I know I haven’t posted in a while and that’s because I didn’t have anything to say. Now I have something to say. And it’s about the loveliest of creatures – a mother. I just got done talking to mine a bit ago, no, I wasn’t talking, she was. And that’s part of the problem. She talks and I don’t. She wants me to talk though. This sounds like it would be easily solved, but I feel like it’s not that easy. You see, my mom is not that interesting to me. That’s a horrible thing to say, but it’s pretty true. We’re just so […]

Anyone? Where n how old?

Crying, I sat on the edge of my bed. 4 guys texting me, but all they wanted was sex.  Surely I’d be used to it by now. I’m not a human to them, I’m a toy, easily replaced.

Hi, I’m a 16 year old girl. In a way, I feel average. I think every teenager goes through this depression of feeling unloved, unwanted, and ultimately rejected. I feel like I can’t handle it. Walking through school, i can hear kids whispering, “gross” “i hear she smokes pot” “You remember the time she farted in 4th period? so gross” “slut” “smells like poor”….. i could go on. […]

I feel like no one ever listens to me and hear my opinions. Like anything that comes out of my mouth or anything that I think of is just jibberish and not worth anyone’s time. They always cut me off before I finish my thought, judge me from the first 3 words of my sentence, ignore me after a minute. What’s the point in being here if no one really wants the hear what you have to say?

I’m tired of always fighting to have my voice be heard.

Even on here.

Am I just a nuisance to everyone? Does my presence annoy the hell out of you? If […]

Last night my dad went crazy at my mum for no apparent reason.   Its been going on for 15 years and its been haunting me all my life . My dad has anger problems (and also smokes weed) and because of this i am afraid of other people who do to so im afraid to talk to people.   Because of the argument my parents had last night i wanted to run away so my dad could realise that im not happy with the way hes acting but i couldnt run away cause i was too much as a pussey.   Im a very quiet person so […]

Hi,

I’m Arnaud and I’m 20 years old.

If you ask me what I think about my life I can only say that it sucks. I don’t know what to do.

Most people see me as a happy person with lots of humor, a nice smile and lots of friends. That’s nice because it is exactly what I want to show to my friends and family. I don’t want them to worry for me because I know they can’t do anything to help me.

When people ask me questions like: “what is your goal in life?” or “what is your biggest dream?” I reply: “buying an Island in the […]

i’m just tired. i literally came today to a point where i wanted to seriously die. i kept trying to hold my tears back. and i was frusstrated.

i haven’t cut myself in 4 years but today i cut my arm to remember that feeling. the feeling that calms me down.

i spend my teenage years babysitting

monday/tuesday:       9am-10pm

wednesday:    9am-5pm

friday:    2pm-10pm

saturday/sunday:      9am-5pm.

babysitting a baby with down syndrome, a 2 year old and a 9 year old isn’t easy.  sometimes even other kids.

i never have time for myself.. not even for a simple hang out with a friend. my mom always has […]

I am so frustrated and heartbroken right now. My poor little dog is 14 and I took him to a new groomer today. He was absolutely fine before he left, but when I picked him up he was crying and limping. I thought ok give it an hour because he might be stressed out and his arthritis might be acting up. Well when we got home I noticed how swollen he was. Shortly there after his back leg went completely lame and he cant walk at all. I called the vet and they couldn’t get him in, she suggested the emergency vet or to take him in […]

I thought I knew my husband, but it’s clear I don’t have a freaking clue who he is.  We’ve been together 10 years, married 9 and I don’t know this man.  He’s been keeping secrets, and I think probably has from the beginning.

A bit of background, mainly for me…I’m trying to makes sense of nonsense.  He’s from Nigeria, a doctor, I’m white from the US and a nurse. We got set up on a blind date. Married  5 months later. Me stupidly thinking he loved me.  Almost immediately he takes a trip to Nigeria, for over a month, over the next 4 years he probably […]

well i hoped for a new start and i truly believed it would work , but the same as myself that failed , so im screwed i guess what to do now , well theres one thing in my mind and alot of people wont do it but ive heard about the helium hood method , it looks promising….heres hoping

Today i woke up and my mom was gone so I went outside a smoked a joint. Before it finished my mom came home (im not hiding it from her just keeping it to myself) so anyway i quickly put it out and ran inside to my room to put the roach away.. It ended up stinking up the whole house so i went to the bathroom to have a shower and get ready when my mom knocks on the door.. She told me she needs to talk to me and i got scared she found my razors, and when she told me it was […]

two more life steps and I get to end it all with as little hard feelings as possible.

1. save up nest egg for brother
2. kill self

simple; I don’t care anymore how I earn the money, just that I do. I’m putting this out to my universe so that it sinks deepeer into my brain. I don’t give a fuck about existence. I want out. The things that go on around me, this life, this society of “civilized” apes.. me nah want it. fuck it. keep it. don’t need it. don’t want perception. don’t want a brain. don’t want to know anything. non-existence, c’est ca […]

So…. Updates for those who are interseted in me and my mental health, which is probably none of you….:/.

At 1am On Monday 6th February…my new nephew was born, i met him today and he is stunning….im in love, might upload a photo of us…

Im not talking to my dad, still. we got into an arguement after the whole police thing and thats just been it. i miss him though….should i apologise? do i even have anything to apologise for?….

I’m also considering a foster home, because as long as i’m living here i don’t think i’m going to get better…. so much stress and negative atmosphere….

I’m […]

does anyone feel peace when they start to contemplate suicide i know i do.

Hi,

I feel realy bad those days and need to share what I’m hollding in me for about 14 years now with the people on this site. I need a bit help and suport but I don’t now how to begin. I never thought that writing a text about how I felt this last 14 years would be so difficult.

I spend already 2 hours on this site tring to writh something but I don’t know how.

Can someon give me some advice?

Thanks

I fell another level into my depression. fell, falling,, anyway, I’m having trouble moving. That can’t get out of bed in the morning feeling.. suicide won’t be far off. kill me, i wont hold it against you

Love you guys, so even if you decide to die, even though i don’t want you too i will try to pray to God to save your soul. I don’t know if it will help but even in death just know I was there for you, because i feel like dying too! But somehow i always manage to live, no matter how lonely and awkward and unaccepted i feel, which is like everyday!
Love y’all!
Tigerlily93
Nia

Dear Everyone who feels like committing suicide,
I feel like I have an answer. I can’t guarentee it will work. But you have to try it first ok. Just promise, you’ll try.
Hi everyone,my advice is try to learn God for yourself. In order to know God you first have to know Jesus. Only through Jesus can you be healed. Trust me. It might sound crazy but it’s true.
Trust me, i know. I’m not that religious and allmy life i have been the loner, awkward black girl that no one ever really noticed. almost every guy i ever wanted to love rejected me and […]

Well, I’m not sure if any of you guys can remember a young woman on here that went by the name of bex21, but a month ago today, her life ended due to overdose. On that night, January 17th, at about 2030, she emailed me and begged me to reply, telling me she had already done what needed to be done and she was playing the “waiting game” and she only had an hour or two left to live. She was in a lot of pain. I emailed her and we sent messages back and forth for about 2 hours, sharing each other’s stories, but […]

Its 5:21am, no sleep, can’t sleep, class in 3 hours, there’s no point in trying anymore, I wish I were dead.