while, but I wasn’t being treated. Only after a few months later […]

I feel like I am on the edge.
Like I can’t turn back.
Have come so far.
I feel that I am trapped.
I’m scared and alone.
I don’t think I can turn back.
I’m scared to live.
And I’m scared to die.
I feel like such a coward.
Why can’t I just disappear.
I’m just a fuck up.
Why do you even try.
I gave up.
So why do you look at me that way.
With those loving and forgiving eyes.
It would be easier for me if you just hated me.
Like I hate myself.
Why do I try.
It’s not like […]

My cousin is now my girlfriend. I’m going to take her to Conejo Valley Days which is the county fair over here. I can’t wait to spend that time with her. 

I’ve begun branching out on my stories for my war genre involving my alter ego Rogue Shadow. I would give you a preview, but I have barely started with a mere 10 pages altogether. Let’s hope it’s good. I’m thinking of what website I might post it on. Hope I can get pissed off more often at my dad and continue the beginning of Rogue Shadow with the brutal murder of his parents. (Nate’s parents, […]

where do i begin? i don’t even care. i have no one. no purpose. no friends. sure i have pseudo-friends. but not one that would bother be inconvenienced to alter their precious life to help me. so i am alone. perpetually. look, i don’t even bother with capital letters anymore. i don’t expect anyone to even read this so what’s the use anyway? i wish it would end. i haven’t the courage to end things myself. so i just wish for it and cry. i wish i had a real sickness. cancer. something. i almost think at times that then people would notice. but then […]

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well i am 14 and about a year ago i took 20 paracetamols and ended up in hospital , my parents didnt know anything was wrong, you can imagine the suprise. I then a couple of months later went into old habbits and took 16 and the doctors told me that if i took anymore it would be fatal and i would die , i dont know if i want to but recently ive been getting more suicidal thoughts and its messing with me. I just dont know what to do ?!

Today I took about 6 depression quizzes, the last time i took them was a couple of months ago and back then the results were moderate depression, now it’s major depression and those results scare me. I’ve never considered telling anybody about my suicidal thoughts before, but after seeing those results… well now i think i want to get help, I’m just not sure how to do that, it’s not like i can just walk up to my parents and tell them that i think i have depression. What do i do? How do i approach my parents with this subject? Or maybe it’s possible […]

My name is Pete.  Everyday I think about that day.  I was reminded again today as I watched the news of Junior Seau.  I pray for his family and his children.  I had a difficult childhood especially high school.  Little did I know that once high school is over a whole new life begins.  No more harrassment no more bullying.  I have read many posts on this site and I decided to write today!!!
On May 20, 2009, I got a phone call from my dad.  He informed me that something was not right!  It was a weird phone call because my dad nevers calls me.  […]

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.

I’m never going to be worth anything. Why? Because I try so damn hard to be myself, but apparently that person is already taken.

It’s been like this my whole life. I wanted SO bad to be a horse vet, then a year later, my older sister declares horse vet as her career choice. All anyone talked about what how perfect it was for her. She’s SO good with animals.

I want to visit Ireland and Wales, where my ancestors came from, but NO. Coincidentally, my sister is getting an opportunity to go. I’ve wanted to go since middle school.

I want to work with animals for a […]

im done with people, im done with life, im gona dig a hole, crawl in it and die,

People say it gets easier. But it hasn’t yet. My first year in highschool has been ruined becuz of my depression. There’s only 2 months left (about) and I feel I’m getting worse. I’m in more emotional pain. My friends don’t really care. They act like I’m fine but IM NOT FINE! I’m hurting… :/ and it sucks. I don’t know if I’ll get better. I hope I do. Cuz I realized I don’t wanna die anymore…. I just want to run away, from everything… I’m pathetic

-RawrImaTurtle..