Dead people.

I love a lot of dead celebrities. A long list, its an obsession, and I love it.

Jimmy Sullivan (Avenged Sevenfold)
Lucielle Ball (I Love Lucy)
Harpo Marx (Marx Brothers)
Groucho Marx (Marx Brothers)
Chico Marx (Marx Brothers)
Zeppo Marx (Marx Brothers)
Al Capone (Mobster)
Lucky Luciano (Mobster)
‘Machine Gun’ Jack McGurn
Walt Disney
Marilyn Monroe
Ryan Dunn (Jackass)
Jimi Hendrix
Janis Joplin
Kurt Cobain (Nirvana)
George Harrison (The Beatles)
John Lennon (The Beatles)

I noticed this a lot, I’m not interested in living celebrates at all, manly the dead ones. I know some of them are mainstream and such, but I love it. I studied them about them and their life a lot.

i thought it is supposed to make you feel good. Alive and a escape that can no longer be bareable/ Why am i listening to music. Why does it make me feel any more shitty. I thought it will be a good day. Got and early birthday present and everything and what do i get? A smack down of depression. I dont wanna live another day. I want music to be my escape. But it seems it left and off to somewhere that it wont go near me. One of these days. I will break. I will break that what is the point in writing […]

In reading your posts, and looking back on the people I have lost to intentional death ….

Why are they some of the most smart, intellectual, hilarious, WITTY people I have ever met?

So witty! Funny … I live for laughter and I would PAY to talk to my friend that just recently passed away to have a great laugh and intellegent conversation, its what the world is lacking.

Have a good day everyone and find the smallest thing to appreciate today.

xo

Hey guys. Im here as a support system. Suicide is NOT THE ANSWER. Encouraging someone to end their life is WRONG.

I am here for encouragment to find what makes you happy, to give you ideas, to help you through anxiety …

Ive had many friends commit suicide, you WILL have to deal with your problems on the other side. It MAY take longer than your human life to accept your demons and move on to a peaceful afterlife. You will here your friends and families thoughts and some can feel very sorry for putting people through suicide.

We all feel helpless, stressed, like sleeping forever is the […]

Hello everyone.

Should I even explain why I’m here 🙂 ?

I’ve never really been very happy, just short stretches of joy, (much longer) stretches of pain and shame sewn together in a numb haze of acquiescence to being dragged by circumstance hoping it would take me somewhere nice enough at some point.

It hasn’t, and now I’m completely alone with nothing to look forward to. For a long while now the only thing that seems to bring me comfort is the thought of ending it all. It haunts me lately, not a day goes by that I don’t think about it.A “good” night now just means going […]

Starting to wonder if this black cloud will ever end and if the only way it will is by ending it myself? Starting to wonder what the point in fighting is anymore? It doesnt get me anywhere and its not like anyone will notice let alone miss me if i was gone. Im not sure i can keep on just existing…..

people think that your crazy at the way you feel, then others don’t, does that mean that the ones that think your normal is the ones that think like you? that’s a question that I always ask my self. When you are standing in a crowd and you think every ones laughing at you when really its just in your head that maybe you are the one that’s laughing at your own self. when people say that it’s ok to feel that way it’s not your fault your like that. but deep down you wonder how could it not be. why was I born that […]

So i’m falling back into a depressed state again.

I’m thinking of maybe finding another method, idk yet

Is anyone here gonna do ligature asphyxiation? ’cause that’s what i’m planning, but i wanna talk to someone who’s gonna do it too, so yeah, hit me up

MrSebastior @ gmail . com

i really dnt understand im happy but emotionally drained. sometimes i dread goin home because i know i have  a 3 yr old screaming in my ear and so much to get dne. its so hare to wake up and get motivated and readyu yfor school. i didnt think beeing a 17 year old was this hard. i wish i had could just get an engery boost and get it al done but ti dnt see tht happinig any time soon:/ oh well be glad whens it dne with

You said you’d always be there for me. You said I was the only one. You said I was the best for you. I know I left. But you said you would wait. I came back. Where’d you go? For months we had mixed feelings. And I said I would come back… Here I am for the taking. Why her? Why not me? Is she that much better? I guess our relationship was all a lie. When I needed you the most you left. I can’t chase you forever. Maybe this should be the end of everything for us. We could have had it all. […]

I sit here in the darkness, lit only by my monitor and the light from the kitchen and I want to die. I want to die. It sounds so simple to say out loud, but I can’t utter a word.

