She doesn’t know
How much farther
She can go
Before its all over.

 

She wants people
To notice her,
How far will she go
Before she will see the light.

 

She stands alone
Thinking of ways to go
Because she thinks
People don’t see her.

 

She realizes that
In this battle
Of life and death
No one is there for her.

 

As the light
Grows brighter
She sees the
End is near.

 

She knows what
She has to do,
All that’s left
Is saying good-bye

 

She closes her eyes
And counts to three,
And before she knows it
Her life is
Done.

 

She didn’t think
How this would
Affect the people
Who are around her.

 

She doesn’t realize
That those who
Look up to her
Are going to try this themselves

 

She didn’t know
That a seven year old
Would take the blame
Of this […]

Floating on an infinite swell
Unable to think, to feel
This life that I hate so well
Seems to swallow me

The endless deep-blue ocean
Stretches out forever
In each and every direction
Horizon blends to sea
It seems possible to me
I could be a sky-drifter

Eternity is nothing
Here in non-reality
Essence slowly fading
Dying in purgatory

An instant warped to years
Everything happens in no time
That Evil mischievously leers
I want to let my body go
Like I released my mind long ago
Let the funeral bells chime

Sweet Death, how can they not see?
Just another path to travel
A blazing symphony
So small, […]

to tolerate being here

a) I have a friend whose father committed suicide when she was 6 .. I’m like a big brother and father figure to her:

if I were to kill myself, I feel like that would have very negative effects on her .. she could become very lost, hopeless, bitter, self-sabotaging etc

b) I had a 3-4 year break from depression when I was 18 .. what I learned then is that life is mostly unpredictable

c) I’m determined to replace apathy, despair and helplessness with inner joy and curiosity before dying

d)  some people, by acting out of selfishness, fear, spitefulness etc drove me to become […]

Everybody wants to be a somebody weather you doing right or wrong. I want to be always remeber maybe by dealth or even being the one who couldnt do.nothing either way I left my mark but if you think about it thats a fantasy because nowa days its hard to be a somebody !

If you had asked me three years ago where I would be now, I couldn’t have told you. I probably would have said something like “Dead, probably” in jest but inside I believed it.

I was seventeen and in a bad place. Years of physical and emotional bullying from peers and my parents had worn me down and broken me. I had no friends, bad grades. I was binge eating, smoking weed, getting drunk. My body was a mess from cigarette burns and self harm scars. I was in a bad way and I thought my life was over. Over a series of weeks, I scrambled […]

I made a youtube video. It’s called Our Generation Needs To Stop. Check it out. It explains how I feel.

i am sat here, alone in my room in the dark listening to the rain hit my window. It is so beautiful, it is like tears falling when i am unable to cry, like the world is crying for me.

I love the rain, i feel so at peace. When i was younger i used to sit out in the rain with a picnic and an umbrella! My parents thought this was normal.. as was the laying in the road trying to get run over.. but that is a different story!

I think, there is beauty in the world, just peoples perception can sometimes be blinded?

Sometimes I […]

To (SyKo)Nuclearanthrax
First of all, what kind of person respond to another on a subject as serious as this saying: “Hey dude/dudette” is very offensive and diminishing, learn some manners!
Secondly, you obviously just read one page of the whole The Suicide Project website. Go and look at this page: http://suicideproject.org/2010/07/helium-hood-method/ or the one title: Helium Hood Method and another: The Exit Bag. This website is for all kind of people that have lots of emotional pain and have terrible stories. Some just need to hear kind words and to feel that somebody cares, which are the ones you have been leaving your comments. […]

This is the story of my mom’s life and I marvel at her strength.

My mother is half Vietnamese, half American. She and my uncle were the results of my grandma sleeping with one of the men that went to Vietnam during the war. When my mom was two, he left them. It was hard living there because they were always hungry, but it was worse having some American blood. People would do such things as to throw rocks at these kids. I think she was nine- years- old when she was sent on a plane to come here. She considers herself lucky to be alive […]

Hi my name is joseph and im overdosing i need help right now im dieing slowly but i dont wanna tell my parents

I made a promise to two really amazing friends of mine that I wouldn’t cut anymore.. But one of them has been lying to me, and  I don’t know what to do now.. I can’t trust her anymore and that kills me because now I want the blade to take away the pain, even though I know it’ll just cause more pain for those around me.. How do I get rid of this? I don’t know what to do.. Please help..

