This might be the end… I feel like no matter what I do in life I can never win, being an honest guy only gets me into trouble. I feel like every one is out to get me, last year I did 3 months in jail for walking down my own street, this kid I had trouble with in the past, called the police and said I threatened to kill him and I was holding a knife standing in front of his house, complete b.s ‘ police believed him bcuz of my record of violence ‘
Any ways to make a long story short, I’m going […]
Im only young, and from what other people have posted, my life isnt that terrible. But i hate it. I lost my house in the fires and lost alot of people that matter. I get bullied at school, IÂ have been used by guys so many times, and often find myself in the school libary with no friends. Im not ugly and i have a fashion sense and i wear makeup, but only so people like me. I smile on the outside, but break from the inside. i have attempted suicide. Got scars on my wrists. But i always think “what would happen if […]
I live in California, and I feel suicidally depressed! Basically want to die, but I am here and want to talk to someone who feel the same way as me because I can’t believe I am the only one in the world who feels this way! Chat with me or email me at talktome3134@yahoo.com
I use yahoo messenger by the way it is talktome3134!
Have you ever had the feeling that you’re all on your own? That nothing will ever be okay again? That you are sick of all of this pain you’ve been feeling for a very long time?
Well, I don’t want to say that my life sucks. But I’m just sick of feeling the same pain every single minute of the day. And sometimes all I want to do is just kill myself. Maybe that is just the only solution to stop my pain. Instead of helping myself, I’d be rescuing myself, right?
xo BrokenSilencex
The one person I’ve given my all to, doesn’t care that I don’t want to be here anymore. I just want to know someone cares. No one else knows that im suicidal.
I’ve used these kind of sites before and I never got anywhere with them,but I came across this,and thought I’d give them one last go.
I’ve fucked everything up so bad, I had everything, now I think of it,but I lost it all. All my friends, well my real ones anyway. My family are completely different around me now they know what I wanted, and how badly I was coping,it’s almost patronizing. I had endless Councillors, doctors and things but they just didn’t work. Now I literally have nothing,and I’d just got my career side of life things together and I’ve been told today I can’t […]
You know what i hate about them. Everything!. They consently judge me on the things i do. I brought this cool hat WITH my own birthday money and all i get is constent complaints. If they didnt fucking like it they could had gotten me something. But nyuu none of them did. And today i had my hat on and my dad keeps say that i like those white girls clothes. Are you fucking me? Are you fucking me? Maybe you havent realize this, but you barely ever come on. Have you not realize that i now hate talking to you cause you certainly always […]
When I was a little girl I was neglected and abused, both physically, emotionally, and mentally. As the years progressed and I entered puberty it seemed as if my whole aura had changed and all the boys noticed.. I started cutting myself because its the only way I ever felt anything.. if not love why not pain? I tried commiting suicide more than 4 times, and failed. What about my friends? i thought.. Â As I entered grade 11 and 12 boys started to think they could take advantage of me, and I was raped at a highschool party. Soonafter that, my self esteem dropped to […]
This is really so lame, but I’m 22 and I still think I’m that same little girl that my mom used as a physical and emotionally punching bag. I still remember her telling me to go and kill myself when I was about 11,12 after her ranting and raving. I remember her laughing when I cried and telling me that god didn’t love me. I remember the isolation and always being afraid.I know they are lies now, but for years I believe that bit**. I’m so angry I have to work hard too achieved things that everyone takes for granted. She stole my chance to […]
I know life isn’t always fair, but shit, I just wanted a decent life and a decent chance of making it. All I wanted was happiness, love and a reason for my existence. But apparently that’s too much to ask for.
It’s just seems unfair to be born as me. There’s so many people who’ve had a great life, lots of family, love and opportunities. Why couldn’t I have been one of them? Why was I screwed with a shitty abusive childhood that’s scarred me for life? I’ve managed it all the best I could, but I’m now broken and a mess. It’s been too many […]
K so, think about this.
Life may suck. Yes I understand how you think. But killing yourself really wouldn’t end the suckiness. Well, I guess it would. But Then it would put a lot more people then you know in grief & pain & misery & silence & sorrow & all of that good stuff.
It’s a chain reaction you see.
And shit WILL NOT get better if you just sit around, cut yourself, pop some pills, or tie that noose, or load that gun, or take that step, or grasp that blade, or anything else.
I know, I may sound like a total ***** right now. Yes, I […]
…spend more time looking at the facebook profiles of ‘friends’ then they actually spend time with them?
is there a rule about killing yourself on your birthday…?
Ill never live a normal life. Not with my past. I just want a time machine. I knwo I should just look forward and learn from my past… but its not as simple as people make it seem when they say it. Im just scared of whats gunna happen after wards. After I end it all. will I be forever in blackness or will i really go to a heaven ? I know nieave… but it gives u peace knowing that something is better. Even if there ws though God would probably wouldn’t let me in, cause suicide is a sin and all. When i […]
the refuge of Anonymity .
I’m 45. Been melancholy for all my life as I remember it. As an artist I’ve utilized it at times of course.
Congestive Heart Failure and Pulmonary Hypertension have taken their toll and brain aneurysm side affects for a basilar artery 1×2 cm aneurysm which was vertebral occluded twice with small stroke as a result seems to in the last couple of months spontaneously reared it’s head.
I’m broke. Unable to work and looking at homelessness in approx. 4 to 8 weeks and no where to turn. Thank you Republicans for ruining the economy and cutting funds to the needy while plying the […]
Today, I confessed to a friend what I was going through. He was so supportive. I was impressed too. We prayed together. I felt better, and I feel that we as humans must try to not despair. Life is uncertain, sometimes you commit mistakes you regret deeply later and/or sometimes something bad happens to you, and you wonder why because you have been such a good person. You know it is all part of our role here in this world. I am slowly gaining strength.
And why am I such an emotional wreck? It’s been 6 years and I can’t get it together…
when I’m sad I like to listen to music, specially to a band, called The Velvet Underground, I like their songs. They are calm and relaxing, at least for me. They are an old band, but makes me feel better when I listen to their songs. Just a suggestion if anyone wants to try…
i ran across this website bout a week ago and thought it was goin 2 help me get through this difficult part of my life. i’ve opened up told my story but still no one chooses to listen… i’ve tried to help out some of you out there but i guess im no good at that either(big surprise). when i found this site i thought i wasn’t alone but now i realize i truly am, it doesn’t matter though thats what i get and thats what its destined to be…