Understand i have never been physically abused, suffered from alcoholism or eating disorders, etc that might trigger this. I come from a good home, with a good if unconventional family and have a husband who I love but don’t deserve. I have a steady job and a place to live. Yet, I want to die.

All my life I have been a failure at everything. I thought […]

I’m dreaming about how it’s gonna end..
Lying on the sofa,
Feeling crazy, feeling beaten, broken.
I’m thinking I’m suicidal
Idle, Lying here, idling the time away.
Dreaming of the final day and the ultimate escape.
I want a peaceful way, a gentle way, drifting into eternal sleep..
Sleep that knits the ravelled sleeve of care..
Sleep that takes me beyond the need of care.
Yes, thinking of suicide,’ suic’ idol..
Have I made an idol out of Death?
Has Death deceived me by displacing Life?
Eternal Life that I received when I was young?
Life that promised so much..
Life that I’ve trampled upon […]

my 2 oldest kids now in there late 20s are not my husbands i have never kept that a secret the only thing i knowingly did wrong was tell them both they were frm same man until a couple of years ago all came out in a family argument,a year ago i had to give up work as i could nolonger cope with it as i have collapsed vertabrae and fatigue the pain can be unbearable at times then i told my 2 oldest i couldnt look after their kids as i was to ill they havent spoke to me since they say im a […]

I feel the end is near. for the past 5 months i have been thinking about suicide. I have tried 3 times with every attempt ending in failure. all 3 attempts i have tried hanging myself and i get scared right as i start to black out. Im scared of the unknown. Im not religious but do believe that there is somethin out there that is greater than this shit hole of a world we live in. I find myself wondering if the relgious people are right. If i commit suicide will i burn in hell for eternity? or will i just simply be dead and nothing […]

You say that you’re in control
You say that you are
I can’t think of a time
When you looked less alive
You said, “Wait until light, my dear”
Just wait until light
One more day will go by
Maybe today you should try
Look past the mirror and find
Look past the mirror
That there’s something inside
Something more to your life
My words won’t heal you now
My words won’t heal
It is you who decides
It is you who decides

This burden’s not a heavy one
But I assure you, it’s present
This burden’s not a heavy one
I assure you

Believe that you […]

I have never had feelings of suicide … I have had many friends commit suicide and it breaks my heart to think with a friendship and understanding and some hope, you can change. I give great advice and can see an upside to some things in your life you may dwell on. I can help you find what makes you happy, and help you with the moves you can make to get out of your current situation and find the good in life. Life is tough for everyone, can we find what would make you happy?

Please email me … Im 24, currently living in Las […]

It sounds so stupid but I need to play hockey. It’s my only release. The only thing that completely washes everything away. It was one of the reasons I moved back home, so I could have that release to feel better and be healthier mentally. But now I’m injured and it’s so stupid how important a game is to me. I’m not even good at it, it’s not like I’m going to ever play pro. I just love it. Music was my second best release, but it still depressed me and I usually end up writing depressing songs (all of the ones I’ve written are) […]

I’ve been in depression hell for over 20 years now. Totally disconnected from anyone. I supposedly am a fun girl to be around, but I no longer have any close friends or family.  One sister I should be close to, but a couple hours a month in phone calls, isn’t much to live for.  I talk with my Mom sometimes.  Both live states away.  I moved where my Mom was and saw her a couple times a week when I went to her house to watch tv with her.  Other than that, Mom never calls or reaches out to me.  I got a son but […]

My best friends, Leighann & Sean, age, 18 died December 28 of a drunken car crash.

We’ve known each other since kindergarten, people talk about how they remember us being inseparable. We would have to go to the bathroom together or we cried, if we wern’t partners we wouldn’t even participate at all & when one of us got put in “time-out”, the other would throw a fit, just so they could go and sit in the corner with me or her. We grew up together, still inseparable. By the age of 14, we were one of  the most known people in our neighborhood, for fights, […]

its very hot the heat is very hot. Its very hot but my hands and feet are cold? the fan isnt on. but my hands and feet are cold. Why is that? Has anyone ever thought about burning theirselves to death? Anyone has try it. It got me thinking. Its painful, a lot of skin will be damage and your internal organs will be cook. But just a though. Burning to death? Is it the only most painful way to go?