My mom barely finished middle school, my dad barely finished high school.  Most of my family is not very intelligent, the rest are mediocre.  I have been gifted my entire life, always put ahead of my class because I found everything to be too easy (bear with me, I’m not gloating).  People would say, “how lucky you are to be so smart!” but I now realize that it wasn’t luck, it was a fucking curse.  I feel like Dakota Fanning in “I am Sam” when she doesn’t want to become smarter than her dad.  I hate that my parents are so stupid and so weak […]

There are so many people here that feel exactly like me, almost as if I had written their posts.  Where the fuck are all of you???  I am surrounded by these proletarians that sacrifice their dignity in exchange for a piece of the pie.  How disgusting is that?  I almost don’t believe that these posts aren’t just a figment of my twisted imagination, it doesn’t seem possible that such people like me can exist!  I have to live alone and forego social invites because I cannot suppress the fury that boils within me when I spend a split second with all of the social slaves that […]

Well, my life is fucked… type more later..

I’m crazy, I must be crazy. Out of the blue I took a pen and sticky note and wrote “Hey, I like you. and this is crazy, but here’s my love note, so prom….maybe?” on it, then stuck it to the locker of the girl I want to ask out to prom. WHY DID I DO THAT?

I don’t know what to think, but I did it, it’s done, and nobody can erase it now…unless I somehow get to her locker before she does, open it up, take it off, and hide it before anyone can see? But that won’t work. No. I have to get […]

I stop cutting awhile ago, but now i have been having problems again, and i started cutting again. Every once in awhile I get a feeling like if i aint here(earth) everyone will be happy. I feel like i ruin everyones lives. I ruined my moms, my dads, my WHOLE FAMILIES lives. I want to be and i want them to be happy. The only way that will happen is if i am gone forever. I just want to be happy. I have been suffering from depression since i was 8 and now i am 16. I want to end this now. So maybe this is a goodbye forever.

So I have not been doing good at all. I’ve been getting worse and it hurts. My friends are abandoning me and I just don’t know what to make of my life. There is a song I listen to that touches me deeply cause I feel like the  song was purposefully written with me in mind. The song is “Does Anybody Hear Her” by Casting Crowns. I feel so invisible and worthless in this world. It all hurts. Does anybody hear me? Does anybody care that I’m hurting? That I want to die?

I swear if i hear one more person tell me im young and too naive to truly grasp what life is really about im going to go on a killing spree (not really, but im definitely going to scream at the top of my lungs) i have honestly had more life experience than most of the “adults” i know. ive had to deal with things most people could never even imagine, most things people would NEVER even want to imagine. Ive had to be strong in situations ive seen “adults” just crumble to pieces in. Who do you think takes care of the “adults”? we […]

i know a lot of people come on here and just complain…and then some other guy comments something inspirational, like those few words are really going to make up for a life full of pain, regret, and anger? i understand tho, im always that friend who tells them that their is always something to live for, im usually that person who tries to say something inspirational and save the day. But if i dont even believe in the crap im dishing out why should anybody else? am i that convincing? Or are my friends just so surprised that a pretty face can have brains too? […]

Why cry now

You never noticed me before

It’s too late now to claim you care

I’m six feet under

Silk-lined box and all

I banged and banged to get your
attention

But you never heard me

Never paid attention

Now that I’m gone you wonder

What you could have done

Well you could have done everything
you never did

But now you can start by walking
away

I’m no longer here

Don’t cry a tear

Because I no longer live in fear

I took your pain

And protected you

You never once thought that I needed
you

You weren’t there before

I don’t need you now

So please just walk away

Without a single tear

Because you never truly cared

Don’t fake it today