I would cause a lot of stress on my family. But they would cry and get over it. My friends would not know so they would forget quickly. My love will die with me. Problem solved there.
I want to kill myself tonight. I have every reason to… I need someone to talk to.. Can’t stop shaking

It’s 8.. At night.

I’m sitting here.

Alone.

I’ve never been more happy.

I vow.

I vow, that christmas, this year, I’ll be happy, and not the ‘chrisitmas spirit’ happy.

I mean happy.

Sorry we couldn’t help change your mind but I know you’re going to be happier gone….

R.I.P….NihilisticThought

You helped me stay alive this long

I notice that a lot of people who post their pictures up are white. And you all are Very beautiful or handsome. Just wondering if there are any other Asian posters on here? Just to get a good idea.

Not caring what happened anymore.

Her legs gave out.

And as her, scarred up body, hit the floor.

She remained unscaved.

But her heart, was torn into a million pieces.

Her heart with scars of course.

Hello everyone. I posted on this site a few years ago under a different name and after reading  your guys posts recently, I decided to post a lil bit about my life. For the past couple months i’ve been feelin extremely suicidal, like if I had a gun in my house or had easy access to a gun I woulda blew my brains out a long fucking time ago!! I’m on edge and extremely paranoid.. Paranoid about what?? I DONT FUCKING KNOW. Just in general. I ignore most of my friends phone calls because of my paranoia and barely leave my parents house and im a […]

I had pet hamster called hammy. I sometime’s let him out of his cage for a run around the house But. the door was open and he ran into the garden. My dad said a cat probity eat him. He was my best friend. Hope he made it to the foest and is happy.

I’m so sick of this crap! Life is bullshit, I don’t want to play after its rules anymore. Call me stupid or whatever I’m just fed up with everyone trying to tell me “You can’t do that”, “That’s not how it works”, “Focus on real life”, “You can’t walk on water”, “Well that’s just how it is”, “Smile at the camera”. I was born into this world and I never signed something that I want to participate in this game.

I’ve been gathering the money laying around on my bank account, under my bed and wherever it’s hiding. And I’ve come to the conclusion that … I’m […]

Couldn’t I just; stop. Stop having to think. Maybe I could simply become a blank disk, only childlish giggles, and colourful things.

No thought, no worrys. A robotic institute within my own stereotypical mind, wrapped in a thick layer of semi-permiable armour. Wouldn’t that be devine.

I’m very sheltered… I have boyfriends in real life but I also try some long distance things.. I ended up having feelings for someone who lives all the way across the united states. We dated for almost a year but things got so serious..I got scared and broke up with him… I didn’t want to but I felt like i had to. He’s the only one who has had my heart for a couple years. After taking some time to figure out how I could do this.. I tried to get close to him again but I felt like he was pushing […]

I ordered the helium kit over two weeks ago and it still hasn’t arrived. I was hoping to do this soon, now it looks like i will have to wait. Any one else ordered these kits? Have you had any problems?

I now have no feeling. I see no future. I lost the only one I want to be with. I am 19 years old and recently retired from the US Army because of an injurey i had gotten in mid 2010 in Afghanastan. I have lost everything that is important to me. The Army was something i was good at, it was something that kept me going. I cant perform to the physical and mental standards of the army anymore because of my last tour. I dont know where i can go from here now. I feel that i will be coming to an end […]

well my name is brittany im 17 Ive been through a lot in my life my dad always tld me i was the biggest mistake of his life:( which i though a lot about in whn i turned 13 n i got rly depressed. my mom has always tried really hard to keep me and my sisters a roff over our head n food in our stamchs. when i was 14 i stoped eatin anythin i wound up getting anerixa but i got treatment for it 🙂 i started cutin then als0. ive tryed suicided twice bt thankfuly i was stoped. ive came to relize i have […]

I think I’ve discovered the lesson I’m meant to learn in this life. That is… suicide is O.K. People fear suicide and always want to “help” someone because if someone kills himself it makes others have to question their own life and meaning.

I believe that deep down everybody is unhappy with life and feels it’s not worth it. This is why deep down everybody is unhappy and feels empty. This is why humans treat each other so badly and carry on like they do. However, people have convinced themselves that life is worth it, because once you realize the truth it is difficult and chaotic.

It […]

I’ve been having the weirdest feeling lately. It’s not really a ‘feeling’, but it’s hope. I’d never thought I’d feel it, ever. Being hopeless was one of my ‘best’ traits. But today I actually felt happy. I was home alone all day of course, but still. I opened the blinds, curtains, doors and let it a lot of sun. I made myself some bacon and eggs and I got my usual tutor. I cleaned for crying out loud, and I made my own ‘organisation book’ and a shopping list. And I even sat down and did my homework. That’s also usually the last thing I’d […]

I’ve been reading some of these posts for a few months now, and I finally made a profile tonight. I’m 17 and I’ve been super deppressed my whole life, and suicidal since I was five. I was beat really bad everyday when I was little and devoloped masochism. I finally managed to start convincing myself that everything would get better when the preacher at my church asked me to fill in for him Sunday night, I broke down and started crying while I was up there, and since then can barely gather the strength to get out of bed in the morning and all of […]

I’m normally okay in the morning. Mornings are usually my strong suite for the whole day. I like watching the sun come up in the morning while I’m lying by my window, a tree waving in the wind with its green leaves. It’s the best view I ever get nowadays. When I was seven and I had to be in that house all the time with my rapist there weren’t any windows. I’d lie there in my bed waiting for the morning to come but I didn’t when that would be. I could hear the rain pattering against the […]