Please everyone who thought about suicide read! I love you all, this is coming from The God in me, or my good spirit.

Dear Everyone who feels like committing suicide,
I feel like I have an answer. I can’t guarentee it will work. But you have to try it first ok. Just promise, you’ll try.
Hi everyone,my advice is try to learn God for yourself. In order to know God you first have to know Jesus. Only through Jesus can you be healed. Trust me. It might sound crazy but it’s true.
Trust me, i know. I’m not that religious and allmy life i have been the loner, awkward black girl that no one ever really noticed. almost every guy i ever wanted to love rejected me and i also rejected myself. Because i hate myself so much it is hard for me to live. It doesn’t help that every day i wake up i have to face the world andin the world people keep reminding me of my flaws. They want to see us fail, because they know that we are the ones that can help make some of the biggest changes. We are the people who can help save the world from being totally ruined by chaos.
There is nothing wrong with us. Trust me. We are leaders. But if you do notbelieve in yourself you will fail and take your life. But you are much better than that. You are stronger, you know why
? Because the devil only messes with people who can be true believers of God. He wants you to falltothe evil and join him, but if you believe in yourself and Jesus somehow no matter how much you want to die somehow you will be able to live.
I know it hurts so much to live, trust me.
allmy life, i’ve felt like nothing truly good has happened to me. Even though iam only 18, I wanted to give up ever since i was 10.Butbecause in my heart i want to truly get to heaven and know God i will never let the Devil win, and make me take my life. And turn me to the dark side.
Please the DEvil just wants you to belong to him, don’t let him take away your goodness, please, even if you never felt worthy of love or of being good. That’s why Jesus came. To say that even though you might make terrible mistakes, he still loves you, and if you believe in that love only a little you might be able to heal bit by bit.

I hope all of you guys keep fighting. You will constantly be under attack. That’s what the bible said is true of everyone, but if you can be strong and just make it to another day rather you mess up or not, You are still victorious. The world may never tell you that you are champions and winners and that you are worthy beautiful and prescious!
But i want to tell you, that you are!
You truly are. So even if you feel lost and notlike livingand even ifyou may be depressed or hurt everyday as long as you live and keep fighting you are a Winner!
Even if you have to cry every night, as long as you make to the next day you are one step closer to Heaven! or that Place with no pain. Just Stick to it and endure it, and remember God, and Jesus are always therewith you as you go through your struggle, just learn to see him and believe in him for yourself.

For example i see God through the good people in my life, like my family, my closest friends and a guy who really loves me.

P.s just because Jesus is with you it still doesn’tmean you always have to be perfect. Heknows we are human. But as long as we come to him, and even if we don’t, he forgives us.
But we have to goto him, justso we can have the confirmation for ourselves.

Sorry if i have spelling errors and if you think i’m trying toforce you to believ something you don’t want to but if you don’t believein yourself just knowJesus and God will always believe in you, and because of that you should live!
Sorry, also if you don’t full understand everything, but i hope you understand the main message, and i truly hope it can help you. The only way for you to change is ifyou want to believe inGod/Jesus if you can’t yourself. When you fully understand God’s love you may be able to love yourself better. Oh and keep going to seek help from professionals to make sure you can stay stable if you feel like you can’t do itby yourself. Also If you tell a pastor, maybe they can help too!
But I know if you die, you will lose and I am not sure ifGod will ever forgive you for taking your life, because he feels that you were worthy even though others may